Hi gang! Not been under the duvet went to Cheltenham to stay with son and his girlfriend stayed Tues-Fri and this is the first time that I have been online since. Just caught up with last three pages so here goes.
K–sorry to hear the calcifcation news and yes I suppose it does make you wonder if mx is the answer in the first place but I know that I was so relieved when I knew that I didn’t have to have one, Sorry all of you friends who have but it was the main thing that frightened me.Love the photo by the way.
Carol–you were near to Stoke, should have popped in for a cuppa. oh took me to the IOW a few years ago and we stayed at Bembridge Sands the Warner hotel it was lovely although the weather was not, but we had a good time.
Sandra–my friend’s hair grew back curly so don’t know if the brushing will work as curly/straight comes from the follicles doesn’t it so don’t think that it will.Double Mx! I suppose she has to weigh the risks up but what a decision.
The BACK SEAT!! Sandra!! We keep finding these things out about you don’t we, did you tell the policeman where to put his torch?
Hope that your rads go ok and that you are managing to get plenty of rest. You are right I went for my review to-day and everything was ok and so first CMF to-morrow, No1 part1 and then next Tues No1 part2
then 21 days free before next review. Also have to take tablets at the same time. Path lab have resorted to finger pricks for my bloods as they can’t get any out of veins in left arm and right arm is too painfull so come out looking as if I have a finger puppet lol.
Isabell–I’ve put on weight since being on pm I was always running up and down stairs at work, doing about three dance classes, drama group and helping out at the theatre so think it’s more lack of exercise than anything that and maybe eating more sweet stuff than I use to keeps the sickness at bay.
Maria–glad the posh op is over sorry that you had complications it seems to never end sometinmes doesn’t it. At least you have a trip with your boys to look forward to to make the waiting time go more quickly. Where about in England are you coming to, think I missed that bit? It’s very cold here at the moment so wrap up warm and have a safe journey,
Gill–lovely to have our children around isn’t it. When I was staying with mine last week he really looked after me.We did lots of walking as where he lives everything is within walking distance so parked the car at his house and didn’t really touch it for three days. Forgot to take flat boots though so feet ached a bit as it wasn’t warm enough for the sandals I took ( it was sunny the day that I went).
Nell–I have a close friend who I first met at nursery, I thought that she lived in the “Wendy House” because ner name is Wendy, well I was only 5. She used to have to hang my coat up for me because I couldn’t reach the pegs. We sort of drifted apart but always see each other at birthdays and Christmas, anyway, I saw her the day after I had my MRI scan which was a few days after my birthday and we went out for lunch, she never contacted me to see how I had gone on and to be honestI was so tired of talking about it and telling people that oh said leave it now and tell people when they rang me.She never rang then when I did the sponsored head shave and it was in the paper she saw it and sent me £30 in an envelope with no letter.Iwrote back and told her everything, to cut a long story short we eventually had a tearfull reunion and she said that she felt guilty as she had assumed that everything must be ok.
Good luck with TAX.
Kanga–I like Bournemouth last time we went there about 2 years ago we stayed at the Cumberland Hotel right opposite the sea, very art deco and very chic. Have you had chance to go to Monkey World? I love it there, it’s the place that has a programme on the tv, primate rescue centre.
Vicki–Single Father is good but weepy. I too watch Downton Abbey and record it so shh.
Everyone else good luck with treatments, wrap up in your duvet if having side effects and take care. Finally had my certificate from BCC for my sponsor money so can get copies of that given out and put it to bed. Long wig on to-day so head lovely and warm. Speak soon, Lesley xx
Hi Ladies, hope you have all had a good weekend and are all rested ready for what this week brings. My daughter and familys meal out with her dad for the first time in 18 years went ok. It was the first time he had spoken to his grandchildren, one is 17 and the other 14 so he has missed such a lot. She was all stressed on Saturday, and wasn’t sure if she wanted to let him back in her life again after he hadn’t really tried much these last 18 years. I was worried though if anything happened to him and she hadn’t tried would she regret it, and I spoke to her about this. In the end she said she thinks she would cope because he lives in Spain, so she says he is only here a couple of times a year, and a couple of phone calls a week she can deal with. He is such a control freak, and like she says she comes has a family now. That was one of the problems why she never had anything to do with him was because he wasn’t interested in her husband or children. He just wanted to be in touch with her, and like she said she wont put up with that any more. Also she saw a lot of how he treated me because she was older and wont forgive him for that, but like I said its a long time ago now and we cant live in the past. The thing is Thursday its my turn, it is my grandaughters first birthday and my son asked if we would go for a meal at this pub that has a childrends adventure room. I said yes, but he failed to tell me his dad and wife will be going, I only know he is going because he told my daughter. It doesn’t bother me really any more being in his company, that is water under the bridge and I have a wonderful husband that loves and cares for me, and I am not afraid of him any more.
Isabelle, that sounds like a fantastic day out, I wish they did things like that round here. I hope today has gone ok, your first day at work, and your oncon appointment. You lucky thing losing weight I would love to lose some.
Maria, hope your feeling a lot better now, and getting ready for you trip back home. It will be lovely to have some mum cuddles, hope the weather stays ok for you. The thing is your used to the cold where you live, so I dont suppose that bothers you has long has you get to see your family. Have a great time, and let them spoil you.
Gill, really glad you haven’t got to go through any more chemo, enjoy your time off treatment. I hope these next few weeks without treatment make you feel better. What a lovely son you have, he looks after his best friend, his mum. Sorry you couldn’t make the trip with your daughter, but I am sure you will be over there has soon has you can.
Dee, good luck with your tax tomorrow, and you are not a whimp. Dee you can join my club, I am in the one with all the people who have gained weight. I was begining to think it was just me, I know our Sandra hasn’t put on any weight. Then I read Isabelle and Gills post and I though am I the only one gaining weight. Then I read your post and thought thankgoodness someone else is putting on weight.
Kris, glad your having a good time in sunny England, cant wait to hear all about it later this week.
Jill, I bought a set that had 8 things in it, a pair of lovely tiny tiny boots, a little all in one thing witha big caterpillar on the front, and a little sleep suit. There all cream and pale green and lemon because she doesn’t know the sex. I hope your rads go ok this week, and enjoy your peaceful week. That is really nice to grandma to look after the children this week, you can rest after your rads now.
Sandra, hope your rads have gone ok, and hope your resting. I am not sure how many house guests you have got this week. How much do you charge for bed and breakfast, I might book in lol
Vickie, hope your rads have gone ok, and your nipple has become unwrinkled if there is such a word. I love David Tennat, he is lovely. I remember seeing him a few years ago in this series called Blackpool, couldn’t tell you what it was about all I was interested in was watching him lol I have never been a big fan of Dr Who till he was the Dr, I never missed it, just covered my eyes at the scarey bits. In fact I cried at the last episode of Dr Who when he died. I am really mad though because I forgot that new program he was in last week, I am going to look to see if it is on the replay thing
Lesley, bet it was really nice to spend a few days with your son, set you up for your next lot of treatment. Having an Mx isn’t that bad, but wearing the prothesis gets so uncomfy sometimes. The thing is I know I have always got to wear it, but better than the alternative. I was really shocked when the consultant told me I had to have an MX, I thought now they just took out the lumps. The problem with mine was where it was. It was very close to the chest wall, and to get a proper margin he had got to cut in to the chest wall. The thing was I had to wait a few weeks to have the op because I was waiting for an MRI on my brain for another problem, and they wouldn’t do it till they had the results of that. So in those few weeks it grew quite a bit, and went from a grade 1-2 to a grade 3 so I had no choice but have the MX.
Well ladies I hope everyones treatment has gone ok, and you dont suffer to much with side effects.
Take Care,
Love Heather,
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Hi Ladies,
Well first of 15 rads over, and quite emotional! Which surprised me, had a few tears!
I was quite disappointed when the machine started to buzz away, would have liked to have heard a zap noise, or even better the noise those fly machines make when they zap a fly, just something that showed me the radiotherapy was doing its job! They told me to use the aqueous cream as a soap on my star bone! And under my arm, rather than soap! Other than that splash it on 3 times a day.
And after my few tears, a thought came to mind!! My anagram for rads is ‘hiya teardrop’
Heather,Gosh your daughter was brave! so difficult to know what is best, but she has made the move so she will have no regrets if things dont work out for her and her dad. one of those piggy in the middle situations with regards to her feelings on how he treated you! very difficult, but l hope she has made the right decision, and as you say he lives in Spain (anywhere near our kanga?) Lol
Good Luck on your gd birthday, head held hi Heather! you obviously have the perfect oh now!!
Well good job l never moved to a retirement home!! as l would have chosen a one bedroom!! but l now have my three bedroom house full!!
Nell, Lots of Hugs for your first TAX tomorrow, sure you will cope no trouble! it really was not that bad, we all cope with things differently, so go with the flow!
Lesley, You and me both, l never wanted a mx, but after three ops l was glad to get the breast off!! but l really do miss it! try not to! but difficult.
That was a lovely long stay with your son and girlfriend, you must have had a lovely time
Oh come on Lesley, let me think if l brush my hair it will come back straight, bad enough with one boob, curly hair as well!!! mine was straight before! want it straight again!! but what l want and what l get are two different things! as we all know only too well.
Me be rude to a policeman?? never was a rude girl!! always had to watch my p’s and q’s!
Good luck with your CMF tomorrow, can see l am going to have to get my little book out, you are complicating me too much!!
Vickie, hope your wrinkly hard nipple is relaxing a little!! makes me glad l haven’t got one!!
Jill, No l have not got enough hair to brush, just wishful thinking!
Gill, gosh that was a nice long post from you, you must be feeling better!!
Hope your daughter enjoys her trip, l am sure you will miss her, hopefully a trip out to see her soon?
We will have to try and meet up after christmas, you are probably only about 40 mins from me? and l think Jackie is about 30 mins further on from you? yes Jackie? perhaps we could meet on the M25 Lol!! unless you know a nice pub in Watford Gill? might be better, or even a shopping trip to London Jackie?
Maria, hope you have a lovely time with your parents, and those two strong boys of yours. How are you feeling? looking forward to a family visit l hope. Take it easy, and wrap up!! chilly here, although when the sun comes out, so does Toby, so cant be that cold!!
Kris, hope you are enjoying your family holiday?
Gosh look at the time, sorry everyone else, l really should be in bed, grandson has his school photo tomorrow and needs to be in school early!! if he wants one taken with his young brother!
Love and Hugs
Sandra xxx
Hi, Ladies
back from the IOW.had a lovely time. weather was wonderful, sunny every day. same as Kanga had in Bournmouth, only a hop, skip and jump across the Solent! I did lots of walking, seem to have had much more energy this time round. Hope for the same after this weeks PM, we shall see. was thinking of buying a baby brush, Sandra, but it seems it won’t make any difference. we didn’t go to Blackgang Chine this time ( used to go when the kids were little, not much point now). went to Ventnor, as I’d only been there once before years ago. walked down to the beach with son had an ice cream and sat on the beach, realy warm and sunny. then managed to walk back up the VERY steep hill, very slowly! I like Bembridge and St Helens and Ryde and Seaview, in fact there are lots of nice places to see and none of them far from each other ( the island is only 29 miles wide).
well, back to normal, drop in tomorrow, bloods on Wed, PM on Thursday.
good luck to everyone who is having stuff this week
Remission
It’s supposed to be a positive word
But I think it’s pretty cr@p
To me it just means waiting
For the cancer to come back
As if it Is inevitable
As if it’s a reprieve
As if cancers got another trick
Tucked up in it’s sleeve.
But apparently the 'all clear ’
Is impossible to achieve
So I’m happy now to settle
For no evidence of disease.
Fingers tapping waiting
For sufficient time to pass
Shoulder glancing hoping
That this time was cancers last.
Poem I wrote today waiting for radiotherapy after some bloke asked me if I was in remission.
Crikey Vickie and I thought you were talking to me (never noticed you writing flippin peotry too)…very good though and foo for thought xx and the really weird thing is…I just read a poem (about men not the ‘c’ word) and I had just copied it ready to paste and I come here to find that you are already posting poems!!! weird or what.
Anyway here’s the one I was going to post…
A Woman’s Poem
He didn’t like the casserole
And he didn’t like my cake,
The biscuits were too hard
Not like his mother used to make.
I didn’t perk the coffee right
He didn’t like the stew,
I didn’t mend his socks
The way his mother used to do.
I pondered for an answer
I was looking for a clue.
Then I turned around and smacked him one
Like his mother used to do. (author unknown)
Maybe we should have a poetry thread, I know Sandra would contribute too (notice Sandra that I have not commented at all on any of your earlier comments! was very tempted though lol)Congrats on 1st rad… I had mine on Friday so I am one ahead of you but you will finish first as I have to have 34 lots:-(( at least I get a month off in the middle for good behaviour.P.S. the ironing is done thanks to an energy surge on Saturday (maybe it was from the reflexology)
Had a quick scan through the posts but will come back later to do comments.
Hugs for everybody for now
Suze xxxxxx
I love both the poems, thank you, Vickie and Suze.
My mountain is getting less steep, but it is taking up all my energy trying to pack (and it’s only for 4 days). I’ll probably come back later.
Hugs
Maria
Vickie&Suze, great poems. What a lot of talented girls you are! Maria, hope you are recovering. X Tina
How lovely to read these poems.
Vickie yours was brilliant. Do you write all the time?
The other, women’s poem was sooooooooooo true!!!
Thank you to both of you.
Maria I hope you are progressing well and that your packing for imminent trip is proving smooth running…
Packing for travel is always so tiring so don’t overdo it.
Sandra, I think you’ve started your rads. Brave girl, after all your time with chemo I really do hope you’re not getting too tired or too red.
Take it easy.
Hello to everyone here on this thread, hope your day is running smoothly for you.
Wendy
Our thread has startled me tonight as I had to scroll to page three to locate it!!! That’s v unusual as usually it’s right there on first page!
Wendy, I have always written rhymes since I was at school. But I recently found a notes bit on my iPhone do have been tapping away whilst waiting for rads and because it’s saved I can actually remember them. Thanks for saying you like it, I was in two minds about posting it as big embarassing if people think it’s dead rubbish!
Well it’s my last rad tmrw and I have been tearful tonight. Fully expected to be! Mh husbands coming tmrw ad I know there will be tears!
Hope everyone if doing ok
vickie
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Hi Ladies,
well l thought l had better post, don’t want to be page 3 do we girls!!
So tired and ready for bed, but think suze put a challenge down for me, sorry Vickie, unlike you l haven’t been doing it since l was at school! so you will just have to take it as it comes!
Oh and good luck with your last rad! must say these two days have had a tear in my eyes!! probably the emotions of it all, or the fear of what is ahead!
Here goes…
Has anyone seen my happy go lucky nature, that l once had?
I’d laugh and joke with anyone, they must have thought me mad!
It disappeared the day the surgeon held my hand, and shook his head, so very sorry he said, breast cancer the words l had dread.
My breast has gone, my cancer too! Oh how l wish that were true,
l shed a tear, for l live in fear, every pain, drives me insane.
just one more blood test, just one more scan, to them just words!
what will they find, what will they see! whatever will be, will be!
I’m so scared, l want to scream, oh how l wish this was all just a dream!
So many live, but so many die, I’m just not ready to say goodbye!
But l am ready to say goodnight, so goodnight ladies!!
Sandra xxx
OK Heather. Bring it on!!
Oh Sandra your poem made me weep out loud!
You have expressed our fears so well.
So real and so profound!
Sleep well, my lovely. I hope you are feeling safe tonight knowing you are doing everything to destroy this awful disease.
My thoughts are with you.
Huge hugs for you from Wendy xx
Good luck for your last session of rads tomorrow, Vickie.
I’m sure it will be very emotional for you.
Take the very best of care and sleep well.
Your writing is wonderful.
I have been moved to tears tonight as I have read your three pieces.
You have all expressed our fears so well.
Heartbreaking truth.
Much love, Wendy xx
What lovely poetry all very emotional.
sorry not been about much as my SIL lost her cancer(lung) battle last week.i will be away for 3 days later on today as her funeral is thursday and over 200 miles away from here.
I too am in the putting weight on…3 dress sizes worth and am in the same camp of people that can’t manage to get out of the door as all my confidence has left me and not much energy.
Nice to see a fair few of you on rads now…one step nearer.
hope everyones treatment goes as well as can be expected xxx
morning, ladies
lovely poetry-I can’t hope to compete with that as I am rubbish.
I am sure our Heather will come up with some thing, I can hear the cogs turning right now!
good luck with last RAd today, Vickie, I’m glad your OH is going with you.
any effects from your RADS yet, Sandra, hope not.
Maria, hope you’re are recovering well and enjoy you trip.
sorry to hear your sad news, Taxi
love & hugs to everyone.I am off for my bloods today then PM NO 7 tomorrow.
Carolxx
Morning Ladies,
I finally feel well enough to put the duvet away and try and enjoy a few se free days before no5 next tuesday. I did have some kind of bug, but thankfully the anti b’s have got rid of it at last.
So many posts to catch up with - all 3 poems were great!!. Can’t remember which ladies have put weight on with peachy, but count me in, I have put loads on, but not eating too well this last couple of weeks may have helped to get rid of some of it - will see next week when I go to clinic.
Heather, wonderful news, a new baby in the family, something nice to focus on for a change.
Maria, hope you are feeling stronger hun, just be careful with the cases, don’t do too much but hope you enjoy your trip home (don’t forget the thermals as temp is dropping here fast!)
Kris, hope you enjoyed your time with the family, ryanair are so inconsiderate not flying again till feb!!!
Sandra, nice to see you back hun, hope all is well and that your rads are going ok, do you have music to listen to like vicki had ?
Vicki, well done hun, last of your rads today, hope you took lots of tissues as well as hubby.
Carol, hope all goes well with your bloods today and that peachy goes ok tomorrow, is the duvet ready ?? lol
Denise, hope all went well with tax no1 yesterday and that the se are not too bad, mine didn’t kick in till day 3,
Lesley, glad you had a great time with your son, good luck for tomorrow
Taxi, so sorry to hear your news hun (((((Taxi)))) thought you could do with a hug
Sorry to all those I have not mentioned, but I am thinking of you all and wishing you all minimum se of whatever treatment you are having this week
To those travelling this week, take care and safe journey
And
Love, hugs and positive vibes to all
Tracey xxxxxxxxxxxxx
Morning Ladies (well it was when I started typing…),
Vickie, Suze & Sandra - Love the poems! Will try and think of one, but not sure I can compete!
Tracy the TAX was ok, but your words are in my mind so watching for day three! Good luck with your next one.
Anne Sorry about your sad news; my thoughts are with you x
I’ve gone up at least one dress size, and not far off two, and considering I was on my way to one down to where I am now, that makes me nearly three up too, if that makes sense!
Lesley, glad you made it up with your friend, it would be sad to lose her after all this time, but bc certainly brings out the real ones doesn’t it! Loved the Wendy House line, childhood innocence.
Hope the CMF is kind for you x
Maria, I guess you will be on your way now, hope you packed some woolies, we have frost here today.
Sandra, Hope the tears are easing, new treatments bring new emotions don’t they, bloody BC!!!
Glad I missed page three, that really would fall in with the wench bit for me wouldn’t it!
Karen Thinking of you x
Isabelle, How’s the return to work going?
Vickie, Thanks for your comment about Single Father, I didn’t even know it existed till you posted and then I caught up with it on Iplayer so “Thanks” Love David Tennat too!
Kanga Kris, Are back home yet? Glad you managed to get over here, but bet you can’t wait for some welcome sunshine!
Jill, My duvet is ready, think I’m on a high at the moment with the steroids but the duvet is on standby!
How old are your children? My lad is off school next week.
Good luck with the rads, how far do you to travel for them?
Heather, How are you? Congrats on the birth, we have another one due next month. Yes I will join your club, think a few others will too from these latest post! Maybe a poem coming on…
Carol, Glad you enjoyed the IOW
Wendy Hi, Hope your day is good for you too
I’ve been taking note of all your comments about being one breasted and wearing a prosthesis and this is along the same lines as to how my mum feels since she lost both of hers; she hates it, hates the inconvenience of wearing the prosthesis and having to wear ‘cover up’ tops and not having a cleavage. BUT she understands and accepts the reasons why she had to have the surgery, how important it was to have it done to enable her to be here now, which is where I want to be after my op next year. Does this make sense? Am I normal in thinking this way too, as I’m really not looking forward to it and am seriously considering recon with tummy tuck. I know it’s a big op but it would be at least twelve months after rads - no pressure from OH as he’s with me whatever I decide - what are your thoughts?
Being here for my family is the most important thing for me, but how does a wench cope without a cleavage!!!
Did anybody ever hear anything from Pippa?
Well Hi to everybody else, maybe another poem with everybodys name in! Bring it on you poets out there!
Love to all
Nell x
morning, ladies, sunny here, melting the frost.
Nell, I think I will be 3 days behind you under the duvet. As for being one breasted, I didn’t have much of a cleavage before, but do get frustrated trying to hide the “crater”. I am starting to build a collection of cami tops (bought 2 on the I O W).the question is "is Nell still Nell without a cleavage? the answer is of course she is.
Tracey, thanks for the good wishes, hope you continue to feel better.
love Carol xx
Thanks Carol; I guess scarves are good too for covering up, and I have plenty now!
Hope the duvet is warm for you.
Love Nell x
Hi Ladies, sorry I let this post go to page 3, slap my chubby little legs lol I have an excuse though I was doing my assighnment yesterday. I have felt awful today though, got a sore throat and just feel shattered, I have got to be ok tomorrow though. It is grandsons first Harvest Festival at school, and grandaughters first birthday, and if I dont turn up for the meal tomorrow teatime my ex will think I haven’t gone because he is going. That doesn’t bother me, I can walk in head held high (Sandra) there my grandchildren also. Ethan my grandson is very loud, MIL’s family are really loud and they shout all the time, so DIL does, and so does Ethan. He had his reveiw at school a couple of weeks ago and he is doing really well, and they said he is the loudest singer in his year. That doesn’t suprise me lol but he is so cute, so I have got to make tomorrow. I loved your poems, Vicki,Sandra, your made me have a little weep, there so true, Suze yours made me laugh.
Vickie, you are a clever bunny, really hope your rad as gone ok. I can understand you being tearful, big (((((((hugs)))))) youve done really well with all your treatment well done xxxxxx
Sandra, you do loads of writing, bet you would be good doing my creative writing course. I have just written part 2 of my assighnment, it was a 750 word piece, I had to do a 220 word free write. I have just got to do a 200 word commentary now, but it hasn’t got to be in till 28th October.
Well hubby just came in, he’s been listening to the news and things are they are taking things of cancer patients again. First free perscriptions are going for people with long term illness, the results haven’t got to be given to you within the week no more, and there taking away one to one care with a cancer care nurse, sorry just popped that in my post.
Sandra, hope your rads are going ok, sorry you are feeling a little down ((((((( hugs)))))))))
Anne, so sorry about you sad news. I know how you feel about putting on 3 dress sizes, I hve lost count on how many dress sizes I have put on.
Carol, I had use to write a few verses, not done it for ages, I will have to have a think, oil theses old cogs lol Good luck tomorrow, not many left now.
Maria, know your on your way, hope you have a really good time.
Tracey, really pleased your feeling a bit better, bet it feels great to be out from under the duvet. Dont go over doing though, you dont wont to take astep back. You are join our weight gain club then. Shall we be called ‘Weight Watchers, Watching the Weight Pile On’ lol
Wendy, hope your are coping ok at the minute. I joined you with the tears at the poems.
Suze, I liked your poem, congrats on getting ironing done. I had to laugh, thinking of Vickie writing her poem and you sitting with her. Wow you have got to have a lot of rads, will they be done for christmas?
Dee, I know what you are going through, I have always had a cleavage. None of my tops where any good after the op because you could see my bra. But I have got use to it, and buy clothes now I know will look ok. You can still wear v neck things, you can buy these little lacey things you put underneath the v and it looks like a cami top. Wish I had got them before I through out all my low tops. I am not going for recon, I just dont want another op at the minute. I may change my mind but I doubt it. You will be fine though Dee, you are a survivor and you will get it sorted, and your hubby is like mine, he doesn’t mind what I do.
Well everybody take care
Love Heather,
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