Need to shuffle into this thread for a bit as seem to be taking a bit of a dive and I am annoying myself! If all goes well and this tax doesn’t give me neutropenic sepsis again I have 1 more in 3 weeks so in many ways light at the end of the tunnel of what has been a bloody nightmare. I am not angry as such just still can’t believe I ended up in this position at 48 (49 now who robbed a year! ) and am so scared of of it coming back and brassed off with people positive stories of everyone they know bring fine 20 years down the line, sorry it doesn’t make me feel any better in fact i want to punch them for their positivity! !
I don’t think the situation has been helped by a difference in opinion re: treatment after chemo (which is us all i seem to talk about going forward ! ) and I am going back to discuss options with surgeon as I am terrified of making the wrong decision. In fact i am terrified of the future all round at present. I did see the psychologist for a couple of sessions which helped rationalise some things at that time, so maybe that’s the way forward or maybe I just need a bloody good howl which I haven’t done since all this started :(. Sorry for bring depressing !