Today I had some good news about a couple of really nice ladies on here who have got the all clear today. I am thrilled to bits for them. But suddenly out of nowhere the tears have started to fall, the reason being is I have seen so many people come and go over the last few weeks wondering if they have BC, they get good news and then they go. I am still here so I have kinda worked out that that means my results next week are going to be bad news. Law of averages I guess. I don’t know where these tears have come from, but I can barely see the keyboard as I am crying so much.
J xx
Hi Jules
Sorry you are feeling so low tonight. But I think if you look at all the ‘have I got breast cancer’ posts - you know in your heart of hearts they don’t all get good news. Just because you are still here posting doesn’t have any bearing on your results next week - it just means you’re still waiting - and as you already know - that is by far the worst part of all of this.
Your current anxiety probably stems from the fact that those others have actually had their results - while you are still here…waiting. I think you also know you aren’t doing yourself any favours by getting stressed out again - though I know how hard it is to be anything else. But you really must try and remain optimistic.
Hopefully you will be boudning on here next week to tell us all that everything is ok and all this worrying has been for nothing - I sincerely hope so
take care
Margaret x
we all get low days when we fear the worse hun its only human but we get good days and laws are meant to be broken iam sure you’ll be fine i;m still here and i’m not worried fingers crossed for you
Joanne
Oh Jules, I know just how you are feeling and wish I could help more than just saying sorry. I know we all have black moods, fearing the worse, but try to hold on and remember, you haven’t def been told yet and all may be fine. If it isn’t then we are still here for you and you can get through this don’t struggle alone, let people support you. Which day do you get your results?
Take care
Irene
Thanks ladies. I don’t even know where the tears have come from. My hubby is in the other room and I have kept out of his way because I don’t want to let him see me in this state, I guess I hoped posting might make me feel better. Its seven weeks and one day since I was referred and I know its only another week to go, but thats such a long time of waiting, and I guess tonight it all came to the surface.
I get my results next weds at 2.40! I have my hubby going, my sister going and also my friend all for support.
Oh Jules,I have just sent you an email and was just about to sign out and i saw this.Sweetheart,i can imagine how you are feeling.If i’d have been on here yesterday and had seen that several women had got the all clear then i would be thinking ‘if all these women are ok surely it’s time for one not to be’.However you must not forget that your consultant said that he/she was sure everything was fine.I’m not going to say don’t cry as i think crying is good for you (i do it all the time over the slightest thing).You’re worried because you haven’t had a concrete ‘everything is ok’ but i’m so sure it will be fine.There is NO reason why you are any different to me and Yvonne.It’s a bit daft to say this but please try not to worry.The waiting is the worst thing as your mind works overtime.Meanwhile,we’re here and care for you x
Hi Jules
If only we knew where these tears come from and how to stop them when they start. It’s the hardest time waiting for results and you are doing exactly what we all do during this time, making it up in your head. It’s so hard to keep a lid on our thoughts and when you read other peoples results you start having even more irrational thoughts.
Sweetheart there are no laws of averages in here, we are all here for the same reason. Some of us get good news, some of us get less good news but what we get with that news is a plan, we know what we’re up against and how we’re going to deal with it and for some strange reason this is rarely as bad as what we sit and make up in our heads.
So I think what I am trying to say is the waiting is sh*t, its the hardest time but you’ll get there honey, be kind to yourself for the next week, try not to read too much till you know whats happening. Just cos a couple of ladies have had good news doesn’t mean you’re about to get a disaster, hold tight for the next few days.
Big hugs and lots of love
AJxxx
Thank you sweetie, I was so pleased to hear you both had good results, I have been thinking about you both all day. It was just all of a sudden I thought omg, it is going to be me who will be the one posting next week that I have BC. I know it sounds so irrational, but your head can play really mean tricks on you at times. I guess I am just tired and still not fully over my operation. My stiches are hurting and I probably over did i a bit today.
Thank you for caring. And I am sorry for crying. xxx
beside after tears you feel better and we here to hold your hand through this just like others have done for us
\\and never apologise for being human hunni
Joanne
Thank you AJ, Joanne, Magz, Dita and Irene for your lovely messages. It is so comforting when I feel sad and cry that there are lovely ladies like yourselves that are willing to take the time to write to me and help, its really appreciated. xxxxxx
Don’t be sorry for crying Jules.It’s just a natural thing to do.I’m sure every single woman in here has done the same at one time or another.Next Wednesday at 2.40 you won’t just have your Hubby,Sister and friend with you.All of us will be thinking of you and be there to support you.I hope you have some painkillers that can help you with the pain from your stitches so you can get a good nights sleep.Thinking of you x
i found a pillow under my arm did the trick for me think bi=oth the pressure and the elevation was a help
Thank you sweetie, I am about to have some diazapem, co codamol oh and some wine! Least I will be asleep! thank you again and I am so pleased you got the all clear.
hugs xxxxxxxx
i put a lovely poem on all the other discussions think the words might help you as i hope they do for me it under POEM FOR YOU
Try and have a good nights sleep.Speak to you tomorrow.Night sweetie xxxxx
Thank you ladies your stars, I will check out your poem Joanne. xxxxx
Hi Jules
We all know how awfull the waiting is and how it can make you feel so helpless. But as AJ said whatever the results you will also get a plan and that really does help. Its a bonus if no further treatment is required of course but when you have treatment to tick off on a calender that too can help. I was told on the 2nd march that the tiny little lump which my surgeon was sure was nothing was infact breast cancer. I had a mastectomy with recon 2 weeks ago and although I am a bit sore (with half my bloody back on my boob) I am feeling really positive.
Going to find out monday if I will need any Other treatment (fingers crossed hey) but just looking foreward to being able to drive again now! another week of cadging lifts. and hopefully getting a bath and my hair washed after the dressing clinic tomorrow. Will be thinking of you next wednesday at 2.40.
Oh sorry Jules started to ramble!!!
Take Care love Diane x
Jules hun,let us know how you are today.I hope you’re feeling a bit better.Thinking of you x
oh lucky i am sorry u have bc, and jules till you get the answer try to put it on back boiler, the waiting is the worst,
i havent ebven plucked up courage to see my gp yet so i know how anxiousness can be
i have erosions should i say or lumpy things on the nipple, my way at the mo is if i dont go i havent got anything
so i can put it out of my mind
i do get alittle breast pain but nothing where the lumps are
wed will come and hopefully you will get the all clear
so hold on to hope babe
love
cee
Diane,i’m very sorry you’ve had such a rotten time but i think it’s great that you’re so positive.I’m sure you will kick it’s backside! Cee,i really don’t want to nag you but you know that you must see your gp.This must be on your mind 24 hours a day and worrying won’t do your health any good.I’m begging you to make an appointment on monday to see your doctor.Please,please,please do it.You’ll find out where you stand and then you can get on with things.The longer you leave it,the longer you will spend time worrying.When i had my breast problem i saw my gp the next day as an emergency and had my appoinment with the hospital in 10 days.Yes it was a nightmare waiting.The uncertainty is awful but as Diane said once you know,if it’s good news you can just forget it and if there is a problem then there will be a plan of treatment to get you well.Please let us know how you get on.Best wishes x