Oh Lyn! we posted at the same time and i missed ya!
Thanks ever so much, she puts me under so much stress, i’m sure it’s the reason i haven’t been in touch, just can’t cope with her!
My step dad said to me on Wednesday - ‘you should have let us know you were ill’, - reply - well, iff you’d kept in touch you would have known - so there!
I’m just not sure she really ‘gets’ it,
Thanks again,
Much love
Lou x
Lou, and another thing, your energy is vital at the moment and you need to think carefully about what you use it on, funerals and non-attentive mother’s don’t sound like a good use of some thing so precious, I think it’s fine to give priority to ourselves and then to those who we love and who love us back!
Jaqu I’m next in the queue for clobbering DWP
Must dash to girls swim lesson but will tell all about my date with Trevor Sorbie asap!
have a good evening all, I’m going to settle down to perve over the rugby players later!
G x
Hello ladies,
Hope everyone having a nice weekend? Lovely day here which has lifted my spirits and thinking of heading out later for a long walk.
Lou, to hark back, I think there is an age thing as well going on as well as them not getting the whole C thing. I think the older generation (my parents are 70 and 79), who retired far too early and have far too much time to think about things. And they get bound up in trivia, where ok I admit I sometimes dwell too much on the situation but do try and lead as normal a life as possible, and they don’t seem to get that I really don’t want to speak about every little twinge or appointment or whatever-I would rather speak about other things that are going on to do with anything BUT me! Does that sound stupid??
On another note-picture this for all you ladies with younger children-this is what’s ahead when you have teenagers…1.30am…19 year old comes in very quietly I have to say, but 15 mins later I realised she hadn’t come to bed…through to investigate and here she is head down beside the cat who is quite oblivious, sound asleep!!! Managed to steer her to bed…and she still managed to get up for work this morning quite cheerful! gggrrhhh!
On that note,
enjoy the weekend,
hugz,
Lyn xx
Hey Lyn, deep joy eh I have all this to come, my eldest, Jake is heading towards all this too quickly, 14 in April and mainly grunts or groans as means of communication!
I’m feeling much more positive about my wig after having it restyled by Trevor Sorbie in his Brighton saloon on Friday, he was really nice, very relaxed and approachable and very understanding. He didn’t charge for the cut which made it even more enjoyable! He made an ‘off the peg’ wig personal and it looks much more like me. Check out his web site - mynewhair.org.uk to see if there is a saloon near you offering the same service I can highly recommend it!
enjoy your day
Gill x
Morning!
I hope you all had a nice weekend? I managed a good walk yesterday morning. I headed out at 8.30am, felt like i was the only one on the planet,not a soul around! - LOVELY! total thinking time.
It did catch up with me later on in the day though.I got off to sleep well until my mobile went off at around midnight - my friend had sent me a text message at 7.15 but it didn’t land until then! arrgghhhhhhhhhhhh!
I hope everyone is feeling ok today, and enjoying the beautiful sunshine? I expect there’ll be another ‘Mother’ installment later - watch this space! Me thinks our new found chats will be a thing of the past by the end of the week!
Gill, your appt with Trevor Sorbie sounded lovely,i’m gonna see if we have anything like that near me.I’m still wearing hats which is ok while it’s chilly, but i still don’t know what i’ll do when it gets warmer!
Ahh bless your daughter Lyn! those were the days! I can’t imagine even attempting late nights and early mornings anymore! (how old do i feel!!)
Well, better get Thomas to school, he doesn’t seem very keen somehow!
Catch u all later,Hi jacq and Pat - you both ok?
Lots a love
Lou xx
Hi ladies, how’s everyone doing? Lou, just do whatever’s right for you, everything else can take care of itself. Well, fed up to the back teeth with the snotty nose/headache/earache so braved the gp’s surgery this am (couldn’t believe it, I phoned at 8.30 to make an appt and they gave me 9am)it was standing room only over there. Lots of kiddies and adults alike sneezing, coughing and spluttering. Luckily went in almost immediately and dr thinks I have sinus infection so got antibiotics. I don’t know if it’s usual with the tax, will see what onc says next week. Yes, next week! I can’t believe how quick time’s going. After next Thurs I’ll have 1 to go, hopefully. Looking forward to my massage beforehand, if anyone gets offered any complementary therapies at their chemo unit/onc outpatients, see what they’re offering. I’m normally quite jittery by the time I get to unit so hoping massage will help. Lyn, so true about teenagers, When my son hit 14-15 he spoke in one sylabull (that’s soooo wrong!!) words and communicated by grunting. As for the energy levels, my daughter used to party throughout the week, be dancing in Soho til gone 2am and get up for work at 6 looking fresh as a daisy, go to work, then come home and do it all over again! Ah, to be young again… Of course, while this was going on me and OH were having kittens worrying that something might happen to her! Even now, if my son goes out, I can’t relax and sleep til I hear the key in the dor - and he’s 27!!! Joys of parenthood, eh. Gill, Trevor Sorbie sounds great, I bet you felt really pampered. Lou, I’‘m with you, I’ve now started to think about the warmer weather, maybe I should just by a really short blonde wig, for fun! The two bobs I’ve got are far too dark, so must look for a cheapy alternative. Jacq my friend, how u doin’? Hi to everyone else, hope all is going well. Off to dig in to antibiotics, bet you’re all jealous! Oh, and movicol, the damn tax makes you constipated! Again! Not fair! Take care all, love and big hugs from a bunged up - both ends!!!, Pat x
Hello ladies!
Poor you Pat-still having probs with const! I did too despite meds from hospital so they are going to have to try something else this time…explosives??? Mind you the night OH brought home a bag of chips did the trick…not very healthy but effective!Hope the anti-bs work!
Lou just listen to your body-if you feel like a walk, enjoy it and if not just chill and put your feet up. I think we beat ourselves up trying to keep going when really you don’t get any brownie points for being a martyr!
I went for a walk Saturday and enjoyed it as I was feeling good-yesterday set off and within 10 mins knew I was struggling so gave up and went home! Had a brilliant sleep last night and felt better again today…seems to be up one day and down the next-wierd!
Gill the TS treat sounded good-my hair still hanging on so wig still in box!
Anyway off to have second nights bolognaise and a homemade apple and blackberry crumble…is it any wonder I am putting on weight?? 
Take care all,
Lyn xx
Harro ladies! What’s wrong with you lot walking everywhere? That’s why cars were invented, stop us wearing our legs out. Just ate the last Marathon in the fridge and am not, never, nohow buying any more choccies. (Tonight anyway!)
So glad my two girls are older (and gone from here) now. I remember only too well those sleepless nights, youngest used to come in at around 6 a.m., about an hour before I had to get up. I remember when puberty hit that one, she went from Mother Theresa to Madonna overnight - really! And it’s not just boys that speak in Neanderthal syllables.
It was so funny today, spent the best part of it sending - and receiving - abusive e-mails to Who Flung Dung in China. Remember that Afghan hound wig I got from them? Anyway she kept wanting me to remove the shit feedback I’d put against her shop on eBay, and I said I would when she’d refunded the money and the return postage to me (yeah, course I will - not!).
Anyway, to cut a long story short - if I can get my daughter to show me how to cut and paste it all - if poss - I will, she kept trying to insult me in pigeon English. It was hirarious! She kept saying that ‘it just shewed what sort natsy people I were for no shiffing me foodback site from’ In the end my daughter and I were crying, we could just imagine her jumping up and down screaming. This went on for about 2 hours, until she must have burst a few blood vessels. Made my bloody day! (And the refund came through!)
Went to see Il Divo at O2 on Saturday, thought it wasn’t my cup of tea but they were very good. They obviously all have wonderful voices, but that little oily one with the curl - the Spaniard - is really brilliant (and he knows it).
Then went to the Baby Show at Excel on Sunday with my 2 and granddaughter - what a rip-off. And finished the weekend off with the obligatory bust-up with youngest - we’re tooooo much alike, lucky cow!
Pat, pie’n’mash and stewed eels moved things for me the last time. Much nicer than blooming dried apricots too!
Anyway, we all seem to be surviving nicely for now, love to all you lovelies. xx Jacq xx
Hi all, Jacq glad you had a good weekend, has to be finished off by an argument doesn’t it! You cracked me up with the ‘who flung dung’ saga - I was condidering buying from a u s site but I don’t think it would be as much fun! Il Divo are great aren’t they? My husband a real opera fan and I like some of it - have you seen Philadelphia (Tom Hanks), they have that piece where he’s playing something by Maria Callas, gets me every time. Movicol has got things moving but thanks for the tip about pie and mash, which I love but not the stewed eels, more my OH’s cuppa tea. Lyn, glad chips worked for you, let me know what new med is - explosives sound like just what the dr ordered! Hope everyone else doing ok, off to make some bread pudding, daughter having wisdom tooth out so hope she’s okay later. love and hugs, Pat x
OOOH painful Pat-I hope she gets on ok? I’ve just finished a huge plate of stovies-lovely, but feel absolutely stuffed now-speak about comfort food just now-all stuff my mum used to make! Are stovies a Scottish dish??
Jacqui-so glad you are back-I absolutely cracked up at your who flung dung saga!! I have managed to go a whole week now without falling out wih my youngest AND she is doing the ironing just now-must be wanting something-money probably!
Am off out for a wee while to catch up with some gossip with my pals-catch you later!
Hugz,
Lyn xx
ps Phoned doc today to say my lung thing didn’t seem any better, for her to apologise and say I should have had 10 anti-b tablets and she had only prescribed 5…duh! not much hope is there?
Hi all
Hope everyone is ok and that all of the antibiotics are working.
I’ve been away with a group of crafting friends this weekend. We hire a log cabin and take a load of card making stuff and basically have a good laugh. We never achieve a lot - i made 11 cards in 4 days - but we have good fun. We do seem to have had a knicker thief in the cabin this time. My sister took a new pack of knickers and took one pair out to wear on saturday. By Sunday morning the rest of the pack had disappeared off the face of the earth. We turned the cabin upside down and they were nowhere to be found. Aftre that any thing we’d misplaced had been nicked by the knicker nicker. We all had a good laugh when I was aked if I had any spare shampoo with me! Everyone is obviously so used to my bald head that they don’t notice it!
I’m so glad now that I made the effort to get everything for this week prepared before I went as I’m absolutely shattered now. Last epirubicin tomorrow. After that it’s 4 cycles of cmf. Hopefully I shouldn’t feel so bad on that and my hair should start to come back.
Well I think I’ll get an early night. Probably the last good nights sleep for a week.
Night all. Nicky x
Hi ladies, Lyn, I’m ignorant but what are stovies? Something nice I’m guessing. Daft doc for giving you half the dose, just what you needed. Nicky, lots of luck for tomorrow, your weekend sounds great, even with the knickersnatcher! Well, have a good night and will catch up with all tomorrow. love and hugs, Pat x
Hi all,
Good luck tomorrow Nicky-sounds like you had a good weekend though!
I had been thinking of trying cardmaking to try and fill in the hours, but would need a “step by step”, to get me started! Have decided to knit myself a very pretty cardi in a lovely shade of coral instead-quite ambitious as I haven’t actually followed a pattern for years-scarves are easier as you just knit!
Pat stovies are the ultimate in comfort food-made from leftover roast, along with an onion and potatoes, the juice from the roast and some stock-all cooked down slowly till it all goes smushy then served with oatcakes and beetroot! Yum!! It comes from the term stoved potatoes and is served a lot up here.
My 3rd FEC is on Monday and am starting to get anxious about it especially after the veins trauma of last time. Need to speak to my onc nurse as I don’t want to go through that again! My arm is still sore from leak into tissues!
Anyway away to get tea ready and off out for a game of tabletennis tonight-OH coming so looking forward to thrashing him!!!
Take care all,
Lyn xx
Hi all, hope all’s well Nicky. Daughter had wisdom tooth out and all seems well, apart from her vertigo has gone haywire, like it did last time. She really goes thru it but she’ll get there in the end, I’m sure. Well, I know for def I’ve lost the plot. Said earlier in the week was gonna make a bread pud with some (loads)leftover bread. Easy enough? Goes out yesterday and buys nice fresh cut loaf for sandwiches etc. In the afternoon proceed to make a gourgeous - even tho I do say it myself? - bread pudding, enjoyed by all. Last night go to make OH a nice chicken sandwich for lunch and guess what? All I had was stale bread, I’d used new loaf for bread pud! How stupid is that?! As soon as I went to look for the new loaf I knew what I’d done. I remember thinking, when cutting the crusts off the bread - this has kept well!!! Don’t think I should go out alone today… How’s everyone else doing? Lou, you okay? And Nicky and Jacq? Et al? Has anyone noticed skin changes on chemo? My skin has become very dry lately, particularly on my face. Even slapping on loads of moisturiser doesn’t seem to help. And I now have a big spot on back of my head, looks sooooo charming but a couple have appeared on my face this morning so it balances it out a bit! Lyn the stovies sound great, my taste is coming back now so I’m making the most of it but still can’t drink tea, it tastes so bitter. Well, off to do some sorting out, not sure what of but nothing too demanding, methinks brain needs a rest! love and big hugs to all, Pat x
Hi Pat and all,
Lol at the bread story Pat! I keep doing stupid things too though OH says that’s nothing new…I was quite hurt!! I beat him at TT though, so now he is looking for revenge.
Was heading out for a walk but it has started snowing so don’t think I will bother-didn’t need too much discouragement.
Didn’t sleep well last night as kept reliving last teatment with all the nonsense with my veins and now having a huge crisis in confidence and wondering if I can go through with it. Ironic thing is I have had minimal SE, which is what I was really worried about and now it is the process itself that I am dreading!
Phoned and left a message with onc nurse to discuss it with him but hasn’t got back to me so far. Panic attacks setting in again…
Anyway sorry to be a moan-hope all you ladies are well?
Love and hugz,
Lyn xx
Hi everyone
Miracle of miracles - the needle went in first time yesterday, for the first time. They had to use my operated side as my arm was still so sore from last time but they said that as it was an aseptic technique and I don’t have lympoedema it was ok. No pain at all this time as the drugs went in which was a relief after last time. Lyn, I was in panic mode too but this was the easiest I’ve ever had it. Unfortunately nausea is the worst it’s ever been. Sat cuddling a bowl last night but thankfully didn’t need it. Can’t face eating today even with the sterids. Guess the next thing will be constipation.
Pat you’re not the only one doing daft things - mine are too numerous to say. I really think my hair should grow back blonde even if it doesn’t suit me. When i went for my wig fitting I tried a blonde one on and it looked so dreadful I couldn’t wait to get it off.
I haven’t poked my nose out the door today so not really sure what the weather has been doing here but I do khow we have avoided the snow.
Glad you beat your husband at TT lyn. Imagine how much better you’d have been if you were 100% fit.
Hope everyone has a good evening.
Nicky x
Nicky, pleeeeaaaase, less of the blonde bashing my friend! Quite intelligent (once upon a time anyway!).
Bet that pudding tasted lovely. Pat - I’ve never made one, but my nan used to cook smashing bread puds.
Seems like only yesterday, but can remember eating it when I was about 8, sitting in our old scullery (remember those?!). And the scullery was the same place the old tin bath used to come in to off the hook from the back yard once a week (where the remnants of the family air-raid shelter was also). And we used to get our hair washed with those little bent sachets of orangey yellow shampoo called Drene. Oh the nostalgia, blimey, I can remember it too well - feel so old!
Anyway, back to the present day - unfortunately! I too was wondering if it was ok to use the other (operated) side arm - 'cos veins are still up from last time, and 4th chemo (1st of Tax!) is due on Monday, so will ask tomorrow after probably sitting for the best part of morning as per usual in the dreaded Friday clinic.
Incidentally, I dunno why my guts are so different from you lot, I can just about make it up the stairs in time the last few days! In fact I can feel a stirring now … love to all! xx Jacq xx
Hi All,
Sorry not posted for a couple of days, had a touch of the miseries so been keeping myself to myself!
Had to go into the local bank, where I saw a cashier who i haven’t seen for a while.she started asking some questions, (i look and feel so crappy, i’m thinking the cancer look!). She then said oh no, you haven’t got it agian,blah,blah,blah.THEN… she says, mind you, have put on a lot of weight with it this time!!!AAARRGGGGGGGG!
thanks for that - I know! but in the grand scheme of things i’m not really bothered at the moment! talk about slap someone when theyre down.
Nicky,glad the hospital appt wasnt too bad for you, but poor you for feeling so sick - that is awful.
Pat, hope your daughters mouth has settled down a bit - i am a dental nurse, and from past experience those little devils can cause some problems - she’ll feel better now it’s gone xx LOL! with the bread story… that is so me at the moment!!!
Hi Jacq, how are you oing this week? yep, no constipation here either.I haven’t moved this quick in ages! lol!!! No eagles landing as much as a flock of seagulls!
Hi Lyn, no sleep, aargghhhhhhhh! its awful isn’t it? have you any little blue pills to help you? the onc gave me some and they really work - i took one the other night and poor OH had to nearly carry me upstairs - no mean feat at all when your as lardy as me!
Right, spose i’d better get organised to get Thomas to school, then time for a cuppa - will enjoy while i can, FEC no.4 next Friday(YUCK)
Sending loads of love to you girlies, have a good day,
catch u all later,
Lou xx
Hi all, glad to hear from you Lou, sorry you’ve had the miseries. It’s incredible how insensitive people can be at times, and when you’re feeling a bit low anyway it’s the last thing you need. Whenever I visit my office, everyone always tells me how well I look, etc. It’s always the Monday before my next chemo and by that stage I’m feeling pretty normal too so it’s nice. I remember when I first had my hair cut into a short bob at the start of chemo, all my friends and colleagues said how good it looked, it took years off me etc etc. When I visited my previous office at tommies I was told the same thing and I said that I thought people were just being kind. Well, did I get told off! I guess it does depend on your mood at the time, but my philosophy has always been, in situations like that, if you haven’t got anything positive to say - keep it zipped! No woman wants to be told she looks fat, rough, old, ill etc regardless of their situation. Sorry about that, went off on one a bit but if people were just to think ‘how would I like to be treated’, would that bank cashier be happy that someone told her she’d put on weight? I doubt it. Okay, I’m done. Jacq, I’m with you on the blonde front, I’ve ordered a mid-blond wig as I really need to find something for when I start visiting the office on a more permanent basis, don’t want to frighten the patients! Lots of luck for Monday, you’ll be fine on the tax. I’ve found it very different to FEC, mainly the absence of any nausea which is great. Aches and pains aren’t too bad but I’m guessing it’s cummulative so will wait to see what next weeks one is like. Eyes a bit sore, bottom lashes have almost all gone now. Didn’t really have too much of the ‘foggy head’ feeling - although when you look at what I did with bread pud, I guess it’s still there! Feel better re: sinus prob although still blowing nose for England! Feel more relaxed now and had a lovely bath last night - picture this if you will, soaking in the bath, completely chilled and then Tina Turner comes on the radio with ‘Simply the Best’, I immediately jump out of the bath and start stomping around the (tiny) bathroom, singing at the top of my voice. Boy, did it feel good, sadly men in white coats are en route to ‘take me somewhere nice and safe’!!!I sometimes wonder what I’ll be like when this is over, will I be the same person or a raving, mental lunatic like I am now? Well, fingers are now bleeding from typing so much nonsense so I’ll leave you all alone to enjoy your day. Nicky hope all is well, and that everyone else is doing good. love and big hugs (well, as much of a hug as I can give with my lovely new straitjacket on!) Pat x
LOL Pat and all! It’s amazing that even when we are feeling s**t you can still keep a sense of humour!
Lou, I do have wee pills the doc gave me to sleep but feel so spaced out the next day it has to be a last resort.Spoke to onc nurse and he was bril and said I gave to go straight in to see him on Monday and he will do canula, so I am a wee bit happier.
Other bit of good news today was that my GP has agreed to a part-time return to work-not teaching but other duties so I am SOOOO chuffed partly because I am going stir crazy at home but also because of the financial implications. OH is self employed and in the present climate business is almost non existent until the summer so I am the main earner, and to be signed off all through the summer was going to be really difficult. Shouldn’t be an issue when it is your health but in reality…
So I am away to celebrate with a small vino…or two!!
Take care ladies and have a good weekend!
LOL, Lyn xx