Hello everyone,
My mum was diagnosed with HER2 breast cancer in December 2011, she had chemo and a double mastectomy in june 2012. My step dad has been amazing throughout treatment and ever since.
We found out mid March that the cancer has spread, even though the full body scan revelaed the cancer had not spread through the lymph nodes however she now has secondary cancer in her liver and lung; she suspects her liver has been hit very agressivly, as we all know secondary cancer is uncurable.
I three short weeks she has gone from being a very fit and active 55 year old to basically being bed bound.
Suprisingly, me being a very sensitive soul and completely breaking down during her first battle with breast cancer I have accepted the fact she will die and have reacted unlike myself, unless i am living in denial; my brothers are not reacting the same.
On Sunday we spent, which we are hopeful it is not, our last Mothers Day, I feel so much for my three brothers as well as my children, we have so many good memories that we will cherish yet I am feeling very overwhelmed.
Basically, I want to cry, I feel, actually I dont know how I should feel, I thought it would hit me after I saw her, yes I feel sad yet I feel that if I cry i’m feeling sorry for myself, there is nothing that I can do and I know.
Thank you fr reading this,
P A 