Minor freak out - nerves are shot!

I was diagnosed last week and am waiting for my referral for a scan and consult as as soon as I found the lump I went to a private doctor and now being referred back to the NHS.

Every single twinge and ache I have now convinced myself is cancer. I spent a 4 hour journey googling all my symptoms to see what it meant and I am waking up each day with a mild panic attack.

I am really quite bloated and gassy. No other symptoms than that but its freaking me out. Could be anxiety I suppose but I just want to know now so I can move forwards and find out if there is anything they can do to help me.

I think my lump has grown too - do they swell after biopsy and marker? Can things progress super quickly after diagnosis - I am losing my mind!?

Hi 

I was also worried about my lump as it seemed to grow after biopsy. I felt guilty that I hadn’t noticed such a big lump in my breast. But it was the biopsy which caused it to swell. It took about 2 weeks to go down!

is the bloating stress related?

can you do tummy stretches or Pilates. I find that helps when I suffer with bloating.  
Good luck xx

Hi, 

I know how you feel about any aches or pains, you think the cancer has spread

I had my mri last week so waiting for the results which are making me feel so nervous 

I hope you get an appointment soon and it helps you settle , also try not to Google your symptoms as it increases your anxiety 

I’ve just started reading a book called breathe in breathe out , I’m hoping it will help me calm my mind as I too feel like I’m going crazy and feeling very low 

I know how you feel. Have my MRI on Thursday and had an appointment with the doctor on Monday but got a phone call this morning cancelling until the following Monday. I’m feeling really low now and unable to do anything. And my imagination has gone into overdrive. I know I should keep busy and will try and pick myself up for tomorrow. Take care. Hope you get your appointment soon.

Hi SJSB22

Im sorry you are feeling freaked out but equally I know it is hard not to be. This is a journey none of us want to be on.

This is my second time around and like you freaked out by it. My imagination is running a riot in my head. 

The first time I was full of optimism and just thankful it had been found and was being sorted.

At the moment I’m not mustering up any optimism at all. Nurse says it’s a normal response for many ladies who end up with a second diagnosis. 

Im hoping to hear the lymph nodes are clear and then I may be able to feel more hopeful. This is so out of character for me as Im always practical & try to see a positive in all situations.

I was told by nurse I might need a bit of support to deal with my emotions, she suggested I used the units counselling service & support. I dont think I need it yet but good to know it’s an option and obviously there are nurses on this site too.

Reading your post it came into my mind this type of support may be an option for you too if you get too panicky. I got great support from this forum last time but I did utilise the counselling that was offered aswell. Im not sure of how quickly things can progress after diagnosis I suppose its all down to type & stages . Must admit Iv been thinking now the cancer has been disturbed by the biopsy is there a greater risk cells will break off and already be off on their travels. So youre not on your own losing your mind 

I wish you well xx