Thanks so much @want2beme .
The first session went too smoothly 

. Or calm before the storm. 


. Not sure yet. Not getting too cocky either. Although I am relieved that I got through it.
It took 2.5hrs. longer than expected. But the chairs were recliners, which meant I was very comfortable. The Nurse even gave me a wheelie stool to put my legs up further as I am tall.
They gave me a pillow to rest my PICC arm on, so no need to take a pillow case to cover chair arms for treatment. But people may like one for the other arm. I didnt.
Perhaps a neck pillow is a good idea. I asked for a pillow for my neck, as leaning back is uncomfortable for me without one. I was given one straight away.
The staff did everything they could to make me comfortable. 


I needed to unplug, but take the stand with me, when I needed a wee for the E out of EC. I couldnt go for a wee with the C part of the drug. So be warned go to the loo prior to treatment as much as possible. But ask what treatments mean you cant go to the toilet, so you know to drink less.
I had two syringes for E (2x100). Then two for C (1 x 1000, 1x 300).
With the new PICC I felt nothing. No pain, no stinging. My PICC area is bruised, as expected. The lovely nurse looked so apologetic, but I reassured her that I seriously was fine. Note: The PICC took 2hrs to insert as Id agreed to staff training session re new equipment. Go to PICC threat to hear story
. Hence the bruise.
My wee is pink 

. Ive been told to flush twice and up the bleach and disinfectant in the bathroom. But sensibly not through fear.
all normal. The E was red liquid. 
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After the C I did have minor odd sensations (micro minor) around my nose. But it was fine whilst I chatted to another lady. I was going to tell the Nurse but the machine buzzed her anyway. The dose had finished. So she couldnt have reduced the speed anyway
which she would have done. They need to know HOW to navigate our bodies. So ask, ask, ask.
I felt light headed and woozy leaving the hospital. But the same as I would if I had a glass of wine. Sorry, I am a lightweight with wine 

. Like wineā¦i went to bed after having something to eat at 5.30pm. I was woken at 9pm when a lovely friend rang to see how I was. We had a good long chat and I couldnt sleep afterwards 

. I would have slept longer. But the chat was lovely
Re symptoms: ā¦.No sickness yet at 1am 

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They gave me lunchā¦sandwich, yogurt, biscuits, cupa soup and 3 cups of tea. No sickness. Nothing.
Prior to the EC I had 30mins of anti sickness and steroids, given via the PICC. So I am assuming thats why food hasnt bothered me.
They also flushed out the PICC a few times. Painless. The machines are super sensitive. So the Nurses are on the ball in seconds. Nothing worrying at all. Just needed to alter things, re do, alter speed of administration. Id rather that than being given too much. So dont worry about a buzzing machine. There were the odd minor air bubble. Tiny. I asked about these and was told the body just sorts it all out. You need āhugeā air bubbles to be a serious concern. These were tiny (a mm at the most/smaller). Im curious so it was good to ask questions.
Nurse was happy to answer all questions. She gave me all the names of all the drugs. Cant spell any of them 

. I wrote them down in phonetical form
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My meds bag for home? ā¦. its actually quite tiny really, thank goodness, there are 3 small boxes of different anti sickness, to be taken at different times and a small box of steroids. I need to take 4 of the steroids at breakfast. For two days. One of the anti sickness needs taking at nighttime because it makes us sleepy. Some For ā as and whenā. Most finish by Monday.
I got a taxi home ( a friend came with me home).
I would not have been safe driving. Even though I could walk and chat. I was too woozy.. At the level where someone would have a beer and say āOh Im not that bad I can take a riskā. My answer would be a clear āNo. stop. think. Its not safeā.
Joy of all joys, I have the single jab for white blood cells. 


. Soooooo Happy. I can do that.
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So that needed to go in Fridge. I take it out 30mins before using. It has to me taken at 1.30pm. 24hrs after treatment.
Im not fooled by the fact this is a journey. But I am prepared for the moon falling on the world 


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I was advised to use cuticle oil, and clear nail varnish. So I went to Boots and got a clear Protein varnish, and a vitamin enriched oil. I put those on toes/fingers before treatment. I put lots of moisturiser on as well.
I wore my wig to see how it felt in the hospital. It was fine. People were shocked it was a wig.
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I am not cold capping. I dont like the cold and I dont want to be sat on a chair all day. My back would not cope with such a long time, in a chair .
A lady was there for post treatment. Shed cold capped and hated it (7hrs in the hospitalā
). She had got hair thinning, and patches at the side of her crown, but other than that a lot of her hair remained. From a distance you couldnt tell. But I still dont want to cold cap. Go with your GUTs but be informed. Its got to be right for all of us,what ever we choose.
I will lose my hair, it may grow back differently. But I see so many women smiling and having fun with no hair. I will just cope with pain and discomfort with my option. It seems there are yin and yang elements to both.
The lady went through it as her husband was worried about her losing her hair. So she did it for him. I admire her for that. Truly so, but for me
mmm, mastectomies, pain, seromas, medication, side effects, treatments have a toll on us. So I make informed choices. We are all different and our lives are different.
What to take? I took water and snacks. But food and drinks were provided so I didnt need them. But worth taking just in case.
I chose not to take a blanket as reception agreed it was hot in my hospital. But
next time I may just take a light one. Id taken a shawl instead of a coat. It was cosy having my soft shawl on my legs. That was nice as Nurses move around and cool air moves with them like a fan
, so a light blanket would be nice. I wore thin socks. Bare feet may have got cold, as you sit a long time.
I did take light layersā¦two TShirts, light cardie, Shawl. I was very comfortable.
I didnt take slippers but these may have been handy going to the toilet. I just went in my socks. But not ideal.
Hope this helps navigate a complex process.
Oh I meditate. Not in any extreme way. I learnt to simply relax years ago. I use to get horrid panic attacks. But I learnt to just focus on one thing. Something nice. Push away all the yeuk stuff.
I do it walking, shopping, resting, reading throughout the day. Anytime. Seconds or minutes. I shut out the clutter. 

It seriously helps me cope.
I had my blood pressure taken. The Nurse was surprised at it being normal. She said people usually have higher BP due to anxiety going for their first treatment. So it clearly works.
I think about what will stress me and do something nicer eg. I went earlier and chose some nice snacks. The Nurse gave me a cup of tea prior to treatment. Ooops hence needing a wee mid way through 
.
So, save spilling a bit, 

ooops, I was fine.
Id gone on my own as well. Half of the people, men as well went on their own. One lady was fast asleep, reclined backwards. Totally relaxed. A man was reading his book 
.
This was a relaxed and caring environment. Certainly nothing like we can create in our minds. 


Its not easy, Im not fooled, this IS tough, but I am also realistic. I choose my battles.
I work on the ideaā¦..Only fight the battles we need to. Let the others go. Dont fight ones that are not battles. Yesterday and today were not battles. They were quite pleasant and relaxed.
HUGE shout out to the Nurses, cleaners, Admin, Drug companies, Surgeons, Inventers, manufacturers, people who make chemo hats. Therapists, etc etc who are making my treatment possibleā






. Without them helping strangers, me, I wouldnt be alive today. Thankyou. 
