Hi all
I get my MRI results back on Weds and the waiting is really getting to me. I hate the fact that people know what’s happening but I don’t. I feel sick all the timeand can’t stop thinking about it, from when I wake until I go to bed. I’m constantly searching the internet for positive stories, (I know I shouldn’t google, but can’t help it). The fear that I’m going to be told that it’s spread is overwhelning, even though they have kept saying it’s tiny and contained in the lump, but what if there’s more or it’s in my other breast too. I know nobody can answer these questions I have until I get my results. I’m hoping that if they haven’t called me in sooner then the MRI result isn’t something they have to acton urgenly, (does that make sense or am I just clutching at straws)?? I don’t want to do anything, but have 2 little children that I don’t want to upset and want to let them think all is still normal, but really all I want to do is sleep and inbetween that scream about how angry and scared I am about the future. I want to be here for my children and just cry whenever I think of the worse case. Please tell me I’m normal?? Thank you xx
jk you are perfectly normal!
We all found the waiting so hard, the constant worry, and I understand your point of not standing it that other people knew about you and you didn’t.
Try not to google - I’m guilty, and just wanted to read positive stories, that made me feel hopeful, negative ones filled me with angst.
It’s a tough time, especially if you’re looking after children as well.You’re nearly there, stay strong, you can do it - one more full day then you get your results.
xx
Fingers crossed you both get good results this week, and to anyone else waiting for their results xx
Hello jk,
As everybody else said already - it is normal. I am usually easy with relaxing and not worrying, but no meditation or relaxation helped to ease the fear I had while waiting. Those two weeks of waiting and not knowing if my whole body was already being eaten by cancer was the most scary time of my life. I still haven´t started treatment (surgery in 3 weeks, then chemo), but at least I now know what I am facing and can gather my strength, and I can sleep again. Once you know you can concentrate on the next step. I hope you´ll get your results quickly!
s
Thank you so much ladies and sorry to moan, I can talk to my husband but I feel like he’s getting annoyed with my negativity, (he isn’t saying that but I know it does get to him & he’s always trying to be positive for me). PaulS good luck for tomorrow I really hope you get the news you want and will be hoping & praying for you too, will wait to hear xxxx