Maria sending you the biggest hugs poss. Sent a post on another thread too.Lots and lots of love coming your way. Jackie
Hi There,
Thank you all so so much for your thoughts, if love and hugs could beat BC we would all be cured.
Vickie, I have taken your advise and saved this thread to my profile.
Anne, I hope you feel better soon, glad you enjoyed LGFB session.
Sandra, thank you for your thoughts and pm. I wish my cysts were on my ovaries, they are going to whip them out soon, my onc said not to cancel my appointment with the gynaecologist on Wednesday.
Carol, K and Jackie, Thank you for your hugs.
I am going to try to practice what I preach, one day at a time and don’t read any frightening threads and don’t google “liver lesions”
Hugs and more
Maria
Maria,
I see on your other thread that you said you had an ultrasound that didn’t show up the lesions in March!
I had an ultrasound on my lymph nodes, as l was told it would show up any cancer there, i was told there was no signs of any cancer in my lymph nodes. How wrong were they!! as you know there was cancer in a lot of my nodes, so perhaps like my nodes they dont always show up lesions!!
Hope that makes sense? my brain doesn’t work properly, never has!!
Love and Hugs
Sandra xxx
geez sandra, took me ages to figure that out!
I have fekt cacky today, though seems trivial compared to marias day. But as i am the queen of trivia i will share anyway. Silly teaching assistant made me cry this morning at drop off when i asked for help woth my sons reading and she basically said no, too busy. Well it opened the floodgates, i cried most of the day and now just want to go to bed. rubbish day, rubbish night, i want my bed!hopefuly my 5 year old will not have a bad dream and get in with me at five in the morning again as i think lack of sleep didnt help much with my tearfulness today!
is anyone out there having a good day?? Please tell.
Vickie
Vickie, Took me ages to figure it out too!! didn’t want it to sound wrong! meant to be all positive! hope it came across like that when you figured it out?
Bad, Bad teaching assistant! give her a good old fashioned slap!
At my gs’s school the parents go in one morning a week to help the children that have reading problems, do your school not do this?
Still very early days, you know you are allowed to have a cry!
One day someone will say something that could upset you, but you wont cry…then you will know you are getting a little stronger, but until then allow yourself a tear here and there.
Well l have had a good days, been shopping for my Mums birthday presents, got her clothes and wine!! and also treated myself to some new clothes, must say a few months ago, l would have thought…whats the point!
And tomorrow l am going to LGFB. so hopefully they can do something with me!! l am sure they will make me look like l have eyebrows and eyelashes, but can they get rid of my laughter lines?
Lots of Hugs and Love to those having a bad day, and those that need a hug today, Oh and to Suze who was looking for the sunshine today!!!
Sandra xxx
Hello ladies,
Came on earlier and lost my post, again!
Maria, sorry to hear your news, I hope that your results turn out to be much better than you think, take care, we are all here for you, lots of love and hugs xxx
Vickie, don’t let the b–ers grind you down, that teaching assistant doesn’t seem to be very much use at assisting. I hope you get a good night’s sleep and feel a bit better tomorrow xxx
Karen, glad to hear that you had a good spa treatment with your friends. I hope you are feeling rested and refreshed after it all. Thinking of you xxx
I hope everyone has a quiet and peaceful night.
I hope I don’t lose this one!
Hugs and good wishes,
Isabelle xxx
Suze found out that the sunshine was in the south…defffo not in the north but summer is supposed to be returning soon…wonder if it will find me here *waves frantically*.
Biggggg hugs to Maria, gosh yes if hugs cure bc we wil all be immediately better…note to go in suggestion box…hugs to cure bc. I only come onto this thread now find it less stressful just to visit here for now 
Anne and Nell…looking good ladies? we await the pics x
Sandra have a great time getting brows and lashes rejuvenated/reclaimed/resomething or other…anyway just enjoy the day xx
Vickie what did you want the nasty TA to do?? Just general help or other? If I can help if there’s a problem let me know I have a few years experience in these matters (about 15 years or so) . Hope you feel better tomorrow and you get a good nights sleep to help you get there…wonder if the tamoxifen makes you more succeptible to weepiness…just a passing thought gosh i hope not. You know where I am if you feel cacky still xx
Hugs to anyone else passing by {{{{{{hugs}}}}}}} xx
Suzexx
Hi Izzy we are here at the same time again lol xxx
Good Evening ladies (that makes a change from good morning lol) I am not doing too bad, still wandering around at 1am in the morning, waiting for the morning. I am hoping it will be better when I have had the injection thing done, my appointment came this morning and it’s not until the 6th of October. So at the moment I have got a quiet week this week for a change, so I am going to do some work on my creative writing course, and do some card making. I like secret Santa’s, mmm now I will have a go at knitting a teddy, but can’t promise how big it would be. Hey guess what I have a teddy bear story. When my 2 where toddlers one Christmas they had 3 of those extra large teddy bears, and they played with them quite a lot. Then when it was coming up to the following Christmas I was trying to sort toys out to make room for the new ones. Well one of these teddies (I can remember him he was blue) was looking a bit worse for wear, so I thought I will get rid of him. So when it was bin man day I took him outside and sat him on top of the bin to be collected. Well I kept looking at him, and I was sure he was looking at me, and then it started to rain. I thought that’s it I can’t do it, so I ran outside and fetched him, I couldn’t let him go to the bin man. So the kids kept him, along with the other 2 teddies and all the new stuff they had that year. Ok back to secret Santa, the one I was in we all had to buy a present for £5, it needs somebody to sort out how we can do it, and I think Suze said she would do that, anyway I am willing to go along with anything you decide.
Maria, I know how you must be feeling, thinking of you. They found something on my liver just before I had the MX. So before they operated I had to have a scan on my liver. Fortunately it was ok so the Mx went ahead. It is a scary time for you though, good luck, and I have everything crossed.
Karen, Love the new pic, looks like you where having a good time. I am glad you did you deserve it, good luck with you next few results.
Saffron, congrats on getting through your rads. Make sure you keep that foot down at work, I don’t know how you manage to go to work. I admire all you ladies that work through treatment, and look after young children. This is an hard enough thing to go through on its own. Why do these tears come for the silliest thing? Well I got myself in right state at the weekend over grandchildren and pocket money. I have been giving my daughters 2 boys pocket money for the last few years, but now the eldest one has started work, and he has got a good job and good money. So I thought what am I going to do because I have never given one without the other. Well at the weekend my daughter came to see me, and my eldest grandson and his girlfriend came as well. So hubby says are you going to tell them what you’re fretting about now, so I told them, and I ended up crying and my daughter was crying, I think his girl friend thought we were crazy lol. Anyway it ended up with Liam saying ’ grandma I don’t want any money off you now, I should be giving you some’ so I cried again (filling up now lol) It means life moves on so quickly, it only seems like yesterday I was watching him being born. Then I made them all laugh with one of my silly statements by asking him ‘is there any comics you’d like’ he’s nearly 18 lol anyway it’s resolved now.
Suze, I will ask hubby to see if I can copy the cd, if he can I will send it to you. I am willing to join your secret Santa if you do one, not sure about knitting large teddies though lol It’s a shame you missed your graduation after all the work you must have done. I am hoping to go to the ceremony if I make it that far. Hope you’re not feeling so tired today.
Vickie, Your our baby, I will send you a nice big cuddle. I bet the glass painting was lovely, a friend of mine use to do it and sell her stuff on ebay, I bet it is too dangerous to leave about with your youngsters. Glad you enjoyed Evita, it is a sad story though. I went to see it with hubby when he worked for a Cheshire home. They use to take the patients out to different shows and things, and I use to go along to help. It was while we were watching Evita and it was the scene where she was dying. the audience where quiet and you good here a few sniffles when all of a sudden one of the patients that had a real loud voice piped up ‘Here comes the sickness she won’t get better from that’ I wanted the ground to open up and swallow me because it was so funny, but it was the saddest part of the show. We haven’t got sky plus, but we have just got BT Vision, so there is quiet a lot on there I can watch through the night. I dont know what I was doing last night though. I had on my dressing gown because it was cold, was sat on the couch because I am more comfortable like that and I dozed of. Woke up about 30mins later, wanted to go to the loo and thought what’s this tied at the front of me. It was the BT Vision box tied round the front of my dressing gown, do you think I am safe to be left lol.
Carol, you feeling any better, is the tiredness getting better, and how’s your back? We had a Bar-b-que in the snow last year. It was January 2009 my daughter had got her graduation ceremony booked, hubbys eldest daughter and her family where coming to stay for the weekend, and I was waiting for the results of the ultra sound scan and biopsy to see if I had breast cancer. So me and my daughter said what are we going to do, we needed to celebrate her getting her degree, and I didn’t want to dwell on what I was sure I was going to be told the following week. So SIL said let’s have a bar-by and we did. It was freezing cold and snowing, but we had a fantastic time.
Sandra, Glad your grandsons race went ok, I would have been yelling my head off if I had been you. What a fantastic age your mum has got to, does she still live on her own? What is that station where you can hear all the old radio shows on, station 7? wow you have a busy week, hope you enjoy your LGFB session tomorrow, and hope that cold stays away so you can have your last chemo. Well I am going to get grandsons birthday over next week, then I will start to think about Christmas. You will be super fit if you get a bike, I use to ride a bike, I bet that surprised you haven’t got any stories about one, but if I think hard enough I am sure there is one lol.
Dee,I really sympathise with you with the acid reflux. I have got gall stones and sometimes it is awful, I am afraid to go to sleep because the food keeps coming back. Hope you enjoyed your LGFB session today, sorry you wasn’t feeling a bit better. I will have to look up the artist you mentioned, bare bottoms and things
Anne sorry you wasn’t feeling to good at your LGFB session, but I bet it was nice to meet our Dee. That is the biggest problem with all this treatment; you never know how you are going to be feeling from one day to the next.
Jackie, Hope your tummy is healing now, not going to mention the horrible a******. That must have been really good going on a dig. I watch them on time team a lot. You weren’t lucky though and found a pot of gold then. Now how big is you letter box so I can sort out the size of the bear lol And yes, you must learn to say no when you get back to work. From reading these posts on this thread I don’t think no is in our vocabulary, so ladies we have all got to learn to say no more often (I am the worst one for saying yes instead of no)
Well I think I have answered everybody, but just want to end my post sending extra big ((((((((((hugs )))))))))) to our Maria, we will all be thinking of you ((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))
Take care,
Love Heather,
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Ps I wrote this last night but it wouldn’t let me send it.
Heather
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Hi There,
Got a phone call at 8h30 to go for my MRI at 12h today !! Got an appointment to see the onc on Friday 4pm for the results. I’m just in a whirlwind.
Heather I love your Teddybear story, it gave me a welcome warm smile this morning.
Vickie, It think we are all very vulnerable and it doesn’t take much to make us weep. I remember how upset I was about my 2nd son’s medication and it all worked out OK and pretty quickly too. It just seems we are still raw.
I do hope everyone is having a better week than me.
Hugs
Maria
morning, ladies
we have SUNSHINE-if it’e sunshining here surely it must be in Oldham, Suze.
Vickie, looks like Suze is the woman to sort out you TA, who does she think she is? don’t there were TA’s when my kids were little, just mum helpers, I think.
Isabelle, you really need to copy and paste-I do that every time now.
Sandra, hope you enjoy your LGFB today, can’t wait for mine next week. and then you last PM on Friday? I went to the hospice yesterday, couldn’t go in the hydrotherapy pool as it was leaking so was able to have a back massage and a bit of indian head-heaven. next week will be my last one, sadly but the physio is going to translate my DXA scan results for me and do a risk assesment, so that will be really useful.
hope eveyone gets some sonshine today, we need the Vit D, well I do anyway for my leaky bones.
Carolxx
Maria and Heather snook on here while I wasn’t looking!
Good news, Maria that they have got the ball rolling so soon, good luck today
Heather, I bet if you had left that teddy bear the bin men would have put it on the front of the lorry as a mascot!
your knitted teddy should be interesting, perhaps we will all be able to share him! no, grandmas shouldn’t be giving pocket money when they start work ( grandchildren not grandmas) I’m sure you show him you love him in a million other ways.
I have felt rally well the last couple of days, Heather, I hope it continues till next Thursday. the back still twinges but I take paracetamol when I need to.
well, I’m off to the drop in now
speak laterxx
Hi Maria,
Gosh don’t give you time to breath!! but better than hanging on for a week or two!
Everything crossed for you!
Love
Sandra xxx
Be back later with news on my LGFB!! if it works!!
Dear Maria,
I hope your appointment today goes well for you and you can have more of your questions answered. It is such a worrying time for you. Quite rightly you must feel in such a whirlwind!
Take good care today and I trust the outcomes will be positive for you.
Thinking of you
Welsh girl
Dear Sandra,
I’m sure you’ll have a splendid day today. You enjoy every moment!
You deserve it.
I’m sure you’ll come out having great laughs and maybe some new eyebrows!!! Everyone says the experience is a great one. I hope you really have a fab time.
Sorry to have caused worry over my absence and thank you for your good wishes for my break away.
Speak soon, Wendy x
Super supportive hugs to all the other ladies on this thread. I hope your day is smooth and calm whatever you are experiencing today.
Oh dear lost my post had to go back from Window doc to thread and lol.
Maria gosh you could hardly get your breath back but lessens the awful waiting . Sending you hugs and have everything crossed for you.
Sandra surely you don’t want to erase your laughter lines? Have a brill time at you LGFB session. I am close behind you in the age stakes not sure who is after us and don’t want to finger anyone lol. It’s not Denise as she isn’t 77 yet. Where are Isabelle and Kris could it be them sorry girls if you have only just turned 21.Lol
Suze have some sunshine here and hope you do too.
Vicki so what exactly does your son’s TA do?Just when you are getting some semblance of being a bit more on an even keel too.This c**p makes our emotions a bit too near the surface. Perhaps as Sandra said once we don’t weep at the drop of a hat then we are getting a bit better.Just not sure how long that takes.
Carol still can’t quite make out your pic and at the risk of yet another faux pas is it a photo of everyday objects taken from an odd angle? Remember when there were competitions about this.
Heather glad you can have some time to do enjoyable things this week but as you say hope the hip inj is not too delayed. I also thought you were going to say that the blue bear ended up on the front of a bin lorry as a mascot how sad would that have been? You must have looked very fetching accessorised with a BT vision box. How did that happen ( no don’t go there)lol.Heather I can just about see you on a mobility scooter but a bike? Could have been even more calamities in the offing.
Had wound checked by practice nurse yesterday and whilst at surgery asked for new sick note. Receptionist said would try to get it signed before I LEFT AND TO GO BACK TO DESK. on way down saw GP i usually see but note signed by other partner who I am officially reg. with. We were right outside his door which was open,she was exclaimimng loudly how well I looked told her I was cream crackered and had not a smidgeon of energy but on and on she went OMG.
Had to phone work and laid it on a bit about stitches and seeing PS and Onc in same week( true) just before note runs out just at start of 1/2 term week and get the feeling they want me back ( there are only 4 of us and I have usually been the 1 not needing school hols)Really really want to feel more well and able to attend to daily life without too much weariness before I go back ( I blame the LGFB course)lol
Isabelle is that case packed and the passport dusted off? Have a fab time am so envious.
Hugs to you all lovely ladies. Love Jackie
Good Morning Everyone, good luck today Maria, will be thinking of you. Glad you haven’t got to long to wait for your results.
Sandra, have fun today at your LGFB, bet you will have fun anyway.
Hey if you read my earlier post I was talking about me riding a bicycle. And I couldn’t think of a story involving me and a bike, well there is one lol and It wasn’t me riding the bike though. I was on my way to work and I use to have to cross this busy road so I used the Zebra crossing. Well I stood there and this lorry stopped for me to cross over, next minute bang I was lying on the floor. A young lad on a push bike was over taking the lorry on the outside, didn’t see me and went right into me. Boy it didn’t half hurt, the lorry driver got out and helped me up, but the young lad just carried on, he was on his way to school which was just up the road. Anyway this lady came, helped the lorry driver to get me into her car and took me home. I didn’t go to the hospital thought they would laugh at me, but I was struggling to walk, and just lay on the couch. Later that day my brother came in from school and shouting from the kitchen to my mum in the lounge said ‘guess what, the police were at school today, this lad knocked a girl down on the Zebra crossing and somebody reported it’ he then walked into the lounge took one look at me and said ‘oh no it wasn’t you was it’ and yes it was. He said I wont dare go to school on Monday, every one will be on about it. Anyway I ended up with a bruise from the top of my thigh down to my ankle, no wonder I have all these problems with my back and hip lol
Vickie, just read your post and that was an awful thing to say. If I was you I would ask to speak to a teacher. My daughter teaches children your age, and she has teaching assistants. If I tell her she will say tell her to see your sons teacher, it is the teacher that make the decsions not TA’s. I really understand why you were upset, people not going through this dont realise that something that would seem trivial to them is a major concern to us. I think it is caused by all the stuff we have pumped into us, hormones flying all over the place. I would let Suze sort it out, she sounds like a nice teaching assistant (are you teaching assistant Suze, or teacher?) You get some lovely teaching assistants, but you get some that think they are the teacher, its like care work, you get some lovely care workers, and then you get them that think they are a nurse. I suppose its the same in most jobs really.
Carol, I bet I could knit a teddy that would stretch from down south, I think our Jackie is the farthest south, then right up into Scotland to Jill who is our farthest north. You could all perhaps lean out of your windows and touch it lol. Carol dont get doing to much now your feeling a little better.
Isabelle, is it 3 more sleeps, I would be so excited now I wouldn’t be able to sleep. What am I talking about I dont sleep anyway lol
Right going to have a look at my course work.
Take Care,
LOve Heather,
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Maria, Just sending cyber ((hugs)) to you and to say that I am thinking about you and wish I was there to hold your hand. I know it won’t make it easier for you but I have two lesions on my liver and have to have a liver scan, but at the end of my chemo. Onc and radiologist think they are cyst too so I am trying not to think about it as it will be the end of the year before I finsih PM.
You are in my thoughts.
I too have this discussion saved to my profile and don’t often look at the latest post; think it’s a good idea too.
Had my LGFB yesterday and met our Anne; she was still poorly from the weekend and to be perfectly honest I think had it been me I wouldn’t have made it - five days after PM and in hospital all weekend, don’t know how she did it. At least we got to meet and have a chat.
Then she went and abandoned me on a bus stop bench in the hospital grounds when her OH turned up! All alone in a strange place - anybody could have abducted me! Well I don’t think so really… No, seriously, she did ask if I would be ok and I said yes and even if I wasn’t I couldn’t have let her stay with me, she needed to get home to her bed, she was so tired. Anyway just as her car turned the corner my OH turned too and I was soon on my way home all dolled up with make up on. Something I don’t do everyday, I usually do the bare essentials and that’s it, oh and a bit of lippy, have one in each car and my bag!
I’m sure everybody will enjoy their sessions and the goodie bags they give you; they’re quite nice, no cheapies and all full size, Oh and perfume too!
Sorry not mentioned everybody else, but just logged on whilst having a quick cuppa before going shopping, off to Sainsburys down the road, and wanted to say a special message for Maria before going then I start rambling on about LGFB and an hours gone!
Anyway really gotta go now as see my onc tomorrow, bloods Friday, MIL weekend and not a lot of time to catch up housework before PM on Monday and all the cr@p that follows - whew nearly as busy as Sandra!
For now
Love, hugs amd all to everybody,
Nell x
Ps had my little Nell boots on yesterday too; ankle ones with corset type laces…
PPs typos…
Maria I know it’s a bit late but I hope that to-day goes,or went, well. Like other people have said at least you don’t have all the awful waiting around.
Heather–I think you should knit yourself some body armour!! That way when you fall you won’t get hurt. You asked me last week (sorry first time on line since)about Writing Magazine friend got mine for me from newsagents.
Sandra–wig lady re-shaped the long wig and it’s much better but have to just accept the fact that short one is everyone’s favourite. Post a photo soon.
I’ve read back over the last page or so and a few people seem to be coming to the end od their pm well done!! I’m on no.4 next week last of the evil E regime then I go onto CMF, 12 of those, will not be finished until after Christmas bur never mind the CMF is not supposed to be as bad as the evil E.
Had a good week-end oh came over on Friday and said did I fancy going to the seaside for the week-end as he wasn’t working. So we phoned our favourite hotel in Llandudno and managed to get a room. The weather was rubbish so we hardly left the hotel but it was lovely. We have been going there for about 7 years adn so we know the staff there and on Saturday evening they have an entertainer who plays all sorts of music from ballroom to pop. My oh doesn’t dance and so I have always have a dance with Ian,the entertainer, well I never thought I’d be out of breath after one dance but I was. Usually I’m on the dance floor most of the night but only had three dances all night. This pm really does take it out of you. Sunday I was really worn out but it was worth it.
Glad to hear that some of you have enjoyed LGFB days I must book mine soon. Sandra you will probably be on your way home as I write this looking even more beautiful than usual, make sure that you have your photo taken before you cleanse it all off later.
Having trouble with veins in arm that thjey put the pm in anyone got any tips? Movelat gel doesn’t seem to do anything and don’t want to take ibuprofen all of the time.
Love to all of you and good luck anyone having treatment this week
Lesley xx
Busy week for me and I am exhausted. Dr Who could never have thought up a MRI machine with all the different noises, quite something. At least the cat scan was fairly quiet and had flashing lights. After having laid in the noisy tunnel for about 3/4 hour holding my breathe for most of the time, one of the technicians (there were 3!) told me to get dressed and wait in the waiting area. After about 1/4h ( I didn’t know what I was waiting for) the radiologist lady doctor came up to me to tell me she thought the lesions were probably only cysts, needed a better look, but felt confident. Wow, what can I say. I cried all the way home., I didn’t expect to get the result today. Confirmation will come on Friday though when I see my onc again, I feel pretty reassured though. May be the hills will be alive with the sound of Maria soon, so beware the noise will be terrible, worse than a MRI scanner.
Hugs to you all and a special hi to Wendy, I hope you are well.
I’ll be back tomorrow after a good nights sleep, I hope
Love Maria
Oh maria I am so relieved for you. What a lovely doctor to make the time and effort to study them straight away. Have a good deep long sleep tonight.
Vickie
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Maria brilliant news I am so pleased for you. Treat yourself to a something nice this evening before you have a nice slumber…
take care xxx