Hi, everyone. It’s my first post here and hopefully my last, LOL.
I’m female, 21, and never had cancer. It all started in mid April when I noticed a pair of lumps in my right breast, one hard and one soft and moveable. I panicked about it for about a month, until the hard lump disappeared, leaving just the soft one.
This eased my anxieties for a bit, but after a while I started wondering why the second lump wasn’t going away. Even so, I convinced myself that it was just a cyst or fibroadenoma and that I didn’t need to scare my mother about it. (side note: I’m autistic and currently unable to drive or make my own appointments.)
This continued on and off for several months. I’d panic about the lump, convince myself it’s getting bigger, then convince myself it’s actually getting smaller and isn’t a big deal, feel a random bodily sensation, convince myself it’s cancer-related, rinse and repeat.
Well, much more recently I’ve noticed that breast has grown several new lumps, all moveable but very large, and that breast has a slightly changed shape. If I had to describe it, it looks a bit more square than the other. Furthermore, I’ve been getting a bunch of weird pimples and moles on my right breast, chest, and right shoulder. (I think there are some on my back, as well, but it’s hard to tell.)
Needless to say, I’ve been freaking out to the moon and back, practically convinced I’ve waited so long that cancer has spread from my breast to my skin. I finally spoke up to my mom about it back in late July, and she’s looking for a doctor for me now.
I’m kicking myself for not speaking up and having it looked at much earlier, because the possibility of having metastatic breast cancer has shaken me. I’ve been trying to remain positive, though; I know that cancer is very rare for people my age, and I suspect it could just be fibrocystic breast symptoms. If it isn’t any trouble, though, could I have some advice and some positive stories while I wait? I also wouldn’t mind knowing what to expect in the event that it does turn out to be cancer.
TL;DR, I’ve got a lumpy boob and a bunch of moles. Waited way too long to find a doctor. Please tell me I’m going to be okay.