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Hi ladies, and special hello to Pat, Nicky and gill (with a G) and welcome to Lucy. (I am new here too Lucy)

Pat,your lab looks fab, his coat is looking really glossy. I have 3 border collies. I compete in Agility comps, (thats over the jumps, through tunnels etc for those who aren’t sure) albeit not brilliantly!so guessing thats me out of action for all of the Summer shows.
There are 100’s of us who get together with our caravans for weekend shows and park up in isolated fields. It is a very social hobby with BBQs and wine, beer etc flowing freely evey night.

Notsure what type of chemo I am getting actually, i didn’t listen. My hubby is brill for listening to things like that, I just wanted to get out of there. I will let you know next week what its called.

Thats all for now ladies, time to get the vin out and prepare for Corrie (well, I am up North).

Take care

Love Jill xx

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Hi all
A big achievement today - I have stayed awake all day! Hopefully that means that I will sleep tonight.
Jill I have a border collie and a mutt. We used to do agility too but the border collie gets too hyper watching other dogs. She loves being taken around a course if there’s no other dog around! The mutt loved it too but the day we got his first running orders we found out he has hip dysplasia and were told to give up. We still go to watch local shows when we can. We still do obedience but even that is out at the moment. I’m really going to miss Crufts this year as I normally go 2 days, 1 to watch and 1 to shop. I was also due to start TTouch practitioner training next month but that has had to be delayed too.
My arm has been really sore post chemo this time. I’m having difficulty moving my wrist but I can extend my elbow now. It makes me wonder how it will be during CMF when it’s 2 doses a week apart. I have been told that it shouldn’t be as bad.
Lou I hope that you get that container moved.
Wishing everyone a good nights sleep.
Nicky x

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Go Lou! Need a hand? - I do a good Lady Macbeth-in waiting understudy! Am raring to go today, 'cos it is now very blatantly obvious. It is official. I AM CURSED. THERE ARE ALIENS WATCHING ME, WAITING TO TAKE ME TO OPERATE AND EXPERIMENT. I DEFINITELY WAS JACK THE RIPPER … AND MORE!

Went for 3rd chemo today, well … I say went … endeavoured I think is the word. All going well to start. Car only took ten minutes to start today. Getting near to Stratford (to park car before underground journey), when every police car, ambulance, fire engine and all their brothers were trying to get in my boot.

Don’t you just hate the noise of those sirens - when you know they’re coming, but can’t see them, then - suddenly - in a flash, they’re all around you and everybody’s moved out of the way except for you! So, I get’s to the station, just as the yellow and black ‘incident tape’ is strung across the western bound central line, i.e. mine. Yes, some bloody, inconsiderate, ignaramous had committed hari-kari two minutes before I was due to get on MY train, from MY platform, taking ME to MY chemo session. Hence overhead train to Liverpool Street and a brisk walk ensued.

Whilst there, I also intended to collect some travel expenses - what? Yeah, course office was shut. Plus, was due to collect NHS wig - “Will you just trust me with the colour?” said the lady over the 'phone after I’d told her I was a light, natural blonde - sigh - no, bigger sigh than that … I think iron grey filings with intermittent vomit would justify it. So - naturally - she’s on her hollies now 'til end of April.

And then just to top it off, I get to the chemo suite(?)- who gave it that name?, and the two mongs who were next to me last time making up the crossword answers at the top of their voices were 2 feet away - again.

Give me your address, Lou - NOW - you might want to warn that lady over the back to you, it’s only fair …

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Hi Jacq!!
I like you i expect am still REALLY angry today - bloody great thing still in theyre garden! OH phoned the letting agents yesterday, and they said they will investigate!! they have til next Monday… then watch this space!!!
Oh what a bloody awful day you had??? Everything just always happens at once doesn’t it? i’m with you on this Jacq! we can beat this flippin thing thats making our lives hell,we have to stick together, and let it all out!!!AARRGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
there… i feel a bit better now, except when is see that monstrosity in my window!!!
Managed to sleep last night… lttle blue pills are wonderous!
Anway catch up later, have a good day ladies,
Lou xxx

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Hi ladies, Oh Jacq, the next time I need something sorting out I’m gonna call on you! It’s sounds like you had the day from hell, I’m trying to think of something glib and amusing to say but I can’t, all I can say is what a bummer!!! More importantly how are you feeling today after chemo? Not too bad I hope. And Lou, go get 'em! I have spurts of being angry, and not always at the most appropriate time but if I were either Jacq of Lou in those situations I would have had to be restrained or sedated or both! Well, today’s another day and I do hope it’s better for you both, and for everyone else. I got a letter from the council about my electical repair (a week ago today everything fused upstairs in flat and have had no light in bathroom ever since). Letter says they will fix it next Monday - urghhhhhhh! So until then we have to pee etc in bloody darkness. When I finish this I’m gonna phone said council and tell 'em what I think - how would they like it? I know it’s not like we’ve no lights at all but it just makes me so mad, had a bath by candlelight the other day but I really can’t be bothered with it. And son and daughter arguing as well, am getting ultra stressed about upcoming Taxotere on Thursday, I think I’m gonna go and have a good scream!!! Nicky and Jill, I love border collies, our first dog Cassie was a labrador/border collie cross and she was just adorable. Jill, the social side of the dog shows/events sounds fun, and it also sounds like a great way to stay fit, too. Our labrador Millie is lovely, sweet-natured but sooooo naughty, all down to us as owners I know, but it’s the best feeling when you’re having a bad day to have her snuggle up on the sofa with me. I think I’ll go and cuddle Millie before I speak to anyone else!!! Have a good day, check in later on. love and hugs Pat x

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Hi Ladies! Just surfaced after sleepless night and cracking headache this am-don’t know if it’s the cold cap or the treatment.
Jacqui I thought my day didn’t go well yesterday but it pales into insignificance against yours!
Knew there was a prob before I set off as phone call fom ward said my neuts were at 0.7, down from 6.9 so they would have to do bloods again before they deciced if I could have treatment. Arrived aat hospital at 11.15am…left at 5.40pm! Neuts had risen over weekend so got treatment but it took 5 attempts and 2 hours to get the stuff in along with a punctured vein and leakage into tissue,swollen wrist,huge bruise and me very stressed!
Anyway, off to have a shower to see if that makes me feel better and will check in later,
Hope everyone else well today?
Hugz, Lyn xx

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Oh well, we’d best all put yesterday down to experience - as if we needed any more - sounds like we all should have stayed indoors yesterday - I bet that jumper at Stratford wished they had!

Anyway, went out to Frankie & Bennie’s with eldest and granddaughter lunchtime, and stuffed our faces 'til we couldn’t move - luverly! Thank God I don’t get this sickness thing after chemo, love my food (much too much lately). Can’t sleep more than 3 hours a night though with all these steroids - still buzzing now.

Just sent the Afghan hound wig on its merry way back to China. Seller got upset 'cos I had the audacity to leave negative feedback and said she should’ve gone to Specsavers, and could I remove it. Yeah right, told her to refund wig and postage and I will … not!
Hoo Flung Dung can go and whistle!

Yep Pat, am open to offers, am thinking of becoming a minder to get rid of all this rage - don’t let 'em hurt my back though (I’m a wimp where that’s involved!) Might be a profitable sideline while I’m off work.

I had to curb my tongue earlier, I actually felt sorry for somebody today - poor sod! District Nurse came with a student - young fellow of about 20. When he came in (every so humble and shy, really nice) he asked if he could wash his hands. “What for?” I said “you’re not touching me!” His poor face dropped down to his boots. “Come on then” I said - as I stripped to the waist “where d’you want me, standing or on the bed?” I’d never had that dressing changed so fast! “Perhaps I’ll see you again tomorrow” I said, couldn’t quite catch his reply!

Oh well, off to shout at the telly now with “Deal or No Deal” - bet you all do it! Hope you’ve all had a better day today. xx Jacq xx

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Morning ladies!
Well steroids seem to be doing the trick-like you Jacqui I am buzzing today! Only thing is my head doesn’t seem to be connected to my body-OH commented I wil be just like younger daughter then-she didn’t appreciate it!
Be nice to that young student if he dares to come back today Jacqui!
Like you I have not lost my appetite, which is not good news for my rear! Going to mean an awful lot of hard work to get rid of it after all this is over but in the meantime you need some enjoyment!
Everyone else awfully quiet the last few days-hope all feeling ok?
Will check in later…off to hang out washing while it’s dry.
hugz,
Lyn xx

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I know, where is everybody? Was thinking about hanging some washing out, 'cos it’s too hot to have radiatiors on - looks horrible with it all on there anyway. I bet Lou and her neighbour are fighting it out under all the skip rubbish under her window - lol.

Just realised I only took 2 instead of the 4 steroid tablets yesterday - whoops! Just have to take 2 on Thursday morning. Is it Wednesday today? I don’t know what the days are lately!

No nurse, no student, nobody’s arrived yet! Usually all done by 10.00 a.m - word’s obviously got out! Must zip that lip, I try so hard, just impossible. I just think people are too touchy! That’s my excuse - I don’t mean any harm - really! xx Jacq xx

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Hi All, Jacq, thank goodness it’s not just me! I had to ask my daughter twice last night if it was Wednesday today. I have to take two lots of steroids day before chemo and I just couldn’t work out what day it was. Methinks men in white suits will be waiting for me in big yellow taxi soon… Hope nurse or student or SOMEONE turned up for you. Yeh, maybe Lou has seen enough of that eyesore and gone to try and remove it herself! It’s a pity we’re all not local to each other coz I’d be up for that, beats loose women and diagnosis murder ANY day! Lyn I feel a bit like you today, 8 steroids and I do feel a bit ‘high’ and am getting loads done as I have lots of energy. Lets hope I can sleep tonight. I have mentioned before about starting 3 x Taxotere tomorrow, there’s a great thread on here called ,Anyone starting Taxotere soon’ and it’s great, there are people that have either just started or finished, and people that are more than 3 weeks post- chemo. It’s a really good thread and there are lots of women posting their experiences of Tax (which I’m nervous of) and they’re quite upbeat and positive. I’m sorry I can’t remember if there’s anyone else her going on to Tax - anyhow if there is, do check thread out. I feel a little more confirdent having checked it out myself. I’m armed with black nail polish, and black cherry, can’t make my mind up which colour to go for. Anyway, off to do a bit more housework and try and wear myself out! Hope everyone’s okay, and that the ones we haven’t heard from are out partying instead!!! I wish. love and hugs, Pat x

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Hi girls!
Pat am intrigued-why are you armed with black or black cherry nail polish??? Don’t know anything about Tax-I am on 6xFEC, so why is yours changing? I just seem to get the hang of all of this and then you hear of something else!
Hope Lou has got all her probs sorted-sounds like a nightmare! Just what you don’t need on top of everything else.
I have just been out for coffee all afternoon and been & bought myself a tabletennis bat for tonight so still flying high on the steroids-just wait for the come down tomorrow…!
Off to make a stirfry chicken and salad…token effort at eating healthy!
hugz,
Lyn xx

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Hi Lyn, stirfry sounds good! I assume that because my tumour was grade 3 which is quite fast-growing (although it was only 2.5cm when removed), and 10 of the 18 lymphnodes were affected, it’s a more agressive treatment, tailored to suit the cancer. Bone and ct scans were clear after op and all traces were gone from breast but it just makes it more likely I suppose that it might set up home elsewhere so chemo mops up. Tax can affect the fingernails, make them go a nasty colour and the nails can even fall off, but I’ve already got yellow nail syndrome and all nails are attached at base only so I guess there’s more chance of them falling off as they’re already loose. But everyone on Tax is advised to put dark nail polish on so it’s my opportunity to go all trendy and get black nails! There are cool mitts and foot thingys at the hosp that you can wear while having chemo to help prevent hand and nail probs - soles of feet and palms of hands can become red and sore so cooling them down works in a similar way to coolcap. I may try sucking ice too as a few women have suggested it might help cut down on the mouth and taste problems. I’ve stocked up on heat pads for aches and pains I might get and onc gave me strong painkillers which I’m hoping I don’t need to use. Good news about Tax though is that apparently it’s not so harsh on gastro-intestinal system so hopefully nausea should be a lot less which means I don’t have to take those ‘queen of constipation’ tablets again! Quite apprehensive but sure it’ll be okay. Will check in tomorrow and post if I can. In the meantime, enjoy the tabletennis! and hope everyone else is doing good. lots of love and hugs Pat x

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Hi all
Before I forget Pat I hope all goes well tomorrow with the Taxotere.
I went out for dinner with a friend last night and I could actually taste it! Coffee today is tasteless rather than disgusting so hopefully my taste buds are starting to resume normal service. It sounds like such a simple thing but at the moment I long to enjoy a hot drink.
We have a touring caravan and it was booked in for servicing on Monday. Despite feeling rotten I did manage to tow it there and we did mention that they were supposed to be replacing a sink under warranty at the same time. Unfortunately they hadn’t completed the work by the end of the day so we arranged to collect it yesterday. Turned up and went in to pay for the service only to be met by confusion. They’d replaced the sink but not done a service! Ended up having to leave it again and collect it today. They didn’t even give us a discount for the inconvenience. Never mind it makes the start of the season seem a bit nearer and I am certainly going to make good use of it this year.
I’m off to stay with friends tomorrow and apparently my godaughter has a full day planned for me. Her Mum’s a bit worried that it will be too much but at least she won’t be treating me with kid gloves like other people try(and fail)to.
Hope everyone gets a good nights sleep.
Nicky x

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Good luck tomorrow Pat and the ice might help. I used it on Monday and so far no horrible taste which I got almost immediately the first time. I’m hoping to avoid the ulcers this time too.
Caravanning sounds like fun Nicky and at least you can have a holiday and avoid all the insurance nonsense which was in the paper yesterday for people with cancer.
Just back from TT and had a good laugh as well as a bit of exercise-much needed!
Off to Inverness tomorrow to meet a friend for lunch, so hope I am still feeling ok??
Sleep well ladies.
Lyn xx

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Yep, good luck for tomorrow Pat, I start my 3 x tax in just under 3 weeks. I too am armed to the hilt with dark nail polish at the ready, next to the false eyelashes that should come in handy soon too.

Not heard about soles of feet getting involved though, will it stop me dancing? (you asking? … anybody?!) Excuse me, I’ll have you know I was famous for my raunchy lambada! I think I could do with a twirl tonight - gonna need something to stop me buzzing - fell asleep for 2 hours this afternoon, so that’s tonight’s sweet dreams over and out.

Anyway, Pat, you’ll be fine - take notes and tell us all about it.

LOU! Have you come up for air yet, or have you run out of black bags for the rubbish?

Hope everybody else has a good night’s sleep. xx Jacq xx

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Heeeellooooooooooooo you lovely girls!!!
yep,still here, planning my next move with the ‘hillbillies’ at the back of the house!!! Bloody idiot’s trying to hide said storage container under a camoflage net now??? Came home this aftey, and he’s dangled this army type net over the side?mmmmm,maybe he has inside info and it’s an air raid shelter? certainly not for storing all his crap in thats for sure which is still all over the garden!
Anyway, moan over! thats about as exciting as my life is - being a curtain twitcher! Not feeling too bad now, having the usual ‘not go to sleep and worry’ syndrome just before next nuking Friday, which makes me oh soooooooo grumpy in the day. Sunday night i woke up at 2.00am and was awake til OH alarm went off at 6.30!!! could have slept for England then.Took a little blue pill Monday night, knocked me right out - OH had to carry me upstairs - god bless him - no wonder he’s got a sore back now!!!
AND i have hair!! small little ‘fronds’ growing on the old head - be gone next week again but atleast i know it will grow again and quite quickly.
Goodluck for tomorrow Pat, be thinking of ya xxx
Jacq - you really brighten my day - i so wish you lived near, what fun we could have! I was hoping all this Rx would help with the weight thingy - no chance! I can’t stop eating ,and if that flippin nurse trys to weigh me again… she’ll be in that bloomin container!!!
Nicky, when are you going away in your caravan? we go camping and hoping maybe a long weekend at easter if poss,seeing as everything else is on hold, be lovely to be away for a few days.
well, thats me for tonite, got an exciting day tomorrow of cooking ect ready for weekend (yippee),hope everyones ok?? lots of love to u all,
Lou xxxxx

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Lyn, can i borrow the table tennis bat do you think??? could be handy when the letting agents tell the hillbillies who’s made a complaint!!! Enjoy your lunch date with your friend,
Love Lou xxx

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Lou, my bat’s bigger than her bat! I have a baseball bat by the door, can’t be doing with baby bats. They only get threatened with it if they try to escape!!! (Young student didn’t show his face again today, just nursie!) Still buzzing, gonna do some ironing now, well…thinking about it.

Night bless! xx Jacq xx

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Hi Jacq,
Did you do your ironing?? I considered the same at about 3am monday morning, but read my book instead!
Size isn’t everything (lol!!) but it may have an impact on this occasion!!! Do you play baseball?.. or only with escapees?
hope you are ok today?, much love to all the other girlies,off to change the beds,
Love Lou xx

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No, not a baseball player - only for unwanted intruders and - as you rightly guessed - escapees!

Yep, I ironed a whole 6 pillowcases, 'cos I changed my big bed yesterday. No wonder this back won’t heal up the way I was clambering over it trying to get it just right. Bed looked lush and then all the innards of my dressings fell out - oh yuk! So ended up with tons of kitchen towel stuffed up and under everywhere.

Think I mentioned that I’d had to give up work as I was self-employed, and had to go on benefits. Now have a letter demanding for me to go to a JobCentre Plus place on Tuesday, so they can help me to get back into work! Give me f**king strength. Spoke to a couple of morons who seemed to think I was speaking with forked tongue, and so decided I would just go. Can finally see a space for all that trapped rage to blast off to! Can’t wait!

Have a good day lovies, xx Jacq xx