found out i have breast cancer on 11 jan, i originally went in for my right breast, which was showing all the symptoms, nothing was wrong with my right breast, but my left breast showed up on the mamogramme as two lumps. they took a biosy and it came back a grade three cancer. In a way, i feel lucky that they caught it in time, but in another i am scared i am going to die. I have just had a lumpecemp last friday, tomrrow i have to go back to the breast clinic to find out my results to see if they have removed enough of te healthy tissue around the tumour, and have my dressing changed. I have chemo 6 weeks later. wow, its so much to take in. i am goig with the flow, cos i am scared, i have a one year old and a three year old, the three year old gave me his teddy to tke into hospital when i had the op, omg, i think i’ve insomnia, is that normal? my brain wont switch off. my colleagues wont tell me anything horrible in case it upsets me, really getting me down, and as for my husband, he is using it as an opportunity to think i am weak and is getting up to all sorts including getting arrested only 24 hrs after i come home from surgery, anyone out there that can help please, i feel so alone x
Hi there billie02
Firstly, welcome to the forums, you’ve come to the right place for support and information. I’m sure others will be along soon to offer their experiences.
Waiting for results is always very difficult and I’m sure once you know what the next steps for treatment are you will start to feel better.
If it helps to talk, do please call our Helpline. They’re great and can offer either a listening ear or signpost you to other sources of help for you.
They’re open 9-5 Monday to Friday and 9-2 on Saturday.
The number is 08000 800 6000.
Best wishes.
Louise
Facilitator
Billie,
So sorry you have had to join us on here but it really helps. I too have two small children they were only 22 months and 3 and a half when i was diagnosed in July 2009 but they have coped brilliantly and ceratinly kept me going through this,
Please private message me if you need someone to talk to.
It is a complete rollercoaster but you will get through it, i have had bi lateral mastectomy, chemo, rads, herceptin (finished this week so am very happy!!) and now on tamoxifen and have my recontruction in 7 weeks.
As for the insominia I saw my GP and he gave me sleeping tablets as he felt the last thing i needed was to cope with no sleep and they really helped I took them for 12 months but am off them now but they ceratinly helped you really need to keep your strnght up.
I felt very isolated when I was diagnosed at 33 but it is staggering how many young women are out there.
If i can help in any way please ask
Nicki xxxxxx
Hi billie,
Just want to send you a big hug (()), hope your results today are what you want to hear, I too went to breast clinic with a lump I was concerned about, that was normal but they found a little bc directly under the normal lump, it is a shock and insomnia is completely normal at this waiting stage, I haven’t needed chemo, just rads and tamoxifen , also my children are teens even though I’m 36, I’m sure others will be along soon who are going through the same stages as you, there are quite a few with young children on here.
As for you OH, well I can’t quite find the words for him, you are important right now and you need someone around you who cares and supports you, not someone who thinks your weak , I hope there is someone else who is looking out for you.
Take care, and remember to be kind to yourself , keep posting, there are some very supportive folk on here, I hope you find them x
Hi Billie, Big hugs to you. As if BC were not enough to come to terms with, an unsupportive OH really is making it all worse. Is it possible that he couldn’t cope with your problems and chose the wrong way to deal with it. It can be hard for partners (or am I being too kind?)
As others say, you and you children have to come first.
Do you have friends and family who can over practical support - child care, cooking meals etc? If so, accept all help gratefully - you will need it.
Macmillan are excellent at helping people with all the problems which can build up - like relationships, finances, practical help etc, so do get in touch with them. They might also be able to help your OH (if he wants to cope better).
Good luck. Stella
For now sending you cyber hugs <<<>>> xx
Hi Billie
I’m just agreeing with all that has been said before.
How you are feeling is normal. Of course it is - one minute life is as planned, the next its been hijacked by this thing called cancer.
You aren’t weak, far from it. You spotted something wrong and did something about it, much better than putting your head in the sand.
Every single person in this forum has been thru’ the emotions that you are now experiencing and, speaking from experience, you will be amazed how much you will deal with it. I’m on my 2nd chemo and feeling fine (bald but fine!) and really just ticking the days off until the next round (mx recon rads tam), but it will pass.
Do join us, as cheryl says, in the dark, dark woods post - although it’s not that dark anymore, it’s full of strong, powerful, funny women.
As for your OH - what can I say?? Is this the norm or maybe him not coping. A tricky one there and one you can do without, but believe me, you will be amazed at the inner strength you possess.
Good luck - see you in the woods
x
Hi Billie, sending you love and strength.