Told work this week, all a bit draining, as my team is quite young, I felt like I was looking after them! My youngest daughter, aged 1, hasn’t been sleeping either, so my husband and I are a bit ratty towards each other. Very unusual for us. Anyway, went to yoga today, which was I good thing I guess. Dreading the MRI on the 18th, as this will, apparently, tell them if I have more extensive disease and the lumpectomy booked for the 24th March may have to be a mastectomy.
I keep thinking whether there is anything I can do to help myself, but I guess that comes after the surgery. I am going to try relexology and some massages, nutrient shakes and the like.
Anyway, felt like I needed to just tell someone how I was feeling.
Me x
Hi Terrier,
sorry you’re feeling a bit low at the moment, it’s a very dificult time for you and I’m sad to say I think It’s like that for a while, it does get better though, I remember saying to a friend ‘at least I don’t cry everyday anymore’.
I think also you have a million questions without answers as you still don’t know what you’re dealing with, try not to think the worst at the moment. I remember thinking that whatever it was I had wasn’t going to change no matter how much I cried or worried (pre results)
Try to not be too hard on yourself, it’s early days and a roller coaster time for emotions.
Take care
Much love
x
Hi Terrier,
I too am sorry your feeling a bit low, i just want to say, however your feeling its ok, things will become a little clearer when you start getting answers to your questions and know what your dealing with. There are some wonderful ladies on this site so please dont hold back if you want to talk, let of steam or are after some advice.
Take Care
Leslee x
Thanks Ladeez,
I have been looking into breast reconstruction, think I might go for it, if I have to.
My daughter brought me back to earth today, as I told her I was going in so the doctors could take a bad lump out of my boobie. She said, ‘mum, are we going on holiday afterwards?’ She is 4, but she has a good idea there…
Wine o’clock calls.
You are right about the crying though, it isn’t daily now. That’s one good thing.
X
Hi Terrier,
you’re very good, It took me at least 6 weeks until I didn;t cry everyday.
I’m looking at reconstruction now, although I didin’t have a mx I’d had enhancement 6 years ago and had to have it removed with WLE,feel a bit of a fraud have recon with other poor ladies having MX but none the less am far less than I used to be and need making over.
Hope you’re feeling a bit happier this evening.
x
hi terrier - kids eh but they have some great ideas!! Hope you’re feeling a bit better…mary x
the tears come when you least expect it don’t they! we can all support each other, its good to talk, hope the wine helped! xx
I’d say that feeling low is completely normal. When I first diagnosed the news kept changing and getting worse and I got very down. However, once you know what you’re dealing with then somehow something else in the brain kicks in and I stopped crying and wanted to start fighting. I really think that the waiting time is very hard.
Don’t be hard on yourself and don’t worry too much about others (particulalry your people at work). I think you go through the emotions you need to in order to cope.
I did find plenty of walks in the fresh air was really helpful and gave me some peace of mind.
A big hug to you.
Hey Terrier
Great name to have for what you need to do now. Grab on, shake it by the scruff of the neck, and don’t let go till you’ve killed it! 
Yoga would be great to keep doing, and anything to keep yourself relaxed and as stress free as possible. Cry and shout when you have to, be kind to yourself, know you’re going to beat it, and go Grrrrrr.