Embarking on an adventure, you are welcome to tag along

Good morning,
I am sleeping quite well, but still feel emotionally completely drained and physically weak. I will celebrate when my hopefully good news is confirmed on Friday. Thank you all for your thoughts and messages, it realy does help. My gynaecologist will operation on the 14th October, so if all is well tomorrow I can start planing all sorts of things, even like going back to work .

Heather, when I saw what time you posted the other day, I was really sorry for you, are you taking something to sleep now ? I’m sure you should, and what about the pain.
Vickie, I have answered you on your new thread, but I think you should have whipped your wig off at that silly TA to remind her about things. But seriously, don’t ever feel bad about crashing in, when the mood is up on this thread, you bucked us all up when you were feeling good and now it it our turn to listen to you feeling down.
Sandra, did you have photo taken of you all made up, not that you are not looking lovely on all your other photos, but we would love to see you with eyebrows !! OK folks what is your age ? I was 30 the year my first son was born and he is 26, so there you are. Sandra you must e the oldest and the wisest, but you can always start a thread asking for the “older” women to join, after all, there is a younger women thread.
Lesley, I didn’t realise you were having so much chemo, is the CMF also every three weeks ? I thought 4 1/2 months was long enough (x3fec+3tax)
Carol, I really like your OH’s stuff
Jackie, art psychotherapy sounds very interesting
Gill, I do hope you feel better soon, but just take one day at a time
Anne, Jill ,Saffronseed Suze I hope you are all well.

My older son is here for 2 months but he is so busy catching up with his friends, that I hardly ever see him, it just really means that I have more washing to do and I never know how many people will be in for supper.
Hugs to you all
Maria

Dear Maria,
I am so delighted that your appt brought good news for you. You must be so relieved but the emotional fallout must be huge! I’m not at all surprised you are so weary and empty. You’ve been through so much angst recently.
Take all the treats on offer and the time to relax and recover your equilibrium now, even if it takes more time than you think…
I am speaking from experience here!

Enjoy these calmer days and I trust the confirmation on Friday will bring you even more peace and calm.

Heartfelt wishes to a very brave lady.
I am so very pleased your news was better than expected.

Wendy x

Afternoon Ladies,

Maria, Good wishes for tomorrow; I am thinking of you and wish you well.

Jacqui, Are you married? just wondering whether you were or not in case you were being chatted up by the Ducatti man?
Hope we don’t have to go to Oldham because of Vickie’s stupid TA…

Sandra Glad your mum enjoyed her birthday - 91, let’s hope you take after her!
Ok, Ok, no stocks or ducking stool please - I confess! I’m 50, honestly and truthfully, cross my heart and won’t say the rest… I really am, but only just!
Gosh how embarrissing for your son with his car and the bike!
Yes I did get some hulk cream in my bag but my onc gave me some tabs so will give them a go and see how I get on.
My face was red when I went so knew I wouldn’t be picked out LOL and Anne was too poorly and quiet so they chose another girl, she had nice skin too; looked good even without anything on, guess you must be the same that’s why they chose you - Oh, sorry, you weren’t the only one there were you?

Carol, I didn’t get a photo of my face from my LGFB and wish I had done now for here! Are you putting yours on after yours next week?

For now
Love and hugs, Denise (Nell) x

Hi Ladies
Well met my new onc this morning, and a lovely man he was too, congratulated me on getting through the chemo so well!
And then asked me if l had any persistent pains!!! l said, NO, WHY?? just me picking up on nothing, the nurse laughed! she said to me, you never asked ‘why’ when he asked if you had any pins and needles with the TAX, but as l said, l pick up on the negative comments now!!
Anyway he was young and handsome, told the nurse l want to see him again!! she said she will try her best!
So, will be starting Femara on the 6th October, when l go for my first planning meeting.
Also have to have a bone density scan before l start the tablets or as soon as possible!
My bloods were fine, my red blood cells were up by 1 point, so the Guiness may have helped!! could have gone down!
my wbc were 5.6, think that is the lowest they have been, but still good!

Maria, good luck for tomorrow, as you say hopefully confirming what you have already been told XXX
Well l wont forget when you are having your ovaries removed, because it is my eldest sons 36th birthday!

Are you going back part time? think you will need a bit of time after the ovary removal! don’t rush back, they will wait!
Not sure l want a thread of ‘older’ women, quite like being with you young chicks!! so l will stop complaining and enjoy being the mother hen!!

Maria, pleased your eldest is going to be there to look after his Mum and younger brother, it is good that he is out all the time, love seeing them enjoying their lives, as l am sure you do too! with regards to more washing, what else have you to do? not working, finished chemo! I remember the days, when l never knew who was bringing who home for dinner, always tried to make sure l had plenty of food in just in case!! xxx

Isabelle, Hope you are all packed up and ready for off tomorrow, enjoy every minute of it, try not to think of us too much!!! xxx

Gill, hope you are feeling stronger by the day, all ready for the next one to hit you next week! but then finished (fingers crossed) just rads to cope with, and that will fly by! xxx

Carol, this time next week another one over with! hope you are drinking the guiness? and having those walks! xxx

Jackie, sorry lost track, have rads finished? hope the ‘hole’ is filling up with healthy stuff!! xxx

Karen, you hiding from us? hope you are feeling ok! xxx

Lesley, are you nearly ready for the next one? hope the sponsor money has got sorted! and you enjoy your LGFB xxx

Tracey, another one for next week, good luck, how is d’ mil? hope she is doing ok, has she had her results yet?

Kris, hope you are having a good time and your kangaroo kept going! xxx

Anne, Hope you are feeling a little brighter by the day, xxx

Jill, Hope you are feeling ok too! xxx

Denise, Yes another one next week, good luck, nearly there! hope your Mum is still keeping well? Heard anything about oh’s mole? or is it too early?
You tricking me? thought we had a new woman on here!! Jacqui???
Do you mean Jackie? or have you found someone older than me!! xxx

Vickie, How you feeling now? hope the TA is behaving herself, lost track of when you start rads, need to write it in my book!! and not just chemo! not much of a secretary am l?
Anyway, if you need help sorting the TA out, we will send Suze!! with her cat and trolley! xxx

Saffronseed, Hope you are feeling a bit brighter, xxx

Elaine, Hope you are feeling ok too! xxx

Now who have l missed out? feel as though someone is missing!!!
Oh Heather!! fancy me forgetting you, Lol!
Hope you had a good nights sleep, bet you could sleep for England given the chance?
Really hope the pains are going away, and you have had no more falls! enough is enough!!

Wasn’t you l saw at the hospital this morning was it? On your mobility scooter with a union jack flying!! l always smile at ladies in their scooters now, just in case one is you!!! xxx

Sandra
I am jealous, I want a handsome onc too.
Of course I have nothing to do now except wait for my op, so the extra washing helps keeping me busy. I ought to ask him if he needs any sewing done too !! I did manage to mow the lawn for 3/4 hour ( the whole job takes me 2 hours), but then my son took over and managed to do all the rest in half the time it takes me. Later I tried to plant some bulbs for next spring, but the ground seemed too hard and I did not have the strength to dig the holes. Its going to rain tomorrow, so what am I going to do to keep busy !!??
But yippee, its 3 weeks since my last peachy mother and I didn’t need it this time, so I am not full of steroids or chemo. I wonder what my non handsome onc will have up his sleeve for me tomorrow, lets hope it’s just a check up in 3 months.
All the best for tomorrow, make the most of it, last one…
Have a good evening everyone
Hugs Maria

Just a quick pop in to say hello to everyone…reading the posts but then sleeping when I should be posting.

Sandra good luck for tomorrow…we made it to the end of this first road :-)) nd what better people we are for it too.

Ok ironing pile calls before my eyes close again…:-(( mind you cos I’ve not been anywhere its only pyjamas haha
Love Suze xxxx

Thanks everyone for issuing a fattwa ( sp? Not got a clue how to spell it!) against the TA ! Feel lots better about it, thanks for pms too, keep trying to respond or even write decent post here but keep being interupted! Rads start tmrw sandra. Wasn’t at sll concerned til I read theinfo booklet again tonIght!!! Good luck tmrw and well done. I am 8 months older than your eldest son then! Maria, that 3week point when u don’t have to have Chemo again is fab! Good luck tmrw fir official results. Hi everyone else, will do proper post tmrw. HHe been scared this week as sore ribs so been thinking cancer spread but my onc friend thinks is water retention pushing my ribs. Tamoxifen causes water retention apparently. Blummin hope it is. Anothe qu for my oncologist nextvtimd eh.

Night all
vickie

ps suze, another lady on forum is thinking of setting up Oldham support group, u fancy being involved?? I do. Hope se wearing off now. Xxx

Pps. All your advice re Ta was really helpful. I told my mum I wasctwmpted to whip my wig off Maria, and she just put her head in her hands in despair!!

Hello ladies,
Well I’m all packed at last. If I’ve forgotten anything it’s tough. I’ve had enough! Didn’t get much sleep last night so I’ll have an early one tonight.
I’ve been getting water infections which the doctor now thinks are related to the Arimidex but she made me go in for blood tests yesterday, they were to check my liver and kidneys, so I think waiting for the results must have got me a bit worried, hence being up between 3-6 am!
I’ve now got a brandy and am trying to get into the holiday spirit!!!
Sandra, I’m 56 years young!
Maria, I’m so pleased to hear about your good news, I hope all went well today.
I hope everyone has a quiet and peaceful night and a good fortnight while I’m away, take care everyone xxx

Lots of hugs and love to all my cyber friends,

Isabelle xxx

Hi just came on to saw a quick how do you do. Vicki you must not worry about the rads. After all you have been through this is seemples.Just lie down and still, top uncovered or with a bit of paper over. Then rays beamed at you from 1 or more angles, get up, dressed and leave, just remember put on loads of cream as often as poss. The radiographers were so lovely too.You can do this crikey you did Tax and this is nothing in comparison. I met some very lovely ladies in the small waiting room there were always the same few of us and I never seemed to wait very long.Go for it you are so nearly there.Loads of hugs for you.If I lived nearer I would come with you tomorrow.No probs with the TA I think she will get her fortune told by us.
Isabelle hope the tests are OK never ends does it? Have a lovely holiday.
Sandra hope the last Tax is OK. Wow a dishy Onc lucky you.Don’t we always read things into what is said/not said my Onc has the most inscrutable face and so has the BCN could never read them at all so words take on so much significance. Well done Lydia on her 91st so you have longevity in your genes but do not start a thread for older ladies stay here with us young chicks lol We need you.Great freebie with the X trainer.Yes I do talk to the animals all the time. I do remember those coats were they called Afghan loads of suede and fringes and embroidery? Never had one had a maxi black straight fitting coat oh those were the days.I still have a Biba dress, some of us ( student nurses ) really really wanted to go to London Carnaby St etc and I still have the dress and guess what my daughter asked if her friend ,Fe,could borrow it for a 60-70s evening and Fe is so slender don’t stand sideways or fall down the drain slender and I could not believe it did not fit her too small.Was a size 10 then so goodness knows what size it is supposed to be now.I really had not realised Carol was older than me. So what did the chap on the bike get for crashing into your son the sack? Sandra we are the pretty ones that is why we were models at the LGFB lol
Denise I am not married, any longer.The Ducatti owner is my next door neighbour.Drop dead gorgeous and all of about 34yrs lol younger than my son.His mother was over from US ( via Pontefract) last year and I had tea with her she was very keen to get him together with my daughter(no go) or one of her friends.He is a very nice young man and still single .His cat comes in to see me most days as I am around during the day at the mo and then he runs out when he hears the bike coming in next door.Little tart. I got some of that green cream that Sandra mentioned used it on the day but not since think I might end up looking like Shrek. Yes we believe that you are not 77 and and are 50… How is your Mum ?
Maria hope the appt tmx goes well and great to get confirmation.A busy week for you and so physically and emotionally draining.Hope you can get some rest and peace soon.Oh the days when I was washing for the UK and making enough food for an army as I never knew who might turn up with my kids. They always told their friends that their mum would be OK with extra folks for food etc. And those same young people still turn up from time to time. Thinking of you for the 14th.
Carol the pic is lovely. Water I have an affinity with despite being a fire sign, and signifies loss for me, and boats to sail away on and bridges that have been crossed, during the active treatment before I got to them always was jumping ahead and BCN pulling me back from going there.
Have managed to have one of the best sleeps last night for a long time did not wake up until 10.30 and the curtains were still drawn- what would folks think as my late/ ex MIL would have said.
Made up for it late as had to get the skip lorry driver organised into next doors garden then the supermarket delivery guy arrived at mine phew had to lie down later. lol.Yes that was a busy day for me this week. Heather wishing you a more comfotable night.Love to all Jackie

Hi Ladies,
Isabelle, hope it is not too late for Heather and l to sing you a little song? ready Heather, 123…
Old Man Rhythm is-a in my shoes
It’s no use sittin’ here singin’ the blues
So be my guest, you’ve got nothin’ to lose
Won’t you let me take you on a sea cruise?
CHORUS:
Whoo-ee, whoo-ee baby
Whoo-ee, whoo-ee baby
Whoo-ee, whoo-ee baby
Won’t you let me take you on a sea cruise?

remembered the song, but no idea who sang it until l looked it up, it was Frankie Ford, l am still non the wiser!!
Have a wonderful time, look forward to some lovely photo’s xxx

Maria, no sorry you cannot have my handsome onc! mine all mine! well l am the eldest, so l get first choice!! Yes steroids l do hope l sleep tonight! xxx

Must speak to the onc about that twitch in my finger. xxx

sorry about this, really must finish what i have to say, even if it is rubbish!! so now we are in triplicate!!

Suze, thank you for your good wishes, hope you got all your nightwear ironed!!
Fancy Vickie asking if you wanted to be involved in the Oldham support group! does she not know you sleep all day, would have to sit you in the corner, pretending to take notes!! xxx

Vickie, Thank you for reminding me you are 8 months older than my eldest, makes me feel really old!
Hope your rads go well tomorrow, easy after TAX! hope so anyway, dont forget to cream up afterwards! xxx

Jackie, See you were talking to a lady on another thread that was 66, you could have invited her onto here!!
We use to go to Carnaby Street lots of times, still do pop in there now, but totally different!
Doesn’t surprise me you are/were a size 10, you look very small in your photo! or was it taken from a long, long way away?
Acutally youngest son popped in tonight, forgot to ask if vrmmmm vrmmmm was in work today, l said to youngest, bet you couldn’t stop laughing after, he said no, l was in shock, so pleased he was alright, so just my bad sense of humour then!! He said to see a bike behind you and hear a thud then no bike is awful! yes l can understand that, and l would probably have been freaked out!
Yes my Mum and her brother and sister all live/lived a good age, her brother died this year at 96, her sister is still alive at 94, their aunt was 104, no way l am going to get there!! with my record!

Better try and get some sleep, l have grandsons to get to school tomorrow!
Love and Hugs
Sandra xxx

Hi everyone, didn’t have a good day yesterday with my hip, felt a different pain in my hip and my knee. Couldn’t lie, sit, walk, just drugged myself up on pain killers. I am getting to the stage now that I am thinking of taking one of those sleeping tablets the doctor gave me.
Gill, sorry you are still feeling rough, hope you manage to get another peachy out of the way.
Dee, glad your oncon visit went ok, at least you look healthy with rosy cheeks, and it saves on blusher.
Jackie, I think I came out of the womb accident prone lol I think I said in an earlier post a lady fell through my grandads greenhouse while she was holding me at my christening. I came out of it covered in glass, but the lady needed stitches in her hands.Glad you had a good sleep, I would love to sleep in late. I am a lark anyway, have always done early mornings. Can you come and pick me up when we go slap Vickies TA.
Sandra, mums party sounded good, she sounds like a real swinger lol do you think we will be swinging at that age. Well how come you get the good looking oncon, did you smile sweetly at him lol Sorry look I am still having trouble staying in bed, has soon has I lie down my hip and knee start throbbing. Yes I can remember that song, whoooeee whooeeee baby, betther sing quietly I will wake the neighbours. Good Luck today with peachy, are we going to have a little sing when you have finished today.
Isabelle, really hope you have a lovely time on your cruise. Your leaving all this horrible weather behind. Today we had a really bad thunder storm. Then when we where having dinner it hailed really bad, it was like somebody was throwing gravel at the windows, the lawn was white over.
Carol,I feel like you, I seem to have lost all my stamina, my get up and got up and went I think. What is a cross trainer? Sandra that was a real good freebie, well I think it was if I knew what a cross trainer was lol Its nearly Sunday Carol and eggs for breakfast, can you eat poached eggs yet?. I was never given any information about what foods not to eat, so I ate everything.
Maria, good luck today with your appointment, were just waiting for your oncon to confirm everythings ok. That was nice of your son to take over, I bet he would have done it all if you had asked him. Are you another of those ladies like we all seem to be and dont like asking. I am awful at asking people to do anything for me, but I can ask for somebody else. Yes it is another night up again, I did say earlier I might try one of those sleeping pills.
Vickie,How are you feeling now? hope that silly TA hasn’t took you back a few steps, your our baby so we need to look after you. Good luck today with the rads, I cant say what there like because I didn’t have to have them.
Suze, I think your sleeping for me, enjoy it though you must need it. What is your profile pic of? I tried to look but my old eyes are getting worse(send for the violins lol)
Jill, hope your feeling ok.
Leslely, have you booked your LGFB session yet?
Kris, are you still on holiday?
Saffron, Hope your feeling ok.
Oh and Sandra fancy forgetting me.
Anne, are you feeling better now, hope you have a better weekend.
Wendy, hope your feeling ok, have you got much treatment left to have?
Well ladies take care, good luck to all of you tommorow who are seeing oncons or having treatment.
Love Heather.
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Good morning, ladies
well, I.ve fallen behind again, read all the posts last night, but was too late and I was ready for my bed.
Suze, who are the girls on the stage?
Heather, another nocturnal post? do you mange to doze through the day? no, no runny eggs yet, not till November.Sandra will have to tell you what a cross trainer is, maybe a p****d off gym instuctor!
Sandra, good luck but you’ve probably already gone. my onc is quite dishy too but not my type-don’t think I could afford to be choosy, being the SECOND eldest on here! I remember Sea Cruise. there seem to be a lot of realy good songs around at that time by artists you never heard of again.
Isabelle, if it’s not too late have a fab time.
Jackie that wasn’t a very quick how do you do!
what is this green stuff in the goody bag that will turn me into Shrek? never mind , I will find out next Tus. thanks for the explanation, I understand now.
Vickie, am I too far away to join?
Suze, still sleeping? zzzzzzzzzzz pyjamas become very important at times don’t they? I have ironed my next ones this morning, can’t bear the thought of not having clean ironed PJs to wear. how sad is that?
Maria, don’t know how you manage to mow even half a lawn.
it must be great to know the chemo has departed for good, so you can have all the forbidden food again. good luck with your appointment today.
Love to everyone

Carolxx

Put the ear plugs in Girls,
The hills ARE alive with the sound of Maria, and there are likely to be land slides and avalanches, so beware !! I will be seen again in 2 months to see if I am fit for work. Just the op to go now, wow !!
Carol, ironed pj’s, that is sad !!
Heather, my son did not take over spontaneously, I had to ask him, cos I could not finish, I am learning to ask, but it is not easy. The time you post is getting worse and worse, I think you should take those tablets. I know if I get very tired I cry all the time, so I take them when I need to.
Sandra, I hope all went well today, why did you have to get the grandsons off to school ?
Jackie, Busy days are strange these days, just getting by seems to sap all the energy. I always wanted an Afghan coat, but never got one, my Mum said they smelt bad and would not buy me one and I was not earning at the time (too young!!)
Isabelle, Sorry I missed you to say have a great holiday
Vickie, isn’t it horrid that each pain could be something sinister, this stays with us for ever. A friend of mine had bc 20 years ago, and she admits to me (Cos I understand) that this is so, for her even now, and these days (she is the same age as me) she gets a lot of aches and pains due to age !!
Suze, I put off ironing even before bc, so falling asleep is a great excuse, but not when the iron is hot.
Hugs
Maria

Woohoo maria. Just checked in to see your update. V pleased. Rads went ok today but sm emotionally exhausted. Don’t realise how much u hold yourself together til u let go when it’s over . Shattered.

Hope to post properly later. Carol, yes u def can come! Slso u should do your rads at Oldham christie definitely as is fabulous place and so chilled and calm.

Hi everyone
vickie

thanks, Vickie. yes I hope to go to Oldham.
Maria, thought I heard a funny noise!

off out tonight to a comedy night with work friends. I’ll let you know if it was funny.
Carolxx

hi Peeps,

Vickie, glad you survived rads 1… I am looking over the hill right now but there is no glow yet!!! Maybe with a few more under your belt (or on your boob) the glow will begin…I will glow back at you in due course :slight_smile: xxx

Carol/Heather/Maria, the pic is of my girls from the dance school at our annual show at Stockport Plaza. Heather I am not surprised you cannot see the pic at 5am your eyes should still be shut tight at that time xxx Carol enjoy the comedy night…write the jokes down God knows we need then here lol xxx

Maria maria maria…the hills are alive alive alive with the sound of fabulous news xxxxx brilliant xxxxx well done xxxx

Sandra hope peachy went well today, no I didn’t do the ironing …by the time I got it all ready and set up I sat down and that was it no ironing…creased jamas for me now :frowning:

OMG I haad a dream last night that I looked in the mirror and I had eyebrows (the most thick ugly eyebrows you could ever imagine)and eyelashes, and was (In the dream) screeching with delight that I had them back…weird but it has stayed with me all day today. Maybe I have now totally lost the plot.

Sandra, yes I will be the sleepy member of the Oldham Support group, the one with creased jamas and thick eyebrows…not to mention the trolley and cats etc. this is getting worse by the day.

Not so much sleeping all day now but still no energy to do much, stairs are now called Everest and ever rest is what I do all day lol. Managed to clean guineas out today, tidy shed and clean bathroom. Went to sit in bath as I have not had a bath since Feb (no comments please we have heard it all before) only showers, and not supposed to cos of line but I sat in an inch of bubbly warm water…heaven then in true woman fashion I cleaned the whole bathroom by which time I than needed a shower hahaha, I am now exhausted and drinking chicken and leek cup a soup (I hate cup a soup!) cos it’s the only sodding thing I can taste and my throat is sore…bring on the good days.

Wishing you all good days over the weekend and beyond Hugs for now Suze xxx

Hi Everyone, Well still up, fingers crossed I can get some sleep tonight.
Maria,your news is fantastic, brilliant, wonderful, fabulous, and all those other lovely words. I am really so pleased for you, we all need some good news sometimes, and this is such wonderful news. I am going to think about taking a sleeping tablet.
Carol, like your new pic, is that your daughter? hope you have a good night tonight.
Vickie, glad the rads went ok, now you can have a nice chilled weekend, and start Monday all fit and strong.
Suze, your posts do make me smile, I bet the eyebrow dream was more like a nightmare. It just goes to show how much these things are on our minds. Loved the bath story to lol hope you have a nice restful weekend, and you get to the top of everest lol
Sandra, hope peachy has gone ok today, if you come out from under your duvet please wave.
Well there is nobody else about yet today, not sure if your having treatment, or is it just duvet day. And our Izzy is sailing the high seas.
Hope you all have a good weekend, the weather here is really cold and wet so no sun bathing for me.
Take care everyone,
Love Heather,
xxxxxxxxxxxxx

heather- take the sleeping tablet! You could just need a night or two of good sleep behind you to kick start your sleep pattern again. I know you suffer pain which keeps you up, but must be worth giving it a go? Good luck.

Suze, not glowing, too much aqueous cream smothered on, it blocks out the radiactive glow. Apparently it can be used in nuclear bunkers instead of lead to line the walls. And as for ironing pjs, i just get them out of the dryer and straighten them quick!Too much ironing round here to add them to the pile! But when my mum helps with my ironing, i must admit i love my soft yet crisp ironed jamas. But i take them off nowadays once i get to bed and put a tatty vest top on as pjs too hot now!

Sandra, good anti side effect vibes going out to you.

Got a list of my rads appointment times today and was strange seeing the countdown to the last day of the treatment schedule.

love to all

Vickie