I know that scary place

Hi Morwenna

I am new to this forum. Your post touched a major cord. I had a WLE and SNB for Stage 1 Grade 3 IDCIS August 2012. Then 6 rounds of chemo till mid Jan. The 18 radiotherapy treatments till end of Feb. In mid March I found a lump in my other (right breast). I was diagnosed with a new primary tumour on 1st May, grade 3 again. Had a bone scan and ct scan to check for secondaries. It was very frightening waiting for results. On Thursday I found out all was clear. Yesterday I had another WLE and SNB. My oncologist and surgeon said getting amother cancer again so soon is very rare.They said it might have been lurking all the time and the treatment kept it at bay for a while. I did wonder and ask during my treatment why no one was checking my other breast too. Maybe it wasn’t there, and to be honest I did not feel it there before. Still, here I am feeling fortunate to have no lymph node involvement this time, or last time. My time between finding the lump and diagnosis was longer because I did not see anyone till mid April, due to family circumstances. It is no good telling you not to worry. I just kept myself as distracted as possible. There were a number of issues with diagnosis along the way, but now I wait for results and treatment plan. New lump was measured under ultrasound as 27mm yesterday, 9mm larger than when I had scan in April. But we all know that actual size and characteristics are determined post op. hope this makes sense, as a little fuzzy still after anaesthetic! Lots of luck to you

Bumping this up for Morwenna to see

Jo, Facilitator

Thanks for the reply Bumpkin, and so sorry to hear that has happened to you. See, the fact that it is " very rare" is no consolation, quite the reverse, when it does happen to you!

At least I suppose, if it has to happen, the fact that you are in a closely monitored situation means it is likely to have been “caught early”, so the best possible chance.

I am worried, but not panicked really. I feel more sort of ground down and depressed right now, and I think a lot of that is directly due to where I am in my treatments. Three more weeks and I’ll be finished chemo, but I think this’ll be the toughest period, quite apart from my “lump”, real, imagined or however it turns out.

I can’t wait for this to be all behind me, but I wonder if I’ll ever feel “normal” again. I miss the old me, the one that didn’t spend 20 hours a day thinking about cancer! Oh gosh, what a moaning Minnie! I should probably shut up now! :wink:

Thanks Jo, for bumping.