i cant get my head around it

Hi all, i’m really down at the moment, i haven’t had the official results yet as i was verbally diagnosed on christmas eve after an ultra sound and core biopsy, had an breast MRI last weds and go to go back to the clinic on 13th jan for results, every morning i wake up, the c monster invades my head and i cant even grieve for my mum properly, i still think i’m going to die from it, i was told that i have 2 small lumps and that they are fairly certain its cancer i was told that i am not going to die and that its is very treatable, i was wondering if they only said that because  i was in shock and to reassure me, my question is would they have said this to me if they were unsure, i feel like they have given me false hope, has anyone ever had a verbal diagnosis without seeing the official results that turned out not to be cancerous? all this is so stressful and scary, i know i’m not the only one that is going through this nightmare but i feel so alone as i dont know anyone who has gone through this on a personal level, so finding it hard to cope …im so sorry for such a negative post  …i hope that everyone is doing well xx

Hiyer Eeyore,

I’m guessing that you have already been back for your 13th Jan appointment ? How did it go ?