Hi all
Just wanted to say that when I was in hospital for my WLE there were post-menopausal women after double mastectomies dancing around the ward with drains coming out of every nightdress opening as I lay in bed wincing at every nerve pain from the blasted drains.
I felt that it was all wrong, I’m 34 and should be leading the exercise class to YMCA, and they should be the ones resting.The girl in the bed next to me was 35 with 2 young children too and she was making the same as me. It’s my couch potato generation I thought, I must get up and skip to the loo, I’m so ashamed.
Then it hit me - I’ve got a 4yr old and a 1 year old at home and when I get out of hospital they will show no mercy, I’m getting all the rest I can NOW. Gaynor with her 3 dancing drains was retired and had a retired husband to look after her every need when she got out for as long as she wished. She’d been able to sleep every night for the last 5 years…and nap in the day if she wished…and she knew what lie-ins were!
What I mean to say is YOUNG WOMEN don’t beat yourselves up, we’re not superwomen. We’'ve got years ahead living with the fear of cancer, many of us with young children we fear we won’t see grow up. I worry my 1 year old won’t remember his mummy and that breaks my heart. When all my treatment is over I’ll spring back into life and my kids won’t know what’s hit 'em
BUT…FOR NOW…
I’m in post-op recovery and started chemo last week then they’re threatening me with a mastectomy because I got lobular invasive cancer, else it’ll be radiotherapy.This may be the last time I get to take it easy on myself til my baby starts school, and what with surgery, poisoning(chemo), and baldness to contend with I think I’ll have jolly well earned it!!!
Anyone else feel the same or am I the couch potato I feared I was??? Come on girls swing those drains!
Alisonxxx