well, life has been a non-stop party since three days before christmas i found a lump. i went straight to the docs and she referred me to the breast clinic. three weeks later i went in and was first told it was fibrocystic changes, not to worry. but by the end of the morning i had had a mammo, ultrasound, biopsy and mammo again, and was being spoken to very softly and gently by the consultant. a week later and they confirmed breast cancer. im 37 and have a 3 yr old. it didnt come as that much of a shock as i ‘knew’ it, i knew it from the minute i found the lump.my poor hubby was so shocked, he hadnt even considered for a second it would be anything other than benign.
anyway, all they have told me so far is its small (in fact the ultrasound teccie had problems finding it, i had to find it for him twice). but they think the nodes are affected. they are talking about lumpectomy, chemo and then radio.
i had my lymph node biopsy last week, and the same teccie said it was just one node they were concerned about. i am going back tonight to get the results, and im papping myself. i dont know why, cos i know what theyre going to say, its just a question now of how badly they are affected.
i am pencilled in for a lumpectomy next week, and i am hoping they agree to this, as the bcn put the willies up me and said they may do the chemo first.
i am terrified and only just keeping it togther.its this piecemeal way of telling me information is infuritaitng. its constant test, wait a week, results, test, wait a week, results. i dont even know what stage, garde it is yet, so in my mind its a grade 4 and its spread everywhere.
dont know what else to say. trying to keep positive, but really just want to go to sleep and someone else go and get my results for me.