Hello…what a week at has been. I went to the dr due to breast soreness and she told me she felt a small lump. It took me totally by surprise because I frequently do sel exams and felt no lumps. I totally freaked out and could not stop thinking about not being here to watch my daughter grow up. Anyways, I scheduled my follow up with the breast imaging center (I am in the us and found this site while doing some searches and I must say it is a grat site), haggled with my insurance company (us medical system is no fun…thank god I have insurance through my husbands job). I am really trying to stay calm. Things are made more complicated because I just moved and feel all alone. My husband does his best but he works really long hours.I would love to hear how others coped with the waiting. I am so grateful for this site and how positive people are. I have already taken your advice to stay off google and that has helped a ton.
Hi Abigailsmomma,
Waiting is the worst, your mind works overtime, that is why this site is so useful any worries you have you can post and someone will come along with help and answers. All the very best for your results, take care and hugs to you xx
Thanks so much for your support. It is so hard because I will be doing ok and then all of the sudden my fears just hit me. I think about my daughter not having a mother at different points in her life and lose it completely. This is so hard for my husband to understand. When I am not having these moments I am totally numb. For example, we just sold our house, which is a good thing sine we no longer livebin that part of the country, and I would usually be excited but I really could not care less. Keeping the house tidy and preparing for thanksgiving seems almost impossible. All the positive messages on this board really help.
Hello Abigailsmomma,
I read your post and felt I had to comment. i had a referral to a breast clinic after a routine mammogram showed something I had not felt. It turned out to be some cysts. Apparently the biggest was 1cm and not feelable, so I was hugely relieved that I hadn’t been doing the whole self examination all wrong.
My results were all clear as cysts are non cancerous, but the wait was horrendous. As you are doing, I kept looking at my children and wondering how they would be without me bossing them around. My husband also works very long hours, and your mind just goes into overdrive especially with all the nonsense which you can find out there in the internet.
I hope your appointment is soon, and everything is all clear, you must try to remember that most lumps are benign. (easier said than done, I know).
Good luck, and lots of hugs,
Lilly7
Lily7
Thank you so much for sharing your experience. It is so helpful to have other women share their stories so that I know I am not all alone in this. It is great to have a group of women who understand what it is like when your mind goes into overdrive. Honestly, things have gotten better since I have been on this site. My poor husband thinks I have temporarily lost my mind when I start crying and talk about my fears like they reality. People here are so positive while being honest. I have found the info packets really helpful. Part of what has made this so hard is that I have recently moved and I have very few friends in my new city. Also, the had a great GP in Austin who had seen me through other health issues and was alway honest but supportive. The GP here didn’t even want to admit what she felt a lump when I asked her(had the nurse tell me) and the nurse kind of rushed out of the room the moment she saw that I was upset. I have been trying to find a new GP in town but it is hard with my insurance. Therefore, most of what I have learned has been from the web (some of it has been really scary). This site, however, allows me to feel informed and supported without making things worse.
My appt is Dec 5 (the day after my 33rd birthday). It is a diagnostic mammo and ultra sound so I should have some idea of what is going on. Thanks for the support!!
Well, I hope you get really good news, and in most cases that’s what happens. Hey my birthday’s 3rd December, so we’re already close friends. 
- although I am a wee bit older than you 
I had the diagnostic mammo and ultrasound and that’s all that was needed to discover my problem was entirely benign. Really hope you get the same result, and I will check back to find out how you get on.
Good luck, thinking about you XX
Well… Just got off the phone from the imaging center (we don’t have breast clinics here) and it turns out that there is a cancellation for tomorrow. I am anxious to get on with it so I am glad for the cancellation. Thank you everyone for holding my hand so far…I will fill you in (either good or bad) tomorrow.
With much love,
Katie