Hi all, i’m really down at the moment, i haven’t had the official results yet as i was verbally diagnosed on christmas eve after an ultra sound and core biopsy, had an breast MRI last weds and go to go back to the clinic on 13th jan for results, every morning i wake up, the c monster invades my head and i cant even grieve for my mum properly, i still think i’m going to die from it, i was told that i have 2 small lumps and that they are fairly certain its cancer i was told that i am not going to die and that its is very treatable, i was wondering if they only said that because i was in shock and to reassure me, my question is would they have said this to me if they were unsure, i feel like they have given me false hope, has anyone ever had a verbal diagnosis without seeing the official results that turned out not to be cancerous? all this is so stressful and scary, i know i’m not the only one that is going through this nightmare but i feel so alone as i dont know anyone who has gone through this on a personal level, so finding it hard to cope …im so sorry for such a negative post …i hope that everyone is doing well xx
Hi @eeyore58 , I am sorry to read that you’ve been having a tough time.
The Forum is a good place to come to express these feelings, and I hope other Forum users are able to reassure you and share their experiences.
Would it help to speak to someone on our breast care Helpline? You can reach us on freephone 0808 800 6000 (Mon-Fri 9am-4pm; Sat 9am-1pm). We’d love to be able to chat things through.
Sending our most positive energy
Bernard x
Oh so sorry to hear that. The initial shock is huge and I personally found the time waiting to know exactly what I had very hard…… yes it does totally consume you. I can only suggest trying to focus on factual information and trying to stop your mind zooming ahead. I always had my worst case scenario and best case and that kind of helped me.
Practise anything that helps to settle your mind …… Netflix, reading, yoga, walking, etc. Feeling overwhelmed is, I think, totally normal. Share your anxieties/worries or write them down…… maybe this helps them from going round and round in your head.
wishing you absolutely all the very best…… fingers crossed for best case scenario! Will be thinking of you on13th……… positive vibes coming your way!
@eeyore58 - please don’t feel you need to apologise for what you consider to be a negative post. This forum is exactly the right place to come to let out your feelings in a safe non judgmental place where everyone understands without you needing to explain.
You’ve just had two big shocks. You have lost your mum and have had a verbal diagnosis of BC. That’s a lot to deal with, so please use this forum to help you as much or as little as you want to. Sometimes it can be easier to write on here anonymously than to talk to friends or family.
I agree with Eglis’s wise advice. The waiting time is very hard so you need to be extra kind to yourself and try to focus on the here and now, rather than letting your mind go into overdrive - or worse still start googling.
I can totally relate to you going over and over what you were told in the clinic and trying to read between the lines as I have done the same after many appointments. You haven’t had the results formally confirmed yet - but if it does turn out to be BC then they have reassured you that it is very treatable. They don’t give out false reassurances, that would be very unethical, so try to be reassured by that. I do understand your question - would they have even discussed treatment if they weren’t sure - without being in the room and hearing it’s hard to second guess what they were saying, and I’m sure you were in a state of shock so probably didn’t take it all in. If you can, try to lock the whole subject away in a box, at least for most of the day. One tip I was given was to allow myself perhaps half an hour “worry time”, say fixed at 3pm each day. The idea is to try to help you think about other things for the rest of the time. Of course, much easier to type than to actually do but perhaps worth a try.
Sending you big hugs and please do continue to chat anytime. Evie xx