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Hi Victoriah
Thank you for your kind words, with regards to the next 6 months being an’interesting time’ put a smile on my face! l have thought about the next 6 months, but not quite in an ‘interesting’ way, so perhaps l need to look at my future with rose tinted glasses instead of doom and gloom! Thank you again x

Hi Finty,
Yes, yes and yes again, all those feelings, l am sure once the treatment starts, l will start feeling like something is being done, at the moment it is waiting for results and ops! Thank you x

Hi Monica,
Thank you for your kind words, very much appreciated and needed! x

Love to all
Sandra xxx

Hi Sandra.
I was dx at the age of 39 single parent with two children the youngest being 4 months old did not know one thing about bc and the internet was not heard of well not in my little world, any how when i got my results i was told i had 19 positive nodes and the look on the oncs face was not encouraging, i just said hit me with whatever you can had no choice really when i looked at my childrens faces, i was given fec for about 3 months then went in to have a trial chemo no idea what it was called but it was very hard on me i was hospitalised for 7 weeks, any way all i wanted to say was that will be 14 years ago next month and at the time i could not even see another 12 month ahead of me,
Stay strong and remember it is treatable even with heavy node involvment,
Thinking of you
Kay xx p s if ever you want some one talk to im happy to give you my number i know it helped me at the time x

Oh Kay, That must have been the worst nightmare for you, having such yound children, makes me feel ashamed to whinge! at least my ‘children’ are 36 and 34, what breaks me up is my grandchildren, l am so very close to them, the eldest is 5years, then 3, 2 and 2 months! the eldest is very sensitive and very close to me, so l have a ‘very small’ measure of what you went through!
Sounds a dreadful thing to say, and l hope you know l mean it in the nicest way! it is really good to hear there are others out there that had so many nodes positive, and survived!
Did you cope, or did you need the help of some ‘happy pills’ feel sometimes l need a bit of extra help, although trying really hard to deal with this without, did think l might ask the doc for something, as a standby!
Would love to have your number, just don’t want to remind you of the ‘horror days’ as you say sometimes it is good to know there are those that have survived!
That is a good idea, perhaps l will try the helpline to see if they have others like me that l can chat too, l am sure your life is busy with teenagers, so very kind of you. Big Thank You. For today you have given me hope! so l will save your post, so l can keep looking at it!!!
Love and Hugs and Health to you and your family
Sandra xxx

hi Sandra
hope you are doing ok i sent you a private message hope you got it x

HI my gp put me on anti depressants it has helped me a lot , sometimes we just need a little more help with dealing with what is being thrown our way ,also diazapram calmed my nerves which are all over the place ,find it hard to concerntrate on anything wish you all the best Jane x

Hi Kay, posted you a pm.

Hi Jane, Thank you for your feedback, yes we do sometimes need a little bit more help…my doctor prescribed some diazepam for me just over a week ago. And knowing they are there if l should need them, is a tonic in itself. Have had some really bads days, but each time l think, l will see how l feel in an hour, usually just as bad, but no worse!!!
I am going into hospital tomorrow, for more of a margin to be removed, feel quite relaxed today!!! calm before the storm! who knows.
Probably just the thought something is happening, rather than sitting thinking waiting, waiting thinking and more waiting and thinking.
Yes, what is concentration? seems as though that word has left me. It is all me me me!! and why not!
Love to you both,
Wishing you Health, Happiness and Laughter
Sandra xxx
S

Dear Sandra,
All the best for tomorrow, I’ll be thinking about you. Take the diazepam, don’t wait to see find you are just the same in an hour … Doesn’t help with the concentration though, I don’t seem to have a brain at all at the moment, but at least with the diazepam I don’t care !
Love Maria

Hi Maria,
How are you? obviously on top form, your last comment made me laugh! and that isn’t easy.
Haven’t got to be in hospital until noon and then hopefully home late evening, at least it will give me time to see my mum and walk the dogs! do we ever stop?
Thought l might go into the library tomorrow and pick up some of those talking books, as my brain wont let me read anything but rubbish magazines!
I wonder will l ever be able to read intellectual books again, probably not, as l couldn’t read them before the dreaded cancer came along!!!
Take Care
Love
Sandra xxx

Hi Sandra,

Yes I am on top form, bruised. sore, scared, you name it, I’ve got it, trying to keep busy, but I’ve got no dogs to walk, just a very sweet girl (my son’s girl-friend who has come to stay to look after me and my younger son), to take to the train station so she can go to an interview, as she is hoping to become a mid-wife.

But laughter is the best medicine, so I am glad I gave you a smile.
So you are thinking of a talking intellectual book or an intellectual talking book ! That must be a first for us ladies who really need a little light entertainment. All I can say is thank goodness for spell checkers on my computer, other wise I don’t think i could even participate on these forums.

Seriously though, it seems this re-doing of margins is no big deal as far as the hospital is concerned (it is for us, though) , is it not done under general anesthetic ?
I send you all that is positive and hugs and stuff.
Love Maria