Feeling crazy

I’m 41 and recently been diagnosed with breast cancer. With 2 small children it feels like my life is over before it’s even begun! I’ve started FEC-T and only having had one cycle the waiting to see if it’s working is driving me insane.
I’m trying to remain postive but then every second of the day I doubt that it’s working as other than my hair slowly falling out I’ve had no side effects.
The oncologist has arranged another MRI but that’s not until 11th April once I’ve had my second cycle and that seems years away!!
My emotions are all over the place and this is coming from someone who never shows them and is always in control so now I am lost and although I have massive family and friends support I feel alone!
The cancer has spread to my lymph nodes so I know that following chemo I will need an operation and lymph removal but my mind keeps taking me to a dark places and convincing me this is going to end badly!
I’ve read some posts and know none of this is new and many are going through what I am but today is one of those days when I’m feeling low and crazy.
I’m new on here and suppose just want to have a moan and vent what I really want to say to family but can’t but also to hear from others so I can talk to someone who is going through this nightmare wheel!!! X

Hey there,
Wel done on finding this site so soon, vent away, you will find lots of advice and support… but i would recommend reposting.on the going thru treatment section. It has many more visitors than this section. You may also want to seek out the specialist group Young Womans breast cancer, you will find many ladies there in a similar situation.
Good luck with your treatments. I read a quote recently… “to date you have survived 100% of bad days, not a bad track record.”
Much love, LL xx

I got the name of the group a little garbled, its Younger Breast Cancer Network (YBCN) i met some vibrant ladies involved with that group… at 50 i was a little too old!

Thank you for the reply and direction, I’ll start searching today xx

Hi
I’ve reposted as suggested and can I just say 50 is not old and anytime you want to chat I’m happy to talk
Regards Colista

He he @ not old, my folks are still behaving as if they are teenagers, is just the anastrazol that slows me atm. Thx though x x