Feeling very weepy, tired, everything aches, i know i have done okay, getting thru my 6 chemos, only 2 left. But the fact i still have surgery, and radiotherapy to go, makes me feel like this thing never ends. Need some encouraging today.
Dear anjana
Please don’t lose heart when you have been so brave to get through 6 chemos. Take life one step at a time. If you feel tired don’t be afraid to take yourself off to bed for a lie down; and do make sure you try to get small nourishing meals so that you can replenish your blood cells and build up your strength between each cycle. Just have anything you fancy. If you’re like me, maybe you won’t decide what to eat until the last minute. The main thing is to try to eat something.
And if you feel weepy - then have a good cry. Talk your fears over with your nearest and dearest friend or relative. And when you’ve done all this - go out and spoil yourself. With 6 chemos under your belt you deserve it. Perhaps you could get some new makeup or a new brooch to pin on your headscarves to boost your morale. There must be something to brighten your day and make you feel treasured.
I’ve only had 2 chemos, so you are much further down the road than me. You have achieved so much. If surgery is still to come I think you’ll find it far less traumatic than the chemo.
My love and best wishes go out to you. Please accept a virtual hug and feel the good vibes speeding your way.
Dear Feistysister
Thanks so much for your encouraging words, i really appreciate them. I hope your chemo goes well. Please accept a virtual hug back.
I know what you mean anjana
I have done 5 with 3 to go and this last week has been really really hard …
I woke up this morning desperate to do some housework - the house looks awful as I’ve done nothing for about 10 days - I just haven’t been up to it and then OH suggested a bite out and I was far fom keen but realised I have been in the house almost all week but I just didn;t know what to do
anyway … we went to the zoo!!! …we were driving past and just went in …I’m not really a zoo lover as I don’t usually like to see animals in a cage but hardly anyone was there and we a really nice afternoon
sometimes I think doing something completely different helps a lot …
I had to put a hanky on my head to stop it burning but luckily with all the animals to look at people weren;t that bothered about looking at me - and the animals didn’t mind!
when I started this lark and read posts from people who had been doing it for ages and were getting fed up I used to think “get a grip woman” but now i undertand that 6 months is a long time to be doing this with all it’s lovely side effects
now that I have finished my 5 day course of injections this morning I should have a good week next week - hope you do too - this week has not been the best!
I don’t think about rads yet … I just try and think of it in sections - so I’ve done surgery, done 4 x Epi and now I’m in the 4 x TAX. It does help me by splitting it up as it means that the next one will be half way through.
Once you’ve done your next one you’ll only have 1 to go - whoooopppeeee
I have a good cry every 2 or 3 weeks - “true movies” does it for me - you can always find something miserable on that to get it all out! I know my fallback is a “Lassie” video - guaranteed to get me going …
Good luck and hope you fell better soon - not long to go before chemo is a thing of the past!
lots of love
FizBix xxx
Hi Fizbiz
I think you are right, distraction is the key. The zoo sounds like it was good fun! Housework will always be there, so good you shouldn’t worry about it.
I don’t get any injections, and i bounced back from fec, but i am feeling the side effects of taxotere, even two weeks later, don’t seem to be having my 1 good week that i have had previously. Thats whats bringing me down.
True movies are fab, i love watching them too, and having a little cry, but at the moment someone just has to say a bad word, to me and i am off in tears. Maybe i just need a big bar of chocolate.
Good luck with your chemo… See you at the end of the finish line.
Hey - you only have 2 more… then it is done…
I know it is pooh… but you will get thru
take care toots
J xxx
Hi
I’ve just had a double masectomy two weeks ago and previously 6 sessions of FEC. Only 3 weeks of rads to go now and its all over. Seems like a long way to go at the beginning but it really flies by.
Hello anjana
Hope you’re feeling ok this morning. If your emotions are fragile all you can do is to have a little weep and let it all come out. I was fragile like this over 30yrs years ago after my 14 yr old daughter died from a brain tumour so I know how difficult it is to turn off the tears. But this emotional fragility does not stop - will not stop - you doing amazing things. It’s odd really because these terrible experiences strengthen you and put life into perspective. And yes - you do gain courage to carry on. Don’t beat yourself up because you’re feeling low at this particular time. It’s all part of the grieving process associated with breast cancer. Remember it’s only a few months since you got your diagnosis and it takes time to take everything in - let alone put up with the side effects of chemo. Keep telling yourself that you will get through it - taking one step at a time.
By all means have your big bar of chocolate - but plan some other treats as well so that you have good things to look forward to as well as more chemo, ops etc. If nobody else will spoil you then spoil yourself - go out and buy a new outfit, new earrings - just do something to boost your morale. In the words of an advert 'YOU KNOW YOU’RE WORTH IT!
I shall be thinking of you today anjana. You have done so well, give yourself a big pat on the back. xxx and virtual hugs.
Hi Anjana
Hope you are feeling a little better this morning. Its big deep breathe full battle mode time, yes lots lots easier said than done but you are sooooo nearly there and you can do it honestly you can.
The next one will be here before you know it and then it will be LAST ONE TIME yippee. And then some bright spark will text you and hour after the last one to congratulate you on it all being over when you haven’t even started on the fallout from it let alone the next step etc etc etc.
Lots of love and be good to yourself.
AJxxx
PS I love Jens post, she’s a poet and she doesn’t know it!!
Dear all
Thanks so much for your comments. You really did make me feel better. Off for chemo 7 on friday. Trying to be positive. Rented out our house as we couldn’t afford to live in it, due to me giving up work cos of the cancer. And we are having tenants from hell. They don’t seem to be moving out, or paying rent, and we will have to begin a long eviction process. Just didn’t need that and feeling crap because of chemo.
But cancer waits for no man, life goes on.
Thanks