This is my first post and reached out to this because I’m feeling so mad angry totally p…d with a few things lol. Dot point to follow.
. my body
.my friends are so sweet but don’t get it
. my kids still need food and school lunches
. I cannot work like I did
. my relationship is crap
. And my floor is dirty
. last but not least I’m always saying it’s ok to loved ones so that it’s ok for them.
ok after all that I assure you I’m not negative person but I needed to spew it out … sorry.
My name is Theresa and 11 months ago I was diagnosed with stage 3 mastatic breast cancer . I’m a mum of 5 boys oldest 23 and youngest being 12 I’ve been married for 23 years and have loved every minute of it but this has been very hard . So so so much to say would love to hear from you all .xx
You shout your anger out all you like, its all cool on here and please do NOT apologise. Are you receiving any specific support from a cancer or Breast C charity ? Have you been offered cancer counselling ? Are you accessing any of the support services on this site ? (I’ll provide the link shortly - there are secondary specific areas on BCNow. There might be a Maggie’s near you too, and its certainly with checking out to see if you might from some counselling sessions with McMillan helpful). Everything is getting ontop of you, and you have every right to feel that way, my goodness what a LOT you are having to deal with - a busy wife and mother with your diagnosis and ongoing treatments, who is STILL trying to put everyone else first.
OK, its time for Theresa to come first for a while I think - there are loads of us around on here, and everyone is happy to chat with you, but do consider if you need some additional input from some of the other support services to get you through this. The good 'ole helpline here is always there for low times and for advice…
08088006000
How you feel is how you feel Theresa, nothing is wrong at this point and Anger is very common indeed, but you are right to start sharing your thoughts and feelings - processing them is important. You say ‘but this has been hard’, I suspect thats an understatement to be honest, I think you are worn out right now and so please do start gathering information on anything and anybody who can metaphorically hold your hand whilst you are feeling so angry and sad. One more question - is there anybody in your life helping you in practical ways right now ?