Extremely Depressed
Extremely Depressed Dear All
Have posted on this site a couple of times however i mainly just read others postings.
I have been taking arimidex for eleven months now as well as zoladex. Mentally i have been trying to cope however since christmas i have started to feel depressed and of late it has been very severe - having sucide thoughts and even trying to self harm. I don’t know if it is down to the arimidex, early menopause or just a delayed reaction to the reality of having had cancer - would like to hear from others if they are having a similar experience. I feel that i have lost my spark and cannot except how the treatment has left me.
Have a very supportive family although of late we all seem to be arguing alot and dealing with the isssues separately. My partner’s sister has been fighting breast cancer since 2000 and i know that it sounds selfish but with this constant reminder of how this horrible disease keeps returning i am finding it hard to move on with life without worrying that my cancer will return. I am normally a very strong person however just lately i am questioning what is life all about and telling myself that i no longer want to be on this earth.
Taking steps to deal with this - have booked an appt with my oncologist to review my medication and have just asked for some counselling.
Sorry to ramble on so much but i really feel sad at present
regards
Annie xx
Dear Annie Thank you for posting about how you are feeling at the moment, it is an important step in getting the help and support you need right now. You are not alone in the way you are feeling and many people contact us at Breast Cancer Care, many of whom have said they have felt very depressed at some point and with help and support, do begin to start feeling better in time. You may find it helpful to know about the following organisations who are there to offer you help and support.
Samaritans provides confidential emotional support, 24 hours a day for people who are experiencing feelings of distress. They are there for you if you’re worried about something, feel upset or confused, or you just want to talk to someone, telephone 0845 790 9090, or email : jo-at-samaritans.org, their web address is www.samaritans.org.uk
You are also very welcome to contact us via our helpline on 0808 800 6000 Monday - Friday, 9am - 5pm Saturday, 9am - 2pm or our ‘Ask the Nurse’ service via the following link:
www.breastcancercare.org.uk/content.php?page_id=119
You mention that you have arranged to see your oncologist which is great, it is important that he/she along with your breast care nurse know how you are feeling. You may also want to contact your GP- they will have an out of hours contact number if you ring the surgery over the weekend.
I hope you feel able to use this information and I am sure you will soon have posts from some of the other forum users.
Kind regards
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Extremely depressed Hi Annmarie
I have been feeling extrmely depressed recently too. However I am not on any medication.
Perhaps it is coming to terms with what we have been through is causing our problems.
Family isn’t helping me either. I have a wonderful supportive partner but what I have been through and am going through is taking its toll on us too.
I am glad you have taken steps to get help.
I feel I can’t as prescriptions are so costly and our money is so tight. I would prefer not to have any medication in order to cope financially again.
This is such a hard time for you.
Hope things pick up soon for you.
All the best
Hugs
Fee
I feel the same hi Annie
Thanks for your posting. I am still on Zoladex and Arimidex for nearly two years and I find it hard myself to cope with the ups and downs that I experience sometimes.
There are days when I feel fine, and then there are days when I just want to cry for no reason.
I can understand completely how you’re feeling, it’s even harder when you feel for your partner’s sister - and somehow it’s something that constantly remind you of the illness and the fears connected with it.
I think it’s good that you have made an appointment with your oncologist and to go for counselling will be very helpful.
Dear all
Thank you all for your kind words
Annie xx
I’ve been there Ladies
My treatment finished 18 months ago but i still check in every now and again to see how people are doing.
Just want you to know that I also felt like that, at times during my treatment and afterwards,a feeling that the world was never going to be as safe as it was pre bc and that my body had betrayed me in some way.
I don’t post these days, but when i read your comments i felt compelled to send you my love and to tell you to hang in there.
It does get better, I promise.
Love Carol xxxx