I went for my first mamogram one year after stage 2 breast cancer. I was just called yesterday and told they want me back on Tuesday as they found some thing on my right (non cancer side). After feeling around I can feel a lump. I am panic striken. I have just gone back to work, I have 2 boys (7 and 9) and the thought of having to tell them it is back brings me to tears. My husband and sister are lovely but they are in the you’re not back back there yet. My head knows this but my heart is heavy. I have been keeping busy, the washing all done, the house is clean and then when I stop I am overwhelmed. I don’t know how or what to feel - the waiting is very tough. Will it ever get any easier? All I can think is that I should have had a mastectomy a year ago.
Didn`t mean to be so gloomy but needed to say how I feel without having to pretend to hold it all together.
Oh dollymolly i’m so sorry you have to go through the waiting again but hopefully this time it will be nothing.
I went through all your going through and didn’t even tell my family at first because I didn’t want to worry them.
I was so stressed and had convinced myself that I had cancer again. I was more scared second time around. thankfully it turned out to be nothing but fatty tissue.
After mammogram I had to have an ultrasound scan whch I wasn’t expecting. I went to pieces then thinkng that they had seen something on the mammo.
i know it’s easier said than done but try not to worry to much as the statistics are low for the cancer to occur in both breasts. 5% I think someone said.
I’ll be praying for good results for you
chris xx
xxchrisx, thank you for the thoughts and prayers - much appreciated. I feel better just saying how I feel. It is all too easy to get so worked up you don’t know whether you are coming or going. Thank you for listening and for understanding. I felt I was going quite mad! Just have to wait until Tuesday and see where that takes me. Thanks again.
If you need some extra support or just someone to chat to about how you are feeling during this worring time please do give the BCC helpline a call on 0808 800 6000. Here you talk with someone who will offer you a listening ear during this difficult time of waiting for results. The lines are open Monday to Friday 9 to 5pm and Sunday 9 to 2pm.
I am so sorry you have this worry. I was there just a few weeks ago. I couldn’t deny that I could feel something in my untreated breast and had that feeling of cold panic. My mammogram did show up the problem and I had an ultrasound. The radiographers reassured me it was a thrombosis of the vein, which made it go hard and knobbly and there was nothing suspicious causing it. They spent a long time examining me and measuring it and looking at the mammogram image. So I felt confident that they were being thorough. The vein is starting to go now, but it is almost five weeks since it appeared.
I just wanted to share with you that things can show on mammograms that need checking out but are not cancer.I imagine if I had not found it I would have been recalled after my annual mammo for another check. I hope you find a way to get through to Tuesday and that the news is good.
I did well. I have lots of diffuse microcalcifications which they have baselined and will monitor - no clusters. I have a routine appt with my breast surgeon next week and will talk to her about it. Last year I had thought about a mx and when I was waiting over the weekend I thought about it again. I have time to think things through. Relief!
Thank you for your kind thoughts and good wishes - they meant alot.
I’m so glad it was good news dollymolly. I’m thinking of having mastectomy on my healthy side and will talk to surgeon about it in may. I know they have said that lump is fatty tissue but can’t help wondering if they got it wrong.
I just want peace of mind and I think having mx will help that.
I’m sure you will choose the right decision for you
Chris xx
DollyMolly so glad to read your fantastic news you must be so relieved. Xxx
Chris I have fatty necrosis in both breasts from surgery and a lot of my friends have these fatty lumps too so they are very common. Just get to know what the “new” normal is for you so if there are any changes you will notice them. Operated and irradiated breast tissue feels so different to normal tissue. So now that you know what you have is normal at the moment it gives you a new baseline.
But it’s very normal to worry about the ifs and buts but you would drive yourself slowly bonkers if you didn’t have a bit of faith in the system. Xxx
Hi lulu
Thanks for your words of wisdom, it does make sense but when I’m awake in the early hours thats when the thoughts come.
My grandma died from breast cancer and even though doctors say its not connected I can’t help but worry.
I’m sure in time I will worry less and I’m trying to tell myself ‘what will be will be’ and worrying won’t change anything.
Thanks again
Chris xx