Not a good day for me today, im due to have CT scan on Sunday before I see my oncologist and I am getting myself in to a right state that they will find something on my CT scan. I know I am thinking too much about it and convincing myself that I have secondaries!!! Feel soo tired and keep crying!!! I have an 18 month old girl and im soo scared! I lost both my Mum and Dad to brain tumours when I was very young and I just keep thinking the worst all the time!!
Waiting for scans and the results is the pits. Someone on these forums gave that special anxiety we feel when waiting for results of scans as scanxiety! Just to let you know we know how you are feeling. Big hug.
Cat
Right now, this very second, you are ok. Right now, in this present moment you have a beautiful baby and you don’t have secondary cancer. Tell the voices in your head that worry about the future to go away. The only thing that is real is this very present moment.
Then go for a walk and don’t read secondary stories on any forums.
Sending large hug/cuppa/whatever might work. The ‘waiting room’ is a heck of a scary place to be (still in it). Finding something that stops the runaway thoughts really helps me so I hope you can find something that really takes your mind off things…
I was were you are in Nov when I had my ct scan for rads planning. My first scan- non at dx, it is awful, kept wondering if they were goi g to find a big chunk of cancer. It was my birthday too and I though fate was going to get me. I hope you can have a release and express your fears and then put them away. I find if if I have a worry time everyday where I get it all out, I do t dwell on it the rest of the time. Scans are always tricky. Hope you are getting some lovely cuddles with your daughter.
Hugs to you Donna, I too am awaiting my CT scan and know i will feel better once its done and will reassure me if they do find something it can be zapped and if not im happy cos that real incentive. the waiting room really is the worst bit, wish we could make it better but im sending you lots of good positive thought waves and believe in positive thinking, lots of love Shar xxxxx
Hi All, Thank you for your kind words and support, some days I’m fine then others I’m just a wreck and your right the waiting is just the worst! Took my baby girl for a nice walk even tho it is blowing a gale out there today, but did help to clear my head abit!!
I hope you are all doing okay?
Shar- sounds like we are at the same stage of the waiting, hopefully we will be heading toasted the treatment asap
Love and best wishes to you all
Donna xx