I finished my chemo (2xEC, 4XTAX) 12th Jan, and had lumpectomy 23rd Feb. I’m scheduled to have 15 rads in April. Physically I’m more mobile and my energy levels are increasing, but I’ve hit a low and don’t understand why. I had expected to feel brighter and more positive after my last chemo and surgery were completed, and for a couple of weeks I did, but now I’m down in the dumps.
Maybe it’s frustration as my brain is a mush, it’s a struggle to articulate myself and this makes me feel stupid and affects my confidence.
I am not worrying about my future and have infact had a positive approach regarding my cancer, I accepted the diagnosis well after the initial shock, and didn’t ever think ‘why me’ because, why not me? Although chemo was horrible and I suffered many S/E’s I didn’t feel low in spirit, I was fatigued and in a lot of pain but managed to keep my pecker up.
I find I’m retreating into myself and don’t want to make phone calls to friends or family, and have little enthusiasm for socialising.
Did/does anyone else feel like this? Is it normal? I cannot understand why I’m so low.
Mothers’ day tomorrow and I’m going to have to put on a brave face for my daughter who’s taking me out, right now I think it will be difficult but naturally I’ll find the strength to do so.
Libby x