I wasn’t sure where to put this, as it didn’t seem to fit any of the categories.
I’m not newly diagnosed, or going through treatment yet (starts soon), nor living with breast cancer.
According to my surgeon I’m cancer free.
I’m not scared at the moment, although I’m not looking forward to going through chemo.
I was diagnosed on the 29 November, went through all the terrifying, heart stopping, waiting for results, had a mx and SNB on 13 December and got the all clear on 22 December.
I’m numb, I think I’m in shock, it’s like it has happened to someone else. I have no interest in anything. I’m in limbo.
I’m not even sure why I’m posting this - but who else would understand?
Hi. Yes that’s me too. I’m feeling really good and beginning to put this behind me - though almost a bit too scared to think in that way, beginning to feel a bit surreal.
im off to the gym now so will catch you later. This is a good thread to start!
Hi im confused if you have been given the all clear and your cancer free why are you having chemo later? We can all relate to the worry and shock at the beginning but it sounds like you’ve had amazing news. Try and put this behind you and live your life to the full because believe me you didnt want the other answer. Sending you a hug because you seem like you need one. Sue xxx
By having all these scans, you will know for certain that at the moment everything is cancer free. When my consultant told me that he wasn’t going to do my mx if the CT scan found it had spread I was gutted. But, I understand that he didn’t want to put me through a major operation unnecessarily- it stilled scared the **bleep** out of me waiting for the results of the scan.
Maybe, that’s why I feel empty, every week I was waiting for the next set of results, it seemed to go on and on and now all that adrenaline has stopped. I’ve never been so scared in my life before.
hi silver & patricia,
Its quite normal to feel like this, sometimes being ‘cancer free’ & later completing treatment has an odd anti-climax & ‘what now’ feeling, but it does get better in time.
Also, you’re both still in the middle of it & the mind needs to adjust, it just takes time, thats all.
There is quite a lot if discussion on this in the ‘recovering from treatment’ thread.
hugs
ann x
Hi silverlady, patriciamay. I was diognosed with bc and secondary bone cancer straight off so i missed all the normal pathways at the beginning. It took me a long time to get my head round the fact i had terminal cancer and all they gave me was a little pill (letrozole). I felt relieved that they had foubd something as i couldnt keep any food down lost 3st in two months. I felt great. Couldnt come to terms with terminal cancer and me. Si i do know a little of that feeling that you have. It was only when i started another treatment that it all kicked off. Anyway enougj of me. So glad for you ladies. Get out there and live your life to the full. Sending you love and prayers for future good health and happines sue xxxxx
Maldives, how are you doing? You seem so caring, no self pity, regardless of the “terminal” diagnosis. Btw I hate that word…people live for years after that.
I am waiting to see the Consultant, to get the results of my first ever mammogram (I am 72 years old) . reason…, I had a bloody discharge and the Gp referred me immediately to the Breast Clinic. I don’t know what awaits me, but I feel ok…what wil be, will be. I am very anxious but am keeping busy