Hello there Mole,
Ok, firstly, everything you are feeling is quite understandable and normal, I’ve been on this forum for 10 months now and anybody waiting for their breast clinic appointment says very similar things; fear, lack of concentration, a roller coaster of emotions, certain they already have bc, ‘feeling’ new symptoms, obsessive googling of things related to bc.
Now, tackling once thing at a time - a large majority of breast lumps that people are referred for are benign, especially for women of your age group. It is a ‘breast clinic’ and not a ‘cancer clinic’, they deal with all sorts of symptoms and problems…and yes of course they want to rule out breast cancer or find it quickly, as it is then far more effectively treatable. So, you’ve done absolutely the right thing in being aware, and seeing your GP and getting referred. Unfortunately, it is very human reaction to try and want to fill the void of ‘not knowing’ what the problem is by searching for anything you can on the internet. I can tell you now, you will not find the answer there, you will scare yourself silly, find evidence to prove that you DO or DON’T have BC and your thoughts will continue to be a rollercoaster. The only place there is an answer is at the breast clinic, as hard as that it is to get through the waiting.The waiting is agony, we know, we’ve all done it.
At the breast clinic (it depends if you have a one stop clinic where everything can be done in one visit) you will probably see a bc specialist who will firstly go a manual examination. You will be asked to describe what you see/feel yourself. Then you will likely have a mammogram, and/or ultrasound scan to determine some more details about the anomally that you have been referred for. If at this point the skilled radiographer and consultant are still not certain that it is a benign condition (it may be obvious e.g. a fluid filled cyst), then a needle biopsy may be taken to determine the types of cells in the lump. It could be that at any point during this process that they are certain it is benign and checks end there, however, even if a biopsy is required it still doesn’t mean it is definitely bc. They are very thorough and if they can’t be 100 percent certain of the cause of the lump, then they will get a biopsy done. If you are at a clinic that isn’t a ‘one stop clinic’ then this process could all take a little longer.
if a biospy is done then you could have a wait of up to two weeks for the results, sadly, yet again more emotionally painful waiting. Please can I reassure you though, and all the women on here are testament to the fact, that even IF you were one of the unluckly 1 in 8 women who develops breast cancer at some point in her life, then an individual treatment plan ensures that the vast majority of women come very successfully out of the other side of this turbulent experience. (just as we have) The thought of the ‘C’ word is terrifying, I know this, but things are not as they were when your husband’s mother died when he was young, treatments have changed SO much!
I think I have answered most things you raised, but ask away if I’ve missed anything and I’m sure others will be along to help you out soon as well.
Charys