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for cherryred Hi cherry
Thanks for your reply, I think that I have had one of those bc moments where you just panic about it all !!**!! I mean I am a year on, TODAY [oh my goodness!] from my mastectomy. Yes, I had chemo, 6 FEC and then 25 rads on 6 fields but can’t actually say for sure where now. So you would think that I’m over it, wouldn’t you. I have these feelings of doubt every now and again, you know the ‘did I have the right treatment’ thing. I’m sure I’m not alone , it’s not that I really think that, just the insecurities that this illness brings makes you question so many things. Did you have chemo? Rads is a breeze in comparison, but it has put a dampner on my recon. Hopefully I am going to have just an implant, not the mainstream way at my stage of the game, apparently, but a much smaller procedure so suits me fine. They are just a bit concerned because of the rads, but if it goes wrong at least my options are still open.
Any way, nice to hear from you, and hope you’re well
love and hugs
Scarlet. xxx
Hi there Scarlet -I know exactly what you mean- I think i was so shocked and fearful when I was first diagnosed that i didn’t really do any research into treatment (far too scarey) , but now , a little bit further down the road, I too get wracked with worry about whether I should have been more on the ball.I worry as I had 2/8 nodes positive -then i see others that have had total axillary clearance and found more nodes pos -what if I had more-but they were never found. I read that some women had FEC (I had 8 cycles FEC) -but it didnt work for them -what if it hasn’t worked for me AND I had more positive nodes in there? I looked over my path lab report, and having read how important clear margins are-discover I had a margin positive with DCIS and a close margin on another side -yet I wasn’t offered further surgery, and on it goes. The uncertainty drives me mad and yet I know it’s all a bit late to worry about it. I’m interested to know how they decide how many fields of radio you need -not sure how many I had --oh well, something else to worry about! ha ha.keep me posted about the recon
Love cherry xx