Hi Sue, I can only echo what everyone has said, it’s utter crap but you will regroup once you’ve gotten over the shock and face it head on! I do wish they wouldn’t go on about nodes being clear prior to actually testing them as it just sets us up for a fall when we’ve been told one thing then find out it’s the other!
So many lovely ladies here who have been in the same situation as you and are testiment to how quickly we get out our heads around a change in news and dig deep enough to deal with it!! Xx Xx
So sorry to hear this and sending a virtual hug. This is bound to knock you for six! I do hope you find the resilience you will need to cope with the further treatment necessary to get shot of it and that in the future you can look back on this time and say “I got through it all, despite everything” x
Morning all I did sleep with the aid of nytol but woke up this morning still in s state of shock but with renewed optimism and determination that I can do this. The first thing I have done after a shower is pick up my phone and come on the forum and been greeted by so much love and support I am crying again but this time in a good way if you know what I mean x
That made me laugh Naza and I was so careful about not using profanity but yes that is my sentiments along with a whole barrage of other obscenities xx
I have decided that when I have told the last of my very close family tomorrow I will put a post on the dreaded fb but simply because I find it emotionally draining to keep telling everyone personally either by text or in person x
Hi Sue,I found it exhausting telling people and their reactions , when I eventually got to the bottom of the list I was relieved .Its one of the hardest things .
Hi Sue - I really feel for you and the game changing plan you now face but it’s clear you are going to attack it head on.
I’m yet to have my surgery (20th September) and my consultant has said ‘she will eat her hat if I end up needing chemotherapy’. Whilst that is, of course, some comfort and has certainly satisfied my OH, I have read too many threads here to assume this will be definitely be the case - so many ladies report changes in their treatment plan after their initial surgery.
So, my plan is to take it one step at a time as the lovely CCs keep reminding us all, be positive about the outcome but realistic to the facts that there is a slim possibility things may change after my initial surgery. That’s keeping me relatively sane at the moment (along with ice cold, Sauvignon Blanc in copious quantities of course!!).
None of us like the uncertainly or the unpredictability of this monster that lurks within us - the rug seems to be constantly sliding from under our feet - it can slide all it likes but mine’s a magic carpet and I’m sticking to it for the ride!!!
PS - for those of you that think I have already been hitting the SB, I haven’t - I’m busying myself on day 2 of my First Aid at Work course - what a fantastic distraction I have to say!!
Onwards and upwards my seriously strong friends. Catch you all later - Anita x
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I too log on first thing in the morning and last thing at night (and when I have time during the day) as it gives me great support and I also like to think I can support others too!
Facebook must be missing me!!!
Oh Sue, I am so sorry. I’ve been so caught up in my own problems that I forgot you were having your results this week. What a kick in the gut. I’ve just had a good cry on your behalf. Hugs.
Pecan don’t apologise Hun and all of you thank you, you all keep me sane and positive. I knew I was going on a journey just have to think of this as the scenic route and encountering speed bumps xx
Hi Jencat, doing much better after round 2, not sick this time and only nauseous for 12 hours. A third of the way through chemo now !! Hair off today(or the little that’s left) though so it wI’ll be a day with a few tears I think!.
Onwards and upwards ladies we will kick this cancers butt!!! Xxx
Michelle I love your post what times the drinks trolley is it wine o’clock yet xx. And so pleased your ct scan looks okay -what a relief xxxx Sib please keep posting you are giving me strength as you are so honest about chemo and it lets me know a little bit what to expect xxx these glitches are nowt but turbulence on bc airways x
I put a post on fb last night and then switched off my phone I woke up this morning to 143 comments on my post and I was overwhelmed by the outpouring of love and support and cried my eyes out again x the good crying xx
My hubby was convinced on day of op I would be a cross between Spider-Man and the hulk from blue dye and nuclear medicine that would have been some bad @ss superhero x
