in the land of the living...............

Hi all,

I’ve lost everything! My house is either going to be repossessed or sold…whichever we can do quickest - my job went as could not keep it up as too tired from chemo, rads, etc. and right now I am the happiest person alive! We have decided to relocate to pastures new, and it can’t come quick enough for me, just feel the need to ‘move on’ …we’re coming off of the property ladder and have decided to rent as it gives us more freedom. The only drawback is that my son will have to go to a new school, but hopefully with a bit of luck it won’t be all that bad. My reconstruction is due early next year and i am on 3 weekly herceptin shots + tamoxifen. Had 1 x wide excision lumptectomy/lymph node removal + 1 x lumptectomy + mastectomy last year after 3 x fec/3 x taxotere chemo + 4 wks of rads. Am hoping to go back to work a.s.a.p. when we’ve relocated and have all these wonderful dreams about fitness…lol…oh yes, gonna buy a bike! haven’t riden one though since I was about 11 yrs old!!! Still feel knackered most of the time, but gonna try for a ‘new lifestyle’ when we move…might even aim for a marathon - who knows!!!

Keep smiling! Don’t let it grind you down - you’re worth so much more x

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Morgaina, that sounds fantastic…well done you!!!
I too have realised how precious life is and how unimportant material things are .
This morning I feel glad to be alive and happy inside.This is interspersed with other days of fear,bumbling,hopelessesness and a host of ghastly rollercoaster like feelings so I am truly thankful for the positive days.
My finances up the swanee too-didn’t have mortgage protection- only bought house last year, things were tight and at 44 didn’t really think it would be worth it 'cos I was going to be alive for at least another 40 years right?
My job I had had for only 8 months - it was my new career after leaving nursing to supporting adults with learning disabilities so no pay from work so I hadn’t been there long enough to qualify.
The Halifax have been absolute a…s about the credit card repayments even though I have offered what I think are fairly reasonable reduced payments for a while and ring /write & harass daily .
In spite of that and a pile of other stuff , we went to our local macmillan drop-in centre and got fantastic advice and support and now coasting along until I believe “something” will happen -it usually does when one door shuts in your face another one opens somewhere else.
love Kay xx

HI ladies
I have been off work since Oct last year,and they have been fantastic and I know Iwill get great support, when I return,My main issue now is finances,no mortgage protection, and lender is basically saying tough it has to be paid.We have talked about selling up and moving and renting somewhere,and I have done the same job for 18 years and am thinking about a change,just don’t know what yet,I have been on a downer the last few days, worrying and it was good to read your comments

Take Care
Mary
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