Hi, i think I’m just after some support & reassurance.
I’ve had problems with my left breast for years. I’ve had cysts, pain and hormonal lumps.
I had a hysterectomy in 2021 and the lumpiness went. Prior to my hysterectomy I was on Prostap injections for about a year and took Tibilone. The Tibilone was restarted a few weeks after my hysterectomy.
Before I had my hysterectomy I was at the breast clinic for a lump and pain in my left breast. He told me to take evening primrose oil.
Fast forward to last week. I had some nipple discharge from my left breast and GP has referred me on a 2 week wait. Since I saw GP I have noticed my breast has changed shape and I have also found a pea sized lump and I am so scared it is cancer this time. The pain is also still there.
I have just broken down in a meeting at work with a colleague I barely know and think it is the worry of what they might find.
I am trying to hold it together for my husband & kids but I am so churned up inside
Welcome to the forum, I’m sure you didn’t want to join, I promise you will meet some incredible and caring friends who will be supporting you and time day or night.
At the moment, it’s one day at a time, can I suggest you have a notebook to scribble down anything that comes into your head that you need an answer too, as there are so many questions, our heads are all over the place at the moment.
There is one of our ladies on the site who has a huge knowledge, she always says that no one has cancer until confirmed by your consultant.
Hopefully, finger crossed for you, wishing you well going forward. Please keep posting letting us know how you are doing.
So sorry you are in this situation - you have been through a lot already . It can be hard waiting for the tests and then waiting for the results - in some ways it’s the worst part of it because it’s all out of your control . There are many posts on here about waiting - I wish I had been on the forum when I was going through this as at one point I felt like I was losing my mind and I thought I was the only one . Time plays nasty tricks on you when you are waiting but just try to take a day at a time . Do as many things that make you happy as you can and if your mind starts going off down a rabbit hole try to bring it back to the here and now. It can be hard but if you do Yoga , mindfulness , abdominal breathing these can all help and there are videos on YouTube etc.
Try to avoid excessive use of Google and I also found it helpful to control my caffeine intake - tea wasn’t too bad but coffee made me a bit edgy so I stopped drinking it.
As for work - if you are struggling can you talk to your boss ? It’s surprising how many people will have been in your situation . The ones that have been tested and turn out not to be negative are in the majority but for various reasons don’t talk about it so I’m sure this is something that your boss will have heard before . Hopefully your colleague will have handled this considerately .
