I was day2 post 2nd TAC and not feeling great. Weather forcast was threatening and I’d made tentative arrangements to visit my bro & his oh who are just about to have a baby.
I was so tempted to not make the effort - 50 mile round trip et al, so suggested that we go to garden centre and see how it went.
Garden centre was lovely (esp cream tea!) and little one age 3 was so happy to see the fish, rabbits, birds and even the plants and pebbles. Watchng her stick her hands into the fountains and giggle with wet sleeves was a joy!
Then decided to brave the rest of the trip and went to a park where they sell the BEST chips in the world ( and ketchup - we’re from the south!) and huge cups of ice cream.
THEn we attempted my bro - not in, despite arrangement. So we went to the beach. The weather was fantastic (of only my head were completely hair free and glowing I’d have abandoned the wig!) and littlest had her first donkey ride. How can you get so emotional about watching your baby sit on a donkey on Weston sands? I did! She then ran the miles to the sea and sped up and down the beach and lay doing sand angels with her arms.
And I just enjoyed the moments. No wondering if I’ll get to be part of her life for ever, etc, just lived the joy of seeing her now.
sounds like you hade a great day Waitingangel. i’m now in the mood for chips and ice-cream although not together. tehe! i love watching kids run about laughing - makes me laugh when they laugh.
Hi Angel, I love your attitude, you are making the best of everything and enjoying the moment, good on ya. It is easy to be in the depths of despair and decide it’s easier to put off doing things you would normally do - OK we all have to do things a bit differently until we’re feeling stronger and more energetic but I was determined to have plenty of GOOD memories of 2008 and not to just put my enjoyment of life 100% on hold.
I have always tried to live my life not taking things and people for granted and to enjoy every day and find the good in things but I think sometimes when you’re dealt a sh1tty card like this, it makes you appreciate things all the more, and that is not a bad thing.
Now I want CHIPS but I am having a healthy dinner today
there are so many things we used to take for granted, that mean so much to us now. I have had many days that have been so good for me, but for someone else, just a matter or course. its so nice to hear that we have such good days to, through all going on and we should all share them
hope to have many more like it
now i want chips and ice cream too!!
deb x
You sounded like you had a wonderful day. Children can find joy and happiness out of practically anything and it certainly rubs off on those with them. I do miss having small children around. I also admire your attitude. We all have breast cancer, some much worse than others but no-one truly knows what is around the corner for them regardless because life is a mystery. We can choose to sit and wait for the bad things to happen or say what the hell and enjoy the present. I also now have a longing for some chips!!
I love watching small children enjoying the simple things we take for granted. I can visualise her running on the sand and making sand angels, and almost imagine the sand beneath my own feet!
Hope you’ve had some more good days to treasure, and I pray we will all have some this year, is spite of this wretched bc.
Sounds like a great day-it really is the small things in life that give so much pleasure, and make memories to treasure. It’s an awful, cruel disease, but it does make us see life through new eyes,and take nothing for granted. Chips, mmmm, sounds like a plan!
