Well just have to wait again for the breast clinic to get in touch. I should get an appointment in about 2 weeks but my Gp said that I must contact her if I dont hear anything in 3 weeks. I’ve decided not to tell my parents as they live in France and I know that mum will only worry and my dad isn’t well at the moment, so It’s just between me, my husband and all of you Ok!!!
I won’t tell my kids either as I know that my girls who are old enough will get upset and I’m sure that it’s nothing so why worry them. My son is too young and wouldn’t understand. Also only last year one of their school friends lost their mum to BC so they do think that everyone who gets it dies. I am also playing it down for my husband as is such a worrier and is not sleeping much as it is and I really could do without him getting ill right now so the fact that all of you are here for me to vent my feelings is fantastic as I sure that I would be out of my mind now without you all keeping my mind occupied.
I’m really trying not to poke or prod myself and just get on with everyday life like decorating and work, I’m a playleader at the local school so the kids keep me going there.
Ahhhhhhh! who am I kidding you’ve all been there and you all know the feeling, I’m bricking myself.
hi - I was just like you - my appt was this morning and I was told it was normal breast tissue
Maybe this will stop me prodding myself all the time and imagining all sorts
I know I am really lucky and I hope you will be too.
Too be honest I feel like a right tit (well most of the time it was my left tit) - did I imagine the whole thing.
good luck
Jane xx
great news jane,
my app is on monday i feel worried but it will probably normal,
sianjane
i had to wait 2 weeks and its flew by but i bet these last few days will drag,
I’ve had strange dreams , been annoyed with my hubby when he gets grumpy over money, I’m like, aaarghh don’t forget me , then i feel guilty when he says “are you ok do you need to talk”,
i’m all over the place, i’m convinced that every little pain i have is connected.
i’m going mad!! lol
but i bet this is normal, better be or i’m for the nut house lol,
this site is great for releasing steam,
chrissy x
Jane - congratulations xx
Sian - you should hear within the next couple of days - I got a phone call from the hospital on the day that I went to the gp.
Chrissy - I dream too when Im stressed, you are normal, either that or we are all mental lol!!!
Yvonne xx
Jane - glad to hear you got good news.
Sian - good luck and I hope the wait is not too long.
Chrissy - everything you are feeling is normal … of course you are all over the place, we’ve all been there.
Yvone - sending love and hugs
Thanks lilac youre a sweetie (((((hugs))))) xx
Thanks everyone.
To be truthful I’m feeling a bit low today. I keep getting pains and I’m alittle under the weather. I’m usually a very jolly person but I just can’t stop thinking about my appointment. It’s been hard over the weekend as I’ve been trying to keep a happy front on things, I have been playing it down for my husband as he’s going through a bad patch of insomnia at the moment and is really stressed. He asked me if I wanted him to come with me to the clinic appointment and I told him that it’s not important and to be honest I think that I would like to go on my own but thats the only time we have spoken about it. I do wish that my mum lived closer as I could really do with a cuddle and a cry at the moment. I think the waiting is the hardest and not knowing. Sorry to moan so much but as I say I’m feeling really low today.
You are not moaning sweetie, heres a cuddle from Sussex coming your way…readyyyyy…
((((((((((((((((((((((((((( cuddle))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
Its so hard all this waiting around but it will get better. Have a cry, do it let go and allow yourself to feel this way, all normal stuff sweetie.
Then later grab your hubby and let him hold you, you are both in this and both need to hugs one another. I bet he feels helpless and not sure what to do and say but hes a big guy now and he needs to know that you need him at this moment too.
So hun be kind to yourself, keep posting and make sure you hold on tight to this rollercoater ride, we are all riding it with you.
Hugs again
P xx
hi Sianjane
I know at the moment you are feeling like you can’t think of anything else but I promise it does get easier. for me the waiting was the worse time, hopefully for you it will be good news, more chances of that than not don’t forget. I too am usually a positive person but having to wait for appointments and results I turned into a person I didn’t know really. But hang in there you will be ok, I don’t feel very ‘up beat’ myself today so I know how you feel but you are ‘normal’ honest.
Keep your chin up
Deb x
Hi debs and paula,
Thanks for that I really needed it. It’s so easy to get lost in myself I forgot that my husband might be struggling with the thought of it too. I don’t like being out of control of things it’s not like me. This site is a god send It’s just what I need at a time like this.
Sian X
Hi Sian
Sorry you are feeling down today, its funny how we go soooo up and down with this waiting thing. One day fine then its like a weight comes down. I always have a bit of a pamper when I feel like that, and while I am doing it I have a good cry. I am glad I have this site though as my wait is so long no one talks about it here anymore, and I dont want to go on either. I would rather talk to you lovely ladies on here.
(((((hugsssss))))
Yvonne xx
Hi Yvonne,
We’ll go on about it together.
Sianx
Good Idea xx
HI all
Can’t keep[ it together today, just keep grizzling even I am getting on my nerves!!! how can I pull myself out of it help anyone. I want to be cheery! even my poor son knows I’m not myself and we are only talking on MSN.
Help
Deb x
Hi Deb,
As you already know I wasn’t doing so well earlier but as the day has gone on and I’ve done things with the kids and gone about my normal business I have managed to put it to the back of my mind. But just now when I finally sat down for a cupper It comes rushing back. It’s always the what if its this or what if that happens, how am I going to deal with this if it is BC. Crazy I know and I should keep things in check. Funny how you lot are the only people who really knows how I feel. Debs I know exactly how you feel and you grizzle as much as you need to because behind the scenes there are loads of us how are finding it hard to keep this together.
Thinking of you
Sianxx
Hey Sian
Glad you are feeling a bit better now :o)
Debs I think you need to give yourself a break, you are fully entitled to feel like this this week. If its any help I have noticed that once the girls have had their ops they seem brighter I hope this is the case with you too. (((hugs)))
Yvonne x
Hi Sian
Sorry you are having a bad day … as has been said countless times before the waiting is probably the hardest part. There is every chance that you will get good news and I will continue to keep my fingers crossed for you. you menion about wondering how you will cope if it is BC - and hopefully you will never need to find out - but if you do have BC then you WILL cope… we all cope one way or another. Once you know what the problem is and what is going to be done to sort it out you just get on in there and get on with it as best you can. I’m not saying it’s easy - it’s not, but we get there in the end.
Good luck.
Hi Sian and Debs
Hang on in there, we all have our bad days,its allowed.Its hard sometimes to try and be cheery for others,but you will get through, no matter what the outcome.
Stay positive
Mary
x