hi all, one min i’m ok next i’m close to panicking, this is so awful, still keep thinking im not going to survive this, so blooming scared about having to face chemo, then surgery it is just so daunting, ive had anxiety disorder for years and i cant even take antibiotics with out panicking about side effects ect… used to get awful panic attacks years ago, they have calmed down, don’t get so many now but they are starting up again, was close to having one last night but stopped it, im really trying to think positive but that little niggle is telling me im not going to survive chemo let alone this monster thats inside me, sorry im such a mess, i hope everyone is doing well xx
Hi eeyore
I think we all feel overwhelmed at times , I have one lymph node positive like you and due to start chemo in next couple of weeks.
If the anxiety is getting too much , maybe talk to your GP about getting some more help with this.I am on citalopram a low dose and I think this has helped.You could also ask Macmillan about some counselling, or try sharing with friends or family how you are feeling.
I don’t think they would suggest chemo if they thought it was too risky for you and will closely monitor us.
Sending hugs x