182 When you had both your underarms waxed.
183 When you didnt spend time in the shower thinking of funny posts to thread.
184 When you didnt spend time in the shower thinking of the posts you had read and wondering how that person was doing?
185 When you couldnt be ars*d throwing a party just for the sake of havin a party
186 When your hair didnt feel like a car sponge
187 When your hair didnt look like a car sponge
188 When you didnt say what you felt because you might , oh my god, upset someone
189 When you said what you felt because you had the strength to face your actions
190 When you didnt feel so hey ho, hey ho
191 When you werent a trophey friend(you know the friends of friends who dont really know you but suddenly they are your best mate as it gives them something important to tell all their other ‘friends’ about your ‘situation’!)
192 when you didnt have to be your number one priority
193 when you only wore your nice perfume at weekends!
194 when you didnt read the small print on life assurance
195 when you didnt buy just the small pots of cream just incase they werent needed
196 when you refused having your photo taken
197 when you didnt post!!
199 when you did not wait until you had been for your next check up before you bought something expensive, e.g. new glasses, in case you would not need them
200 when you did not switch off the light when you took a shower to avoid seeing yourself naked
201 when your hair was thick and curly and auburn (not greyish and thin after months on AI)
202 when you did not hate seeing yourself in the mirror
Cavabien…congratulations you did 201! I posted earlier to say ‘mmm who would get to 201’
207 when you actually thought you didnt matter
208 when you could buy any dress you liked
209 when you could buy any top you liked
210 when all the people you chatted too, didnt have a think in common!
216 when you used to find things beautiful… and now you find them almost unbearably so - and you cry
217 when you didn’t feel like you’d been reborn and are having a go at life all over again
218 when people didn’t say ‘How are you?’ in such a pointed way
219 when you didn’t have to blow-dry your scars as well as your hair every morning!
220 when your car wasn’t able to drive itself automatically the 20 mile route to the hospital
221 when you only wore your ‘best’ perfume/underwear/ lipstick for special occassions
222 when you only thought the things you wouldnt dare say outloud!
223 when you had patience
224 when people telling you you look great didnt mean ‘oh my god she’s still here’!