Hi all - I’m having such a meltdown tonight. Diagnosed 28th July G2 IDC 14mm - next appointment for treatment plan on Monday 21st. It feels so odd having a letter confirming my diagnosis when I don’t feel ill and 14 days have gone by so far with another 6 days to go before I get my treatment plan. Is this really real - it certainly doesn’t feel like it. I feel like my life is on hold. I’m no expert and I have no idea how good or bad my diagnosis is. My original appointment with the consultant on 1st August is a haze. I feel a fraud if I’m honest one minute and then panic struck the next. It’s so tiring. Have I really got to wait another 6 days before I understand this properly? It’s so hard not to let it take over and I haven’t even got off the starting blocks. I feel sick 
Hi Anita
Breathe…
It would be rare for any of us to be ill at diagnosis, which is why it all feels so surreal. There’s no reason why you would not make a full recovery from this, it is at an early stage where this is the normal outcome.
It wont be long before it all makes sense, it’s probably seeing it written down in black & white that brings it all home.
It might be an idea to ring the helpline here to talk it through if you’d think this would help.
It does get better, honest!
ann x
This is the worse phase, you will feel better when you know what will happen and have a plan. I was a mess between biopsy and being told that they were pretty sure that it was cancer and the next appointment after they had looked at my results and had their team meeting. I had to wait 2 weeks and then I saw the surgeon who told me that she could do my lumpectomy and sentinel node removal 2 days later. Since then, op was on Friday, I have been weirdly calm and positive even though I don’t actually know much about what type or grade I have or what other treatments I will need. She did say that because I am young (50) not been called that for a while! They would throw the book at it and hoped that I would make old bones, so that was quite reassuring.
Thank you Ann and Chaffinch, today is another day and one more day nearer to next Monday and my treatment plan so getting stuck into work now and banishing it to the back of my mind (for now, she says, big sigh).
We all feel a little crazy at times we also feel irrational too but this is our new normal. Just come on here vent if you need to then take a deep breathe and try and have a better day tomorrow x hugs to all