i am new to this and finding it difficult to believe I am even here. I am 32 years old with no family history of BC. About 7 weeks ago I noticed a small lump in my left breast. When it had not gone after a couple of weeks I went to my GP who said it was probably a cyst and to monitor it and come back in three weeks. That was last Monday and she referred me to the breast clinic. I had a core biopsy on friday. My thoughts are swinging wildly between the belief there can’t be anything seriousely wrong as I feel fine and complete panic that I have cancer. I get the resul Wednesday and the waiting is driving me mad. Every hour seems like a day and the longer it goes on for the more horible scenarios my mind comes up with. I know I’m not the only one who feels this way so I thought I would share my thoughts.
Hi Pooch, your reactions are totally normal and natural. Waiting is just the pits. Hopefully it will come back as benign but if it doesn’t you will know better what you are facing and how it will be treated.
Try to divert yourself as mcuh as you can - sounds crass I know, but many of us have been there and know the feeling.
Try to be kind to yourself, if there is someone you can confide in, then do as you may want someone with you when you get your results. If it is cancer - and it is still not certain that it is - everything will move quickly to give you the best possible treatment.
Avoid Google as some information out there is out of date or worse and you will only worry yourself unnecessarily
Hi Pooch, waiting really is the most surreal time. I can really relate as I’m sure alot of the ladies on this site will. I found myself living in the land of denial while I was waiting for my results from the first biopsy, telling everyone “I’m fine”, but not telling them about my little outbursts of “aaaaaaaarrrggghhh, I’m scared”. I fortunately found this site, which has been a real relief to find some of the most supportive people you could wish for. Good luck and I have my fingers crossed for you, Simone xxx
Pooch, ur certainly not the only one who’s felt this way, believe me the waiting is definatley the worst part. It’s an awful time & ur mind goes into overdrive & u imagine all sorts. Remember that a lot of breast lumps are benign but even if it is the news u dread, the treatments now are brilliant. And u do get ur head around it,
Don’t google as much of it is out of date but post on here if u need to, also u might like to ring the helpline on here tomorrow, they’re really good.
Weds will be here before u know it, make sure u take someone with u as another pair of ears is always good & good luck, let us know how u get on xx
hi, I thinking back, i think it was the minute they said they needed a core biopsy that suddenly I went into a time warp. Up until then I had been in a comfortable, slightly worried that everyone else was taking this lump seriously mode, but hearing the radiologist say to the student, look at this you wont see many of these and approaching me with the biopsy gun suddenly put me on a different dimension.
you wil have read it all on here. 9 out of 10 lumps are not cancer. 50% of biopsies are clear, but it still wonder what will happen if i am one of the unlucky ones. I was a discrace. Before I even went to the Gp I had researched wigs and cold caps and cried over posts from daughters who’s mothers were dying from BC.
But even if you are one of the unlucky ones, its not black and white. there are some very tollerable shades of grey. i found my lump in may, had the op and radiotherapy and today suddenly felt normal again. A few twinges from where I was cooked, but full of energy and smiling and diving into my diary trying to organise the rest of the year. the op and radiation intruded into my normal routine but there was no real pain and the rads thing was no worse than when i was young and got too sunburned-- plus a bit of nerve pain that soon went. So its not all doom and gloom, there are lots of outcomes and lots of treatments.
Be kind to yourself, dont try and force your mind to go where it does not want to, let it worry and fantasise, I am sure that is healthier than keeping it all in and being “posative”
I hope you have people to support you, but they still will not understand as much as people on here.
Thanks fo all you comments and advice everyone. I’m at work at the moment and was hoping that time would pass a bit quicker but the minutes still seem to be passing so slowly. Oh well by 5pm tomorrow I will know what I am facing one way or another!
Well I’m back and lucky enough to say IT has been diagnosed as a Fibroadenoma. I have spent the last 24 hours trying to escape from the fear and now am now back in a place where I can think objectively. I would like to say that I have never experienced so much love, courage or hope and think that you are all such insparational ladies. I wish you all the best and hope every one of you a long and happy life. And should I find myself here again I know I will be well looked after. Lots of Love. Pooch