Hi
I know I must be down cos I posted this on the have I got breast cancer thread first by mistake!
Came on for a bit of a moan and read some threads which have at least made me smile. Had number three ec 8 days ago and still not feeling great. This time seems to have really knocked me back and I am doubting my ability to ‘stay the course’ I know that some people have four cyles not six and think I will ask about that. Still got the jelly legs that shake when I stand for a few minuted, stomach still not right, nausea and don’t mention the constipation and the cure - not sure which was worse.
Looked at some of the threads and like others I was moaning last night about wanting ‘my life back’ I am worried that I am becoming so lethargic and lazy that I will be too unfit to contemplate a return to work in the new year. That makes me feel worse as I had just started a new job with new challenges and was loving it.
My OH is very supportive but I worry that all this will drive him away. (I already worry as he is 10 years younger than me). he assures me that he is going nowhere and I should not worry. I have had no checks to see if there is any further spread fom the lymph nodes and don’t know if that’s because they know there isn’t (and if they do then how do they know) and am not sure if they can even measure the effect of this chemo anyway. Is it just hit and miss?
Sorry I am going on a bit I think I had better stop before I get even more fed -up!
Hello Jewjew
sorry you’re having a bad day. I was ready to give up after my 4th chemo but managed to have the full 6. don’t give up. think of it as giving up several months of your life in exchange for many more years.
don’t apologise about moaning - that’s what this site is for.
Take care
Love Anthi
Dear Jewjew
I found the 3rd chemo really bad and the 1st Taxotere just awful… so stay with it, they are not all the same and hopefully you won’t suffer so badly with the following ones.
Take care
Cecelia. x
Hi JJ,
I finished E-CMF chemo last week and I don’t mind telling you that after Epi No3 I was more than ready to throw in the towel!! However, I stuck with it and am soooo grateful that I did.
I’m right there with 'ya on the whole ‘younger man’ front. I am 35 and my boyfriend is 28 and throughout chemo I have had some serious wobbles, none of which have been remotely initiated by something he has said or done. He has always been so supportive, and I honestly don’t think I could’ve got through this without him. I do get paranoid at times though as this is not something he signed up for!! I was needing constant reassurance at the start, particularly following my mastectomy. Nowadays though I don’t worry about it at all as I know he really loves me for me and has no intention of going anywhere. I do know where you are coming from though.
Take care,
Kelly
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