Hi All,
Single mother of two wonderful boys 12 & 17.
Was Diagnosed in Sept last year with the proverbial bomb shell!!!
At first was having lumpectomy then due to the spread of the cancer to the lymph nodes (packed out) and being HER2+ was advised I needed chemo firstly.
Had x4 A & C and then x 4 Taxotere (nightmare!!!)
Have just had mastectomy and level 3 lymph node clearance 10 days ago. Maybe I am living in a bubble but it is the first time I feel since being diagnosed I have a real fighting chance.
Yes my breast has gone, yes who will ever want to come near me (relationship wise) in the future, yes I swell up with my treatment and yes I can’t walk or do anything for the tiredness and weakness in my joints etc etc but my boys have accepted me all along as I am.
As for me, losing my breast is the best thing that could have happened and is since I was told about this horrible disease.
As of yet not had my results (from pathology) go next Thursday but I feel for the first time
I HAVE A FIGHTING CHANCE - I have not cried and can’t cry (well not yet any way) as my youngest said to me “why would you want to cry about getting your cancer taken out of you”
I feel relieved. Its not over, I find out next stage, which should be a month of radiotherapy and continued Herceptin (had x3 so far) for the next year followed by 8yrs of Hormone treatment.
Maybe just maybe it hasn’t hit me yet - but I truely feel relieved and I have a chance.
I LOVE MY NEW HAPPINESS BUBBLE (and yes I go out wigless too!! my boys and me are okay with it so tough, everyone else will have to be!!)
we need some positive times and this is mine
JO
xxxx
Ps Even wanted the op recording but ended up in Hosp before my op due to stomache cramps and vomiting so forgot to write to ask the trust. Recorded most of everything else I have experienced, was hoping it may be of use to others in the future!