Left In Limbo

Currently waiting for my core biopsy results which i’ve to go in for on Tues 26th April.

I have had this lump now for 6wks…and have kinda made peace with myself if it’s bad news.

My story, i am 32. Mum to 5. My mum & her 2 sisters both died of BC, my mum before passing was positive for the brca gene to which i was ment to be having testing for.

Found my lump 6wks ago, waited till my period passed to rule out normal changes, checked again 3wks later to find it had grown from roughly a pea size to a marble / grape. Not completely round, but hard and un-movable. Went to docs, referred to clinic & had my tests done on Wed there 20th. A scan then a mammogram then a scan / core biopsy. She couldn’t confirm / deny anything, all she told me was its a definate solid mass. So as you do came home & hit google searching for answers!! It’s Friday, will be a long weekend for me, anyone else in limbo? Or recently had results? Anyone can relate to me with any info would be appreciated

Hiyer. I am a little beyond you in timescale, I had a lumpectomy and sentinel node removal this Tuesday. Whilst I have no familial history of BC I can certainly relate to your awful wait for those results. I was told practically the same thing as you at my core biopsy, mammogram and ultrasound. It was a hideous, simply hideous couple of weeks, where my mind was nowhere else but focused on fear and what ifs and to be frank hysteria and then a few moments of acceptance and then hysteria again. My results were longer than expected due to the Easter weekend delays. I think, IF you find out that you have BC then you can congratulate yourself on your proactive and entirely brave approach to checking out this lump. Really, you sound like you have acted in such a way that you have given yourself the best chance of  successful treatment. Let’s also be clear that the huge majority of people nowadays do have successful individualised treatment. Reassure yourself that times have really moved on since your Mum and Aunty sadly lost their lives to this disease.

Obviously, you don’t know the results yet and all those pathology facts and figures,( by the way everyone does it, tries to fill the void of a lack of knowledge by hitting the Internet, but of course there are no answers there until the results are in), but if you are feeling acceptance even before your results then you have done MASSIVELY well to come to terms with things. I hope for your sake that it’s benign of course, but if it isn’t then you are mentally preparing yourself for the  alternative which is so strong of you.

I can’t tell you that your weekend will be easy, it won’t, but try and fill your day with as much normality as you can, even though your mind will find that very hard to focus on distractions. Remember there is life after the results, no matter what those results are. Things carry on and will carry on, even if you do need treatment.

 

Charys X 

Thank You so much for your reply Charys x

I really don’t have any other option than to face the music & dance. I have 5 children who need me, which gives me my strength to know i’ll face anything head on which may come my way.

I have always thought it would be me who would end up with bc, as sick as that sounds, i just felt the odds have always been stacked against me. Even if this is benign - i still fear in the future it will knock on my door.

Thank you for your words of encouragment, your right - there will be life after these results no matter what x

Thank You Jo :slight_smile: I really admire your outlook on life, i intend to be the same regardless of my results on Tuesday. I’ve had over 6wks since i found lump & i have went through everything as you can imagine and the main conclusion i have come to is to appreciate life more, and love as hard as i can.

My mum passed away nearly 5yrs ago now, she was confirmed as having the brca gene, have no idea of my other 2 aunts as i was younger… My mum had cancer for 3yrs and was never in remission in any of that time… Xx

Hi Charys. My biopsy results are Tuesday at 8.30am. Glad it’s early, put kids into breakfast club & head there, least i’m not waiting around all day.

Thanks so much Jo - really admire your attitude. I feel i am also a cup half full kinda girl so i can relate.

Pleased your in a much better place now and wish you all the best.

My days have been kept busy with my 5. I have a wee guy just turned 1 so i’m always on my toes :slight_smile:

I will report back with my results. Thanks all who commented x

Hello lovelies. Just came back to share my results today. It was benign, a fibrodenema (sp) it also wansnt Atypical Hyperplasia. So nothing needs done on that front. I am being sent to the family gene clinic testing as my mum & her both sisters had BC. Not worrying about that right now tho as i am over the moon with my result. Thank you for all the replies, wish you all well x

I’m also having to wait until Tuesday. I have a permanent stomach ache and am in total disbelief as I was so fit and healthy before all this worry. I was lying in the bed with all these needles going in thinking what the hell is going on. ? Ive decided to expect the worse but yt doesnt help with the constant tummy ache. They don’t reassure you as I think they’re worried of being sued if they’re wrong. I went into the most terrible shakes on the bed and that just carried on with the biopsy as if I wasn’t there. I’ve been off sick from work since Wednesday .yet on the Tuesday I was happy and very well.it’s just crazy .