Just how I feel today! Apologies for the swearing!

Diagnosed with breast cancer Recently diagnosed with breast cancer
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I know people don’t know what to say or how to react.

 

However my face hasn’t slipped down into the space where my left breast used to be. It’s still where my face should be! And yes I do look well. I’m not sure how I should look having got breast cancer and had a mastectomy. Inside I feel bloody awful and I want to scream and cry but I try not to in public. Though I did lose it at the hairdressers on Friday afternoon! (No screaming involved).

 

So when you ask me how I am and I say ‘I’m fine I’m okay’ actually I’m not. I am not pointing the finger or accusing anyone. Not everyone is guilty of doing it. It’s just a personal viewpoint. There are fb friends who are going through cancer, have been through cancer and have had loved ones go on this journey. It might help folk to know how to react. When I say I don’t know what treatment I may need, I really do mean I don’t **bleep** know. I’ll let you know when I do and I tell you when I’ve got MY head around it.

 

So today I’m putting on my makeup and going out for a coffee with a friend who’s going to make me laugh and tell me to snap out of it and stop feeling sorry for myself!

 

But please just remember my face hasn’t moved it’s still where it should be!

Enjoy your Sunday xx

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Drummerswidow good for you, I hope you enjoyed your coffee and your rant and I hope your friend put a smile back on your face.  Sometimes you just have to let it out and it isn’t always pretty pink. xx

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I know that feeling, I was tempted to draw a scary face where my boob was and try it out at Halloween ?

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Very true. It’s early days but still trying to get my head around it. I now have a seroma

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I’m making you a badge to put on over your missing booby. It has an arrow pointing up with the message…

My face is up there! ?

Hope you had a good outing with your friend. ???

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I had my mastectomy and node clearance on 19th October and quickly got a seroma. Now been drained 5 times. Frustrating but thankfully painless to have it drained as area totally numb. Day at a time x

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??? Totally relate to this. I’m now getting asked if I’m back at work yet. No, I’m ****** not.

Yes, I’m through the surgery. No, I don’t need chemotherapy and yes, I’ve signed up to a trial which has decided I don’t need radiotherapy either, although there’s still a question mark over further rads.

So I’ve *just* got the hormone therapy to contend with. Well, I haven’t been on it a week yet and the side effects are entertaining, to say the least.

So, I’m signed off with my BCN and GP’s blessings, taking time for myself to get over this emotionally, mentally and still physically, until the SEs are under control.

Hope you’re having a good day Drummerswidow. How about another coffee outing tomorrow? X