Just diagnosed and wanting to talk to people who understand

Tandy I think you will find your Dr is wrong. Lots of people work in between treatment when they feel fit etc. Get sick notes for shorter periods not months, then you can go in when you’re up to it and get another when you’re having treatment. 6 months max on full pay for same condition. I’m sure that’s right x

Blossom I’m fine on letrozole. Been on it since April so everyone reacts differently so don’t panic. Although it must have been a huge shock at least you didn’t have the wait for results…that’s been a nightmare for most of us. If it’s small why a mastectomy? Lumpectomy is more usual. Sending love Lorna x

Blossom - Afraid i can’t help you with ref to Letrizole, but any tab, paracetamol, has a long list of possible side effects. They have to, but you may be ok, without any effects or maybe only mild. I’ll have to look it up. There are many on here who’ve had to take it.

With ref to your mental state - You’re in a state of shock at the moment and very, very scared. Huge amount to take in and somehow get your head round. This disease STINKS/SUCKS whatever you wanna call it, whatever you want to say about it - you’re in the right place here. Well done on making the effort. Use it Blossom, Even though it’s virtual, it will help you much more than you think. You can let rip to sympathetic, understanding ears who know exactly how you must be feeling right now. So, you are never alone with it. There’s hundreds of us, so there’s AWAYS someone who can offer advice, share experience of any problem you may be experiencing. If you wanna have a RANT, SOB, MOAN, log yourself on.

If it’s any consellation to you at the mo’, there are many of us who’re long down the road from our initial diagnosis. We may still have mental hiccups. It’s difficult to find a balance between NOT allowing this disease to rule/ Eff up your life, and being sensibly vigilant. 

 

You mentioned you have to make a decision. Do you feel like discussing it with us? It may help.

 

Hi to everyone - hope you’re all doing okay. Seem to have been very busy with Personal MOT appointments - eyes, stomach prob is being looked into further.Had blood and poo tests done to see if Salmonella or other bacteria, liver prob. Haven’t had results yet but saw a lovely Male GP as an emergency appt. He’s also arranged for an Ultrasound scan so is being very conscientious. Eye test showed up early cataract which has to “ripen” ( !!) before they do anything. Am not concerned about that, it’s easily remedied and explains why I was struggling with sunlight and headlights when driving. Stomach’s been a month now, lost 5-6 lbs and washed out as not getting enough fuel in. Feel sick about a 1/3rd into a meal, even though I’m hungry, and it’s lasts for an hour after. Got a fridge and freezer FULL of tasty, tempting food that keeps being thrown away. He’s given me anti sickness tabs which are helping, plus make me sleepy so I’m hitting the ZZZ’s in a bit. I’m STILL ok MENTALLY though. Have another appointment with him next week to ask him to refer me to another breast consultant. Have decided to see the lady surgeon a North Manchester, even though it’s a trek from here, but she has an amazing reputation. Sooo, I’m “getting back on that horse” - yeeehaaaa. On top of my tum, my knee locked 4 days ago so am hobbling around. Have to go back to my knee man to get another clear out arthroscopy. Also asking to be referred to the “hand” unit, see if they can help with improving my hand and finger mobility and possibly see if I can prevent it from worsening. So it’s just as well I’m not working at the mo, being the DEMIC that I am at the mo’.  Went and had a  neck and shoulder massage yesterday - lovely jubbly. Take a few in succession to soften up the tough boot leather shoulders !!  Chloe, the cat seems to be doing better due to my excellent nursing skills and attention. Has put a bit of weight on and her coats improving again, back to silky soft. And I’m not complaining, but she’s started being very nudgingly demanding for attention and giving it. Hope it’s not a “sign”.

 

I’m really sorry some of you are having work and sick leave issues. As Jobes said, it’s hard enough to just cope with this disease on it’s own without the extra financial struggles and complications.

Talking about you’re hair upset Claire, got chatting to a lovely lady down at a little Italian restaurant /coffee shop I pop into for an expresso occasionally. Have got to know the guys who own and run it there. Discovered she’s another of my neighbours at the back from my house. Complimented her on her lovely thick hair and haircut, only to be told she’d had lumpectomy, then chemo earlier this year, so was only six months back to her own hair!!

Although it’s an Italian restaurant, they do Tapas nights on Fri’s and Sats. Only seats about 26 people this place and they’re Unlicensed so it’s “Take you’re own wine or beer”. Am thinking about getting a loada people together for my birthday in Jan and booking the place out. Love Tapas and paella. We could then carry on at mine for fireworks and a party. I  feel I’ve got some LIVING TO DO and FUN TIMES TO MAKE UP FOR !!

Loadsa love to everyone

Dellypoos xxx 

Hi Blossom. So sorry you have to join us here. I am also 58 and had a similar experience to you last March. I had a routine mammogram, which revealed a tumour - I couldn’t feel a lump because it was deep in my breast. I was told during my biopsy that it was almost certainly cancer. Like you, I was absolutely shocked and almost had a meltdown. Waiting for detailed results was the worst time. I cried, worried about my children (I’m a single parent), and swore at someone at work! You’ll feel better when you get your results because then you’ll know what you’re dealing with. I was put on Letrozole after radiotherapy but had to come off it because of severe bladder pain and blood in my urine. It’s a hormone suppressant, so it’s likely to affect your emotions, but some people find things settle down after a while. You’re bound to be imagining the worst at the moment, but many people with even advanced breast cancer live fulfilling lives for years. There’s always someone on here who can support you and there’s a great helpline too. Best of luck with your results.

Hi Tandy. Macmillan can offer financial support and grants. I would contact them. There are other organisations that offer grants for people going through cancer, eg Liverpool Life.

Good mornin lovely peeps’

Boy did I zonk out after my last posting. Woke up wide awake at 5.30!! All a bit weird at the mo. Think it might be time to exchange the Tog 4.5 duvet for the Tog 9. Might be drop in body temp that’s doing it.

 

Yeah Claire/Tina, it sounds as though I’m falling to bits. My hands are my upset, no boobs are nothing compared to that. However, I was having a catch up chat with one of my X neighbours in Rochdale the other night. She’s a lecturer and head of Physio Dept at the MM Uni in manchester. She knew I’d started with hand probs before I moved 2 yrs ago. She sparked me up to try get some help as all the research I’d done was showing I’d have to wait until it’d reached it’s worst to then surgery to free the tendons. My hands have always been so skilled work and DIY wise and people used to often complement me on them whilst I was beavering away on their feet. Long pianist fingers. No, I’m not being arrogant or vain. I also used to keep my hand in with massage for friends, from having trained in Swedish + Shiatsu (Accupressure) many years ago. Loved it, so soothing to DO as well as receive !!

The difference Claire is that I’m now addressing all of his stuff as oppo to it all bogging me down - extra on top, pushing me down that black hole even further mentally. But as I said, at the moment it’s a help that I’m NOT working so have the time to sort all the body MOT issues.But I WILL get something to provide an income. 

And I say it again - it’s thanks to all of you on here. that I’m almost soaring now !! In fact, Better than I have ever been in fact. Quite miraculous. Seeeriously. It’s why I say Blossom - “USE IT”, it’ll help, do you good.

Claireebee, we’ve got to find something to help calm your mind down when you’re waking up. Did you read and look into any of the suggestions on “The Night Birds”. Something you can pop in your ears whilst you’re in bed, without waking hubby, that will soothe your troubled mind and help send you back to sleep. Do you have a little discman or MP3 player/ I pod ?? (Am not so up to date on teccy stuff). There’s a load of therapy cds/downloads to help with sleep or fretful periods, that will help to settle you’re mind down again, and often with this type of thing, the more often you use them, the quicker they then start to take effect. Because they’re “training” your mind. It’s like Hypnotherapy, the more you have it, the quicker you go into the “trance” state. Come and join us when you’re awake weird hours. I’m often at my most imaginative and productive late night (if not too tired) and early morning. Have come up with my best ideas, such as recently - How do I collect a sample of poo and transfer it to a little plastic pot container, in a hygienic way and without having to touch it myself !! Ha Ha !!. Toilet seat up, large sheet of foil into the bowl and I then “fashioned” a spoon shape from another piece of foil, to decant it to said “Deposit pot”. Could then just chuck the “spoon” into foil sheet and screw everything up, edges inwards !! Et voila !! Doc thought it was ingenious.

 

Jobey - get yourself down to the frozen food store, with the name of frozen water and land on the end. Bought some Ostrich steaks to try - beautiful meat. Get some, they’re as good as decent sirloin and at the same price. Get GEM to cook you “Ostrich and chips” next steak and chips night. Am still waiting for my invite !! I seasoned with a bit of salt and loads of black pepper then lightly roasted mine on a bed of pre roasted veges 10 mins before the end, with a quick turnover 1/2 way. That’s been the only FULL meal I’ve eaten in. weeks. 

I’ve been making loads of friends in the last 3 months, including Ena, lady mentioned above at the back of my house. The one with the lovely thick hair 6-8 months after chemo (Claire and Tina). I also got chatting at great length to a girl in her 40’s whilst we were waiting for our prescriptions. It was obvious (to me) that she was recovering from chemo as her hair was about 1/2" all over. She didn’t try to hide it, wasn’t bothered. That was her choice, you two, the majority of women and myself in fact WOULD be. Anyway, I just sat next to her and asked her how she was doing ?? - had a really good long chat even after our prescriptions. I’m sure we’ll bump inoto each other again, Macclesfield being a smallish place. I’m probably bolder than most people and she said she was nicely surprised as oppo to people just ignoring, which is often through embarrassment. Had she not wanted to talk about it, I’m sure she’d have just said. Keep remembering what I said to that patient of mine and complimented her on her new hairstyle, without knowing it was a wig. Looked fantastic. I know, I know, of course it’s terribly upsetting. I’ve just ordered a fresh crate of Merlot and NZ Sauvignon so let me know and I’ll be round.

 

Also met the most charming, beautiful to look at Jamaican guy. Have nicknamed him “The man from " *LDI” - met whilst shopping there and spent 1/2 hr talking in the middle of an aisle. Mad innit !! Met up for a drink and chat few days after. Will post in more depth in the “Night Birds” when I get chance - quite funny really.

Am gonna let you go now, get on with some more cleaning and tidying up.

Love to all

Doolally xxx 

Mf and Butterfly - Ahhh, thanks for the info ref Letrizole versus Tamoxifen. Does that mean you were post meno Mf at the time of your treatment?? Anyway, I’ll make a note  to look it up as things have advanced so much with both drugs and treatments since mine 9 years ago.  I’m always intersted in anything medical, espesh to do with BC. So how are you both doing now?? It’s that much tougher for you Mums isn’t it.

 

(FamilyTree) Luscious Lorna !! - sorry, that names stuck with me. Caught your posts from the other night. You didn’t answer my question a while back, asking what sort of work you are involved in ?? I sensed it was something in the therapy field ??

 

Blossom - how you feeling today?? It’s hard not to worry is’nt it. Listen, you’re only 10-11 days in. Yes, maybe the Letrozole is giving you hormonal downs as well as the shock of your diagnosis. Does it list “depression” as a poss side effect ?? Some of us are a lot more sensitive to hormonal changes than others. It may be if SOME of your “down” is due to the tabs, that it may level out after the first month, as your body readjusts. Don’t let this/me influence you, what I’m going to say, but after losing my first boob, I bounced back really well. I’d wanted immediate recon at the same time as the mastectomy but due to a no. of things, I couldn’t have it done. Anyhow, I was advised to take Tamoxifen but didn’t. Following my 2nd mast in 2007, they wanted me to take Tamoxifen and I didn’t argue. Losing my 2nd boob reeeally smashed me up as a person mentally and confidence wise, espesh as I was still single. I went into major, major depression. I tried Tamoxifen for 2 wks and felt even WORSE !! Depression is listed on the side effects. I don’t know about Letrozole. Anyway, the upshot was - I binned 'em (well took them back to the pharmacy to dispose of!!). I felt a definite lift to my mood within a day !! Yeah that quick. My attitude was JEEZ, I’m ALREADY in the depths and I feel I’m even worse on these tabs, so I’d rather take my chances without them, and feel I’ve got a chance of a BETTER QUALITY OF LIFE !!!   

 

Claire and Tina - Claire, don’t let the fluid build up too much. How big is it at the mo??. If it’s getting on for the size of an egg, phone up straight away to arrange to have it “aspirated”. With a mastectomy, if it builds up too much, it prevents the skin from healing between it and the ribs and structures underneath.

Yeah, hair and boobs, we womens “Crowning Glory” as they say, and our “Visible Feminine Frontage” as ‘I’ say. They’re what sets us apart from the guys, those sensual curves, hey?? To prattle on a bit longer, in a hope that it may give you a happier, better perspective on your hair loss issues and how important hair is to most of us women. My Mum started losing hers in her 40’s. No, not due to chemo, either through years of colouring, perms and/or hormonal. I can remember the lengths she went to to try and retain what she had left. Attended all sorts of hair clinics, used all sorts of lotions and potions. Even considered a transplant which wasn’t really heard of for women in those days (70’s). I was in my teens, and used to watch her oh so carefully comb her hair to avoid any coming out. It had a devastating effect on her, confidence wise, and she was highly embarrassed about it. She was a lovely looking woman, and she put on weight because she comfort ate because of it. Needless to say, she stopped dyeing and PERMING it, which did improve it slightly. Other than that, she was always gentle, gentle and found a style that managed to disguise her balding temples and top (typical male baldness pattern). In actual fact, from then on, her natural hair colour went “white” which suited her better and brought out the colour of her clear, bright blue sparkly eyes and beautiful complexion, and the “Straight” style she kept it in (A la Doris Day or Honor Blackman !!), also suited her far better than an ageing curly permed style. No-one would have known it was so thin and fine.

I’ve had the fortune to inherit her lovely skin but UNfortunately her hair also. Badly receded since my menopause at 50 (hers was late 30’s) and it’s PERMANENT. I’ve also thought of transplants, but it’s pretty costly. I manage, and it always gets a “bit” better when I’m in a better frame of mind and eating healthier again, but not a lot.   Sooooo, hope all of that helps a bit.

Get some boppy music on and do some silly dancing round the kitchen table - good exercise too. Watch Wallice and Gromit films (Just sent The Curse of the Wererabbit to a couple of down friends - it’s sooo funny)

How’s all you Chemo-cuties doing ?? Off to get my hair trimmed for Crimbo now. See yall later.

Loadsa love

DoolallyDelly xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx 

Hey lovely girlies,

So sorry to have dominated the thread. No-one’s posted for a while, today. I hope it’s not because of me “rabbiting” on. Soirry if it is. Just tell me, I’ll try to cut it down and “rabbit” on another thread !! Annoy somebody else instead !!!

Forgot to ask how’s Sissy and Amanda doing ??

Loadsa love

Delly poos xxx

Delly ,if you could make your posts a bit shorter if would be easier to keep up with everyone’s news.How is your cat?

Hi Delly, I’m fine thanks, been busy with family stuff, which is nice! CT scan result finally came back yesterday and was clear…quite a relief! Got an appointment with a wig maker tomorrow, should be interesting! Waiting to hear when I will start chemo now.

 

Hope everyone is getting by ok, keep those chins up the best you can, as said to me by my BCN, cancer is a ‘life changing diagnosis’ so expect some pretty deep lows from time to time and those newly diagnosed, it does take time to adjust to the ‘sh**storm’ but it does get a little easier.

 

Keep reading and posting here for lots of tips and support.

 

Amanda x

Jill - Thanks darlin and nicely done - gentle and point taken. With not posting so often, I tend to try do it in one BLAST, but understand it interrupts the flow of SHORT regular posters!! Taaa  for lovey x

Amanda - Thanks. Interested to see what style you go for. Not very nice for you BUT it IS in a way though isn’t it, 'cos it’ll hopefully help you to feel better, if you feel you’re looking all right on the outside even if not underneath?? x

How’s Sissy, MadAnge, Peggycat, Jobes, Francine, JenJen - how you doing flower?? Charlie - where you up to?? Bazza and Nikki, All else not named. Kisses to ALL of you. I’m in a generous mood !! xxxxxxxxxxx

 

DizzyDee - Wow, that’s great that you’ve found yourself a really nice fella. I think once I’m nearing my end of looong delayed recon of 9 yrs,or NOW in fact,  I’ m hoping I may be joining you in the partnership stance. I “bat for the other side” so to speak, and HATE being without a partner to “share life with”, but would rather be without one thanput up with a DUFFER !! AND good luck in your move to the USA - don’t blame you for getting out of this country. I’d go live in Italy at the drop of a hat - love EVERYTHING about IT and the Italians - like me, cheeky and mischievous humour. x

Am catching up on “back posts”. Claire - Yeah, isn’t it difficult losing those important “Bumps” when you’ve been so happy with them. BUT, I can’t tell you how “exciting” it was to look down at two NEW bumps following my 1st recon op, albeit smaller to begin with. That was just an initial 100mls, but it had filled out the SIDE of my chest again. Didn’t look all scrawny and ribs any more. You have THAT to look forward to. Please go for it asap. It restored so much confidence immediately back to me at the time - like a woman with a new pair of T*ts haha !! Hope that may cheer you up and give you some HOPE sweetie, hey.  It was my HAND prob that sent me down to the black hole, and loneliness. But i’m okay now, doing GREAT in fact - never felt better mentally, in the last 12 yrs in fact. x

 

Picked up a reduced “Best of Whitters” cd, Another tragic loss. What a beautiful looking woman, and what an amazing VOICE. Cost me £4 !! Will be added to the party dance music for the 14th 'cos it’ll be all 70’s 80’s i.e.DECENT dance era music. You all coming ?? Let me know, cos I may need to pick a bigger venue than the 28 seater restaurant, literally down the road, then back to me for fireworks and dancing till whenever !!

Thanks for asking Claire, Chloe’s going to the vets next Tues to be “checked” on her progress. Is sl-o-w-l-y but surely getting fattened up. My Darling cat and bestest friend - awwwww, love her to bits. I give her massages - neck and shoulders - loves it purrrrrrrrr. x

Heck, this is a “short post” !!  NiteyNitey 

Delly-givin-it-some-welly xxxxx

 

 

 

 

 

 

Great news Amanda. I’m pleased to say that the sore boob is now starting to heal quite well since I had the new dressings. They made an amazing difference and I still feel very angry that the hospital gave me the not so good but cheaper ones. If it hadn’t been for a friend who went through the same thing and told me what to ask the GP for, I’d still be in the dark. If anyone suffers broken skin from rads I can tell you the name of them. If the hospital won’t give you them then your GP can order them in. Worked a very long day today and am pleased to say I felt fine. Of course it may catch up with me tomorrow. Can’t wait for the 18th when we’re closing the business until 04 Jan. We both need a break after the year we’ve had. Sending hugs to everyone still going through treatment. I never actually thought I would get through it and some days were very dark. Just hang in there, you’ll all reach the finish line sooner or later. My journey lasted a year, three ops, five stays in hospital and 25 rads but here I am, nit the old me yet but getting there. X Francine

That’s good news about the scan Amanda.What a year you have had.

Ditto Francine.

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Blossom Hill get yourself to the GP. I totally fell apart when i was diagonsed. She put me on Citalopram an anti depressant 20mg once a day. I’m still on it its fab and to boot it stops the menopausal side effects of Tamoxifen and Zoladex injections no hot fushes for me. I could not have went theough treatment without a girls best friends Citalopram and Dizapam. Hope that helps xxxxx

Hi Everyone,

Fuffs/Francine - so what were these OTHER dressings then as oppo to what the hosp were using?? Whats the name of them, I may have used them in my work? Thought your skin must have been badly broken,  if something normally as innocuous as Aloe was “stinging”.

I don’t think you’ll EVER be the “old” Francine, i think you’ll be BETTER than you were !!  I certainly feel so. Gives us a hugely extra STRONG compassion, and a more realistic perspective with certain things, don’t you all think??

 

hidip - Hi and a Warm Welcome.  No, I’m not meaning the lady surgeon you mentioned (Don’t think they like us to use surgeons names on here). Your’s is at Oldham, mine will be at North M/c General. Although, when my own surgeon at Oldham moved areas, I was then placed under yours for a year, until I moved away and, Yes, she was extremely nice - lovely manner.

 

Thankfully, I see my knee man on Monday. Whole thing’s blown up last two days. Pack o’ Peas ice packs being used. Hope he can book me in for op soon. With not working at the mo, I always stress, if any cancellations, I can come in at the drop of a hat. Sooo Francine, it’s “Trousers off” for me !! He’s lovely so it’s a pleasure !!

Hope you’re all having a good restful w/end or noisy one if that’s what you want.

How’s Sissy, Nikki and Bazza’s BUM !!!

Dellypoos xxx

Hi Tina sweetie. You haven’t been on since the 10th. I stopped receiving notifications too. Thought you’d all fallen out with me or were “fed up” with me. Discovered that my choices of responses had been unchecked. Think your all conspiring agsinst me - Mmmmmmm. 

What’s a MUGA scan “gappy”?? (ref. to your tooth, hee!!)

Sooo glad you’re gonna have some distraction in going back to work, whey-hey.

How’ve you been this weekend ?? Little bit better ? I hope so flower. We’ll all be gunning for you on Friday and the follow on days, weeks, months. It’s gotta be worse for you too, with the time of year. 

 

Am VERY good mentally, thanks for asking darlin. Got a busy week with med appts or others. “Trousers off” for Knee man tomorrow, Vets Tuesday - THEY might be able to do something for ME too, you never know. Docs on Wed to get re referred to different boob surgeon for the “recon horse”, plus ref. to have hands looked at. Thurs - pleasure day. Hobbling down to the station (awwwwww - you all feel sorry for me I know) just for the trainspotting - haha !! No, jumping ON a train to Nantwich to see my fave Uncle and wife. Haven’t seen them for 3 yrs and am reeeally looking forward to seeing 'em. He’s been through a very tough 1 1/2 yrs with bowel surgery + probs from. Am taking “Cheer you up” pressies, a beautiful opera cd of Jonas Kauffman, currently the most stunning tenor, better even than Placido, plus VERY good looking to boot. To the other extreme ha, a DVD “Wallice and Grommit and the Curse of the WereRabbit” which if you’ve never seen it and you like still have enough of a child in you to love, enjoy PANTO’S (which are as much for adults) - you’ll love this film. Nick Parks is so clever, imaginative and FUNNY. Incredible plasticine like animation. And, Peter Sallis’s voice over is just sooo droll. Brill,giggly stuff. See it. “Chicken Run” is also brilliant. As I said - they’re ADULT panto’s.

Friday - knots to be bashed out of shoulders and shoulder blades.

Next week - ultrasound scan on tum. 

 

Watchin ‘X’. How on EARTH have these two guys got to where they are ?? at the expense of losing two brill singers in Lauren and Chey!! Well Done to Louisa - well deserved.

Nitey-nitey

Delly-who-sings-better-than-Adele-welly xxx She’s a brilliant songwriter, performer and lovely person, but her voice is too harsh for me. xxx

Caffy/Chris - Hi. That’s kind of you to say Chris, but much of my "turn around was initiated by the wonderful support of all on here, plus the “thanks” for mine was what also did it - caused a click/shift - put me back in touch with a very important part of myself - my compassion and passion for people along with my love and need to help people. Quite miraculous really and thank you so much for recognising it. I’m glad you’re doing all right lovey. I read a couple of your posts on the chemo threads. Tough going for you all isn’t it.

Claire - I hope you had your tennis ball punctured !! Nuisance aren’t they. Was it you who gave me the low down on a survey of various treatments tried for hot flushes and a comparison of their effectiveness ??

Teens - awwww, that’s so great that being back at work has given you SUCH a fantastic LIFT and a power of good - just what you needed yey !!! Where in the country are you anyway??  Tina, I’ve been going to panto’s since I was 4 too. But, I was soooo incredibly SHY when I was a kid, right uo to last year (joking!), I wouldn’t join in with the shouting out - got all embarrassed. From being about 20, I now come out HOARSE !!! Great fun. One of the best I saw was Ken Dodd as Jack in The Beanstalk. Never really liked him as a comedian. That totally changed my view of him as a comedian, full of quick witted “off the cuff” repartee. Plus, when the actual panto had ended, he came back on stage and kept us all 3/4 hr longer just doing an impromptu stand up. He’s quite famous for keeping people “locked in” the theatre so to speak. Certainly gives people their moneys worth 

You got someone to go with you on Friday ??

Love to you all

Delly-WooHoo xxx

P.s. - still not getting email notification of relpy responses to anything anymore. Thought I’d sorted why it was, but apparently not !! X  

Hello all!

Sorry I. Haven’t written for a while, I have been keeping up to date on all of your news though, didn’t reply as had been feeling a bit up and down at times.

Tina, im glad you’re back at work, good luck for your first chemo, I’ll be interested to hear how you get on. Claire, how are you? Are you recovering well? I bet you feel a lot better after your drainage, 250ml is a good amount. I’ve had 6 now, have another booked in for Friday, it is definitely reducing though. Have they sorted out your long term prosthetics yet? I picked up mine last week and am getting used to the weight and feel of it. When is your next results appointment?

Amanda, are things okay with you? Delly, I’m glad you’re feeling better and more positive about things, is your cat feeling better now?

I met with the oncologist last week who was very nice. All on track for a January start, either first or second week. I’m trying not to think about it too much as it panics me when I do! I’ve had a couple of nice nights away in London with my husband, saw the Xmas lights, did some shopping and tourist things, ate too much and watched a show. Saw a celeb of sorts whilst in Harrods, not sure if any of you watched I’m a Celebrity get me out of here or Towie, but met and chatted with Ferne McCann who took a picture with us as well! Sissy xx