Hi Jbelle…this seems like a massive nightmare that I will never get out of at the mo…sorry for negativity…hoping for better days soon xx
Rachy - what medication are you on and for how long ? Is it Tamoxifen ?
Hi Jill…think the Arimadex isn’t helping at the mo…I’m supposed to be going back work in a bout 6 weeks…not even managing to meet up with old friends or anything…so tearful x
How long have you been on it ?Some people have real problems re mood /anxiety may be worth asking about taking a break for a few weeks see if it is the cause and if it improves discuss the alternatives with your doctor .Most exciting thing I manage at the moment is a walk round the block with the dog !!! It doesn’t sound like you will be in the right place to go back to work in 6 weeks - you need to be in a much better place mentally .
Ive been on arimadex about a month now…dare not really stop taking it…I’m going sew my doc about changing my anti depressants, mitasapene. I just wish I could feel a bit better mentally…I just keep worrying so much about what the future may bring …I know worrying won’t change anything xx
Did the symptoms start before you started taking the Arimidex ? They can look at alternatives you know if it is making you so bad mentally .My symptoms have been worsened by pain medication following hysterectomy and a new asthma inhaler I was given ( the pain meds made asthma worse ) which made me very agitated ,I am very sensitive to medications .On the list for full body transplant !!!
My anxiety kicked in as soon as I was diagnosed. .its ruining everything .I need to get a grip and try to pick my head up! X
If it was as simple as that you would have done that wouldn’t you ?And do would I !!! Have they offered you some other support -counselling etc Could you afford /get to acupuncture ? Belle suggested a herbal anxiety medication that had helped her may be worth dismissing with doctor - Alpranax .
Thanks for that Jill,I will have a word with the doctor…its the uncertainty of the future I find I’m bearable at times hun xx
It is only early days for you - it takes time to come to terms with what has happened -you have been told there is a low chance of re-occurrence via the Oncotype test and you will be closely monitored for years . breast cancer care run " moving forward" courses all over the country may be worth having a look if there is one near you .
Thanks Jill…I just sort of can’t get in my head low risk with a big tumour…my friend has messaged me and said the same about it being early days xx
I think Lobular cancer is often "large " cos it has "tentacles " not quite the same as ductal - think that’s what I read anyway ?? You could ask in ask the nurses section ?
Yes, lobular is long and thin. Mine was 45mm. Initially they thought it was 2 lumps, but it was described as a figure 8.
That’s what I thought so they tend to be “larger” anyway?
Blooming heck that was a fast grower then !!!
Hello Rachy, there’s no need to apologise… your anxiety kicked in when you are diagnosed and you are definitely not alone with your fears, anxiety and feel like you living a nightmare.
When I was told I had bc, the very first question I asked my dr was…how long have I got? …and he told me not to think like that! Went through my mastectomy and treatments and taking Tamoxifen and never expected at all that I would be really struggling emotionally. Thought my nightmare would end with my treatments but didn’t as my anxiety got worst as I faced one health issue after another and each time I got so scared. Last month, I started to take Alpranax and it has helped to calm me down.
You were saying that your partner expects you to be normal, you are going through a difficult journey and if you don’t mind me saying, I think that he is abnormal to expect you to be normal so soon. All these takes time, patient, care, love, understanding…lots & lots…it is a tough time for both parties to adjust. Maybe you should sit down with him and frankly discuss your fears, anxiety, expectations and see what he got to say… and if he can’t support you during your time of need, then you have to seriously consider loving yourself more!
Rachy… really hope that you will feel better…know it is hard being positive… giving you hugs 
Belle - I tried and failed to barricade him in ?!!! Worth a try though!!! I asked my GP
about the full body transplant list -not sure if he will refer me as I still have some working parts …
Debbie , I think it was the big knickers that pushed him over the edge and made him jump out of the window …
Thankyou Jbelle…I’m struggling to just “get by” at the moment and have to fake alot of how I’m feeling just so as not to drive him away. .we were so happy and carw free…he saw me as the glamo uress older lady that was so fun to be with. .I felt Sexy and young having a younger man…now it’s all changed x
Only very limited parts … I’m not sure better knickers will do the trick but may be worth a try !!!