Feeling scared and worried

I found a lump in my right breast on 20th Dec, went to the doctors who referred me to the breast clinic and I had my appointment today. Had a mammogram, ultrasound and was told the original lump is a cyst but there was an area of concern (1cm) in a different part of my breast. I had 2 biopsies and a marker put in and then had another mammogram.
Saw the nurse before i left and she said there are lots of cysts in each breast but this area looks different so until the results are back they just don’t know.
I made an appointment to go back on 15th Jan after the MDT have met in the morning of 15th

I am trying desperately to be rational but I’m struggling. I’m fortunate that i haven’t been told it definitely is but i go from being reasonably positive to feeling like it’s going to be really bad news. The nurse in the ultrasound was telling me the the marker won’t affect an MRI and will be taken out if i have surgery. I’m reading into everything that happened today.

I have to say you are all so inspirational on this forum and I am taking some strength and hope from your posts.

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Dear Aprilbaby,

So sorry to read your post, however we are all here for you, at the moment it’s awaiting game, one day at a time. Hopefully time will pass quickly until your next appointment, keep busy all very easy for me to say when you are feeling so anxious.

No one has cancer until your consultation confirms this. Try to have a notebook to hand to scribble down any worries you may have, to discuss with your team at your next appointment.

I do wish you lots of luck going forward, fingers crossed for a good outcome. Please keep posting letting us know how things are going.

With the biggest hugs Tili :rainbow::pray::rainbow::pray:

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Hi aprilbaby, sorry to read you are going through this. You did the right thing by getting it checked out. It will be a long, scary time waiting for your results. Try to remain positive and do nice things while you wait. Even if it is cancer, treatments are so advanced and effective these days. Fingers crossed for you. Let us know how things are x

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Thank you so much for your messages, i really do appreciate it.
I shall try and take your advice and I know I need to try and keep some perspective. I’m just not very good at the waiting game but I suppose no one is! x

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Im sorry to hear this. The waiting i found far worse than my diagnosis. I found a lump in October. I tried to keep busy waiting for results and threw myself into christmas shopping but wow my heart wasnt in it and my head took me to dark places. I found it an awful time. Try not to google and if you can take yourself off for some fresh air and a good walk. That helped. I wanted my friends to chat to me as normal and so would just sit and listen to chatter and it was a great distraction. Stay strong.

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Sending hope and good wishes. It’s hard not to speculate and sort of catastrophise when you’re in the waiting stage. Try to hang onto the thought that you are now in the system and if you do need further intervention it is generally very well structured, supportive and efficient. Getting information is good but try to limit yourself as it is too easy to go down all sorts of rabbit holes online and cause more anxiety! I hope it’s nothing for you but there are lots of positive stories here. since my diagnosis, support has been excellent, I was lucky to have early diagnosis and treatment and I’m very hopeful that 6 months will see me back to my version of normal. Stay strong x

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Hello

As others have said the waiting is horrendous and can and will play havoc with your head and well being so you need to control what you can so if you have a job carry on but be aware that you are likely to be less productive than usual and might be triggered by all manner of emotions

If you can trust and confide in someone do it or if not then distract yourself with as many lovely things in a day you can

Until the diagnosis is shared there are simply too many what ifs so as easy as it is to say it try and concentrate on today and then tomorrow do the same

If you are really struggling talk to your GP or contact a local Maggie centre or Mind for support they have lots of on line and face to face stuff

Take care of yourself x

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Welcome to the forum @aprilbaby

I’m glad you’ve reached out here but sorry that you’re going through this painful period of waiting. The forum is full of very kind people who are here for you any time. I hope you find the support you are looking for.

Please know that our nurses are also here to support you - with clinical questions or for a chat. You can get in touch with them here on the forum on the Ask our Nurses your questions board or over the phone 0808 800 6000.

Sending our warmest,
Lucy

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Thank you again for all of your advice, support and for reaching out when you are all on your own paths.

I was back at work today and appreciated being busy as the day went a little faster. I am trying to concentrate on a day at a time as suggested. It’s strange wanting an appointment to come round quickly when it’s an appointment I really don’t want. I know you all know exactly where I’m coming from.

Thank you again and I wish you all well x

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WELL DONE, to you for keeping busy. As we have all said we are here for you.

Good luck for next week, biggest hugs

Tili :rainbow::pray::rainbow::pray: