Hi lasses,
SO - all should be well in the world -
the sun is shining despite new awnings and my new solar panels (!!), courgettes are growing, I have bits and bobs of paid work, I have a holiday planned in September …
AND YET I feel very very grumpy - not sure if its cos my brain still not working properly and I am fed up to the back teeth of it, or because whenever I look in my diary I see my upcoming 6 monthly check up appointment, or cos everyone says how well I look and I say yes but really want to say but I went through hell and there are no future guarantees …
OR WHAT
I am not usually grumpy at all / ever…
still a bit of post trauma maybe, …
I reckon all dykes have those GOD moments (the acronym makes me smile anyway) and cancered ones get an extra allowance. I claim my right to be a GOD even before i finish rads.
But seriously … Maybe it’s that mismatch between what people generally think (ie it’s all done and dusted now you should be pleased you are cured) and the reality of that gremlin sitting on your shoulder and the reminder of the checkups. Don’t beat yourself up about being grumpy - it’s definitely allowed. If you try to explain it to people i suspect they have you down as a moaner so i don’t know what the answer is.
The sex thing is a drag isn’t it - i’m frit that this is it now, the drastic reduction is here to stay. Are you on hormones now?
I hope you enjoy seeing your niece and that your holiday next month is a blast. GODs of the universe unite!
Dear GOD…hee hee, thanks Dawn, you know what, perhaps to a degree it is the hormones (Tamox) cos is so really isn’t me at all - hilarious grumpiness last night tho - went to a local bistro place to eat with some colleagues who were staying over - music in the bistro was totally dreadful - so I said the the waitress - if you are going to play the music this loud can you at least not play such terrible music - poor young lass looked mortified! Made us all laugh tho and I did apologise to her later,
hope you doing OK
best Nicola
hiya, apologies, not a GOD. but my bezzie is and she hasnt got bc!! had my 6 month follow up 2 day too. felt a bit lost so off we go 2 cinema with my no 2 son to watch horrid henry the movie. childish humour is fab and my lilun nearly peed his pants. bezzie fed my kid lots of crap and both now flat out in garden!!?? what! jealous of the courgettes n, mine are embarrassing! love alex xxx
dear all - ta for your sensible and hilarious thoughts - just spent a day with 4 good friends and think it was the damn tamox that had got the better of me…but as you say Julie -the appts don’t help. Still have to dream up a receipe for two adults and 6 courgettes for tonight tho!!! good weekends all of you, N
Norberte, dearest lovely GOD - what did your hateful surgeon do to you??? Please feel lots of cyber support from the north and well done for ranting.
Ta v much for your hilarious story of pub life, and instructions re arms crossed etc - you are so right, I just didn’t do the full monty grumpiness and was thus frustrated, will from now on do it properly and get it out of system sooner…
had good chat about it all to the wife too
Norb - i will volunteer to crouch (slowly,as my knees have got awfully painful since chemo) so that you can clamber up and kick di**head where it hurts. Alternatively we could get a sturdy stepladder. If more is needed give me a nod and I’ll round up a whole heap of dykes who can hurt.
i am having a minor GOD moment. I was not ‘mistaken’ when i turned up for rads at 11.10,. my appointment printout says 11.20 not 13.00 as you kept insisting. Pah!How come these brief zaps are wiping out whole days??? I’m not doing anything except rads and much needed sleep afterwards.
Hi everyone, could not resist this thread, after spending all day at hosp with my partner. We returned home angry and humiliated at the manner in which we were spoken to. It feels like some of these medics have the listening skills of a gnat and the gate keeping skills of a jailer. My partner is having great difficulties with meds side effects and it took us all day for them to eventually agree and offer support. By which time, in my frustration, sitting in the waiting room, I was planning my own little riot in the hospital and thought for the next appointment I’ll wear a hoodie and a mask-lol- see how they deal with that…
Helen
hi helen - it sounds like you have every right to be grumpy (obviously dont know 'bout the old or dyke bits but feel free to go for the whole GOD scenario if it suits). Some gnats definitely need to get off their pedestals and increase their listening skills. I’ve still got the posse waiting in the wings if that would help.
Today i am going for my 13.00 appointment and i’m taking my appointment printout with me so beware anyone who says I’ve got it wrong.
S2S - do hope your got abject apology from yesterday’s nonsense when they saw your appoinment print out…no wonder is it that my main client is the NHS (after the BIG society of course!!ha ha) . Seriously irritated today as the govt…deleted
yet another GOD moment…
not sure Mr Cameron has ever met a GOD …perhaps I should see if I can be his first??? But you’d all have to come with me!!
best N
I wasn’t even hoping for an apology for yesterday; i just wanted to have proof of today’s time. Quite apart from anything else, different staff were on duty so they would have just thought it was a GOD shrieking hysterically. (btw I didn’t even raise my voice)
I’m afraid the hang, draw and quarter 'em brigade are having a field day with the recent riots - no room for historical comparison illustrating what conditions are necessary for rioting in the UK.