I was diagnosed on Tuesday with invasive ductal carcinoma, stage 2, having MRI on Wednesday. I feel so angry today being horrible to my hubby, kids, and I feel so guilty for treating them like this when they are being so supportive. Keep thinking that I can never get through this, but know that I have to. Just feel totally drained and am wondering how I am going to find the energy to get through treatment, especially chemo! Reading the forums where people have been and are going through treatment helps me think positive for a while then Im back to the feeling I can’t do this! Trying to be brave but feel that Im not!
Love westland 39 x x
Sending you cyberhugs - diagnosis is such a challenge… hoping that once you start treatment you feel more positive
Keep in touch with us - I’ve found these forums invaluable in getting me though the bad days - hope you’ve something good planned for the long weekend to try to keep your mind occupied…
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Thank you francesw for my cyberhugs. Haven’t made any plans for the weekend in fact haven’t been out since my diagnosis on Tuesday, which I know is stupid even though my poor hubby has tried so hard to get me out. So as from now am going to plan something! I will be keeping in touch on my bad and good days (hopefully more good days than the bad ones)!
Love westland 39 x x
Dear Westland,
I was diagnosed on Monday and feel as you do. Such a scary time. I’ve had my MRI and am feeling a bit better as I feel a bit more in control knowing that we can battle this (I was terrified they were going to say it was too late)…but it flagged up that it has spread to my lymph nodes, so need to have a biopsy on them now… I posted on Monday after finding out and everyone said I would feel better once I knew a bit more and that diagnosis was the worst bit. I didn’t believe them!! But it’s true. I’m know there’ll be lots of challenges ahead and maybe more bad news, but I am definitely in a slightly better place and am finding this forum really helpful. I spoke to another girl who was diagnosed on Monday this morning (we PMed each other our numbers) and that was a great source of strenght too - to talk to someone in a similar situation.
I will probably be starting chemo next week or the week after, so let’s keep in touch and help each other through this.
Look after yourself.
Sandytoes (33) x
Glad you are working on a plan Westland - sometimes I just have to be made to get out and my OH is very good at that - once I’m out and having a treat (love a meal out or trip to new place) then I do cheer up - so do get your OH to help you even if you do seem to resist the help since it might help you to establish some “normality” - not easy I know…
We need to make the most of our lives - once your treatment starts you will feel better, I sure.
Keep sharing - it’s so helpful to all of us and the BCC phone line are really good too.