Hi Everyone,
This is my first post on here although I have been reading lots of threads over the last few weeks.
At the end of November I found a pea-sized lump in my left breast. I went to my GP straight away and got referred. There is a history of BC in my family. I had a mammogram and ultrasound which showed a lot of calcification in my left breast (weirdly the lump I’d found didn’t seem to concern any of the professionals who examined me). I was called back for a core-needle biopsy a few days after, which I found very difficult and painful as the anesthetic didn’t seem to work until it was nearly over.
The woman who did the biopsy told me she thinks it’s 70% likely that the calcifications are cancer as “there is so much of it”. I had a long talk with the breast care nurse there and she went through all the information about mastectomies. I cam out very upset, feeling sure that I needed a mastectomy.
Because Christmas was in between, it’s been 3 weeks since that day and tomorrow I get the biopsy results back. I have done so much research online into mastectomies and reconstruction options. I thought I was ok with whatever they say tomorrow. I even started thinking of it as a bit of a positive (?!!!) - a chance to get my health in order, rethink what I want out of life etc. (I turn 40 in 2019 which might be part of it).
But today, with tomorrow’s appointment looming I feel really, really sick and scared. I feel on the brink of tears all the time and I don’t know how I’m going to get through this evening and tonight. The thought of waiting to be called in to be told the results is so so scary.
I don’t know what help or advice I’m expecting here. But I hope just putting my feelings down in black and white might help.
xxx
CorrieFan
Love the name 
There is nothing anyone can say that is going to make it any easier for you but just wanted to let you know that we are all there with you, we all can relate to that feeling. Try as much as possible to distract yourself before your apt tomorrow. Are you taking anyone with you for support and an extra pair of ears, even when we get good news we dont always hear what is being said because of our anxious state.
Sending you a pair of the virtual tough pants we send to ladies who are anxious and need a bit of support, the pockets are very deep so taht we can all be in them to hold your hand. As you can see they are freshly laundered and I sincerely hope that they bring a smile to you.
Let us know how you get on tomorrow if you want to, we will all help and support you as much as we can.
Sending you hugs
helena xxx
Good luck tomorrow Corriefan - it’s a horrible time waiting for results .Jill x
H CorrieFan,
Results day is pretty grim but you’ve done the hardest part which is waiting for weeks and getting through Christmas so you can do this one last night ?? A good stiff drink got me through many an anxious day and night in those early weeks I can tell you!
With hindisght it’s easy for us to say don’t panic and it will all be ok but we all felt as you did at one point and know it’s impossible not to be anxious and fearful but what ever the outcome tomorrow they will look after you and we can all help support you here, not much we haven’t dealt with between us!
All the best Xx Jo
Update: So I do feel better now I know. And it helped a lot to have positive vibes from you ladies on here so thank you.
I have intermediate stage DCIS in my left breast and am going to have a mastectomy with reconstruction from belly fat (can’t remember the proper name for this?!). They think I may carry the gene so have been given blood test, results in 4 weeks. It looks likely I will have a double mastectomy given family history.
I feel better knowing what I’m up against but still nervous about the surgery involved. Please let me know if you have experience of similar surgery and what I can expect? Any tips or advice appreciated!
Thanks in advance,
Linda xx
Glad you feel better Linda .there is information re Diep flap reconstruction in the surgery section of the forum and breast cancer care have a leaflet you can download breastcancercare.org.uk/information-support/publication/breast-reconstruction-bcc7